Warning! Bad English!

[Marith]

First day at the new school. I don't know if I should cry or yell out all my anger. :cry: / :furious:

The reason is a little complicated. First, I didn't hear a word in that jumble of voices, and that gave me a headache. Second, I'm quite shy and don't dare speak to unknown people. I need time and patience. Third, I'm going to begin with German in addition to English, the tought of that just make me sick.

(Ok, I'm complaining a lot today, usually I don't, but I have to place it somewhere. I'm trying not to snap at people around me.)

There is more. Two weeks ago I cut away a lymph gland. The doctors say I have Hodgkins lymphom, which almost certainly is a kind of cancer. To get well I must be given "cell poison" (don't know the exact word for "cellegift" in English) at the hospital, don't know if it will be the one nearby or the one in Oslo. Anyway, I'll be away from school a while. Maybe not long, but I know not much yet, have to wait for a phone call...
I'm very irritated at myself at the moment. Why right now? I haven't time! (Couldn't the summer holiday be a little longer...)

Perhaps this look like I'm very depressed. For those interested; I'm happy with most of my life, and much could be worse. Today I really have a bad temper...

[Marith]

Better today. Have gotten all the books and tomorrow the ordinary school begins. Math, German, English and Economy. Friday is the worst day. :(

Just had to say that today was brighter than yesterday... :D

[Marith]

I hate (hey, wait, I'll use a better word), dislike strongly English and German. Mostly we've group work. 30 pupils chatting at the same time. Didn't hear a single word from my desk-mate during an interview... Tinnitus is really annoying! It's like having an alarm clock inside your head. Argh! I don't want to continue school if I'm going to get a headache every day.

I guess this will become a personal venting thread... :dozey:

[Marith]

I were at the hospital this afternoon. The doctor said I had to go to Radiumhospitalet in Oslo in about 2 weeks. :( I'm really nervous about that...
Today I also took a test from my marrow in the hip. I didn't hurt much, but I heard the crack (and felt it, got something for the pain, but not for the touch). *shudders*
Now I can not walk far for very long time. In addition to me, my mother has cut some nerves in her right hand, and my brother broke his arm yesterday. Now I'm too fed up with sickness... :tard:

[Marith]

I've had only 4 real periods this day, because I can't have physical education and in addition to that I'd two "study-periods" at the library.
However, I still has the annoying tinnitus... :grumbles:

Feel like an old grandma who has fell on the ice, (the marrow-test).

Haven't time to write anymore, the dinner is ready. Mother's Pizza! *drools*

[Marith]

Yay! I'm going to the Radium Hospital in Oslo on Tuesday. I got a big map with "huge amounts" of information and rights.:D I guess I won't be back before next weekend after leaving on T.

[Marith]

Seems I have to be here a little longer. My doctor won't come until Friday... I think I'll take a year away from school, because this will take time (about 6 months, maybe more) and I don't like to not show what I really can...

Now, I sit at the "school" here at the Radium Hospital. I have free access (?) to PC, (but no dictionary...) :type:
Took 4 marrow-tests from my hip. Nothing special has happened today, except that.
Fortunately, my mother is with me so I'm not completely alone.
I could have written much more here, but it's not smart to say everything about yourself at the Internet...

[Marith]

Today I didn't eat before dinner time. I should have been through a surgery, but my veins were... (bad explaining) ...too thin. The "vap" (a medicial instrument) must have some space. Difficult to write this understanable. Tomorrow I'll meet my doctor, and perhaps I'll begin with "cell-poison", perhaps not. Perhaps I can take the train home and be there in the weekend. (Many "perhapses"). I already miss home, my dog and rabbits, and persons who not wear white! Well, it isn't quite so bad here after all, just that everything is different.

Last night I was woken because one of the nurses asked me if I wanted something that made me sleep... A little annoying.

[Marith]

Have had my first part of "cell-poison" (I've to find the English word for that!) and feel... strange. I was a little sick in the morning, but not as sick as I believed I would be. I have a needle in my left hand, and it's irritating because the hand have to lie still all the time, even at night!
Tomorrow I'll get another part of the cure. This time it will last two hours each day over a 4 days period, (you see?). Originally, I could have been home today, but since I can't swallow whole pills I've to get them through my veins. (Blood, marrow-tests, needles and "cell-poison" is alright "in a way", but swallowing whole pills... No! Never!)

I wish I could be a totally normal person living a totally normal life...

When I get home I'll cut my braid and store it in a shelf in my rom. I guess I will look quite ugly... He, he...:D (Wonder how many times I'll beat my back-head with the hairbrush before I learn). I can't do anything else than laugh of all this, that's the best way to get over it. Won't think bad thoughts, like... ops! I forgot! :p

[Marith]

Today I have been really tired. I have almost slept constantly since 10 am to now! Have no control of myself any longer... :(
I got "cell-poison" (please, can someone pm me the right word?!) for two hours this morning and am still not getting serious sick. I cross my fingers all the time hoping for not to throw up.
Blæh! But the food tastes paper! Everything tastes paper! (And I tried to eat paper once, so I know how it's like...) :dozey:

Here I have something to say to you who smoke or/and drink:
Try to stop in time! Please, I'm begging you! Cancer in lounge or liver are much more dangerous than Hodgkins, and I would never think of letting my worst enemy experience what I'm going through.

This is a little prayer. You can say what you mean about prayers, but this is still a prayer for you.

And if you ever get the message "you have cancer;" don't get panic, however you're allowed to cry and shout (and laugh, if you feel for it). Try to look forward to something, perhaps not something grand, just something positive.

I have no clear idea why I wrote the last sentences, (I'm really tired), just think of your own lifestyle. Of course, I'm too young to say anything about life-experience, (16 is no age), but I have begun to think more serious in a way.

[Marith]

Better. Much better, to be honest. Thanks to both Mizz Elayne and False Dragon for pm'ing me! :D ("Cell poison" and "chemotherapy" can be used, anyway I guess people who have read this Reflection thread understand mostly).

As I said, today is much better. The sun is shining, I'm going home on Wednesday, everything is alright. I really miss my dog when I'm here. My father says she looks around him everytime he comes home and then she begins to cry... She is not used to only have my brother and father home. :cry:

I've become left-handed since yesterday. :) Have a needle in the right, and write v-e-r-y s-l-o-w-l-y... This morning I was quite dizzy when I woke up, I managed to say I was born 11.25.87., when I suddenly realized: "Hm, it isn't 25 months in a year, isn't it?" (The worst part was when I even wasn't sure then...) <-Bad sentence!

I look forward to get home! We get free taxi from Oslo to Porsgrunn... He, he. :D *jumps impatiently on the chair, waiting for the wonderful "W-day"*

[Marith]

Perhaps this will be the last post for a while, my internet back home isn't thrustworthy... My father is thinking about a new connection (ADSL) and with him it will certainly take some time. :rolleyes:

Another sleepy day. I'm thinking about how it will be back again. I don't need to think of school this year, and that will be quite strange! I also have to stay clear of sick people (no offence! :D ) until May/June. If I get "The Flu" (with capital "T") my cure will be stopped until I'm ok again, and that can take months!

Here at the Radium Hospital they have a kind of "activity center," where you can make belts, paint on silk, glass, aquarel, acryl, and a lot of other things. Maybe I'll spend more of my day there next time... Can make many presents for Christmas that way... :D

"I'm going home tomorrow! I'm going home tomorrow!" (I could repeat that forever...) *falls out of chair* :p

[Marith]

Got my internet back again at home to day, but now I'm visiting Mizz Elayne. Nice to see her again! :D
Don't want to say all that has happened the last time, but I've been tired, slept the whole day, had a kind of ache in my bones...

My looking has changed a lot! I don't recognize myself in the mirror.
I have no hair, and I refuse to wear a wig. Besides, I have to use my glasses because my eyes are too dry for lenses... Honestly, I look quite ugly, and I'm proud of that. (I should post a picture) :D

Going to Oslo at monday. By cab. The hospital pays! He, he...

I'm changed. Both inside and outside.

[Marith]

Began with cell poison again yesterday. My legs are filled with water... :dozey:

The doctors couldn't give me my VAP (Venous Access Point) at Thursday, and the found that out AFTER I'd been given drugs to calm down. This is the second time that happen... :grumbles:
The point with the VAP is to be spared from all the needles. My arms are already yellow and blue.

Indeed, I look forward to May/June!

Strange to see myself in the mirror, let's say I'm a Seanchan noble... :D
(Have read too much WoT).

[Marith]

At the hospital again. I've been tired all day. Sleeping don't help, when I wake up I'm just as tired as I was...

Yay, I found it funny to play "The Sims" yesterday. Haven't done that in months. Scary... :2eyes:

The weekends at the hospital is quite boring. I don't mean to say it's really fun to be here in the middle of the week either (!), but NOTHING happens here now. Usually, there's activities like visits and trips to a forest area outside Oslo. Not much, but this is more than a usual hospital. In fact, it's Scandinavia's only "cancer-hospital", (I read it somewhere).

Well, that thing about "being positive" all the time doesn't work anymore... I want to kick something, most of all myself. :tard:

This will take a looong time!

A nice fact at the end: I don't have any hurts today! That's worth a cup of milk! (Love milk). :cheers:

[Marith]

Ok, here's my day:

8.00 - woke up
8.45 - eating breakfast, (and chortizone (kortison på norsk), which tastes horrible!)

And yeah, I used 45 minutes just TO WAKE UP...

9.30 - sleepy/waiting :dozey:
11.20 - brushing teeth (oh, that hurt...)
11.45 - cell poison/sleepy/dozy
14.15 - salt water/heparin
14.18 - DINNER! (Still no taste... Grr... Or hunger.) :mad:
15.something - sleepy/dozy/watching "Lilo & Stitch" with my mother
16.15 - Chocolate milk! (tasted metal) :2eyes:
16.18 - PC, and here I'm!

When you get cell poison, you also get an awful taste of the medicine in your mouth. It tastes like... hmmm... plastic is the nearest I can tell. I'm afraid I'll vomit every time, and the hospital smell will soon make me crazy.
Something you'll never ever get used to...

Perhaps my English is a litle bad. I don't care about spelling and sentences, (as you see), and I've forgotten most of my vocabulary... Fun! :rolleyes:

[Marith]

Today has been almost the same as yesterday.

Tomorrow I'm going home again! Weee! :D :D :D

Most of the people here are "old adults", like 60+. Actually, it's interestning to listen to what they have to say. At the last evening meal we heard about the 2. World War here in Norway from a man who is about 80 years old. He was a good teller, and you enjoyed the story, even when it was about "not-so-nice-things" (it was about the war, after all!).

Sometimes I wish I was an old lady who could share her life-experience with others. (Possibly a patethic thought, but it pops up in my head regularly).

At "my" part of the hospital, they take in people with lymph cancer, (like me), + those who have something called sarcoms, (cancer in "soft parts of the human body" + skeleton cancer.
I'm lucky I got this kind of lymph cancer, because it's about 90 percent who get over it. It can come back, after months/years, don't know what I'll do then. Don't want to think of it. *shudders*

[Marith]

I'm home!!! :)

My dog was really happy to see me, she has been around me all the evening.
It's comforting to have an animal like her, they don't mind how you look and understand if you're sick. Everywhere I go now, I make people react. Not so strange, since it's not usual with bald, young girls... I understand that. The funniest thing to watch, is the babies. They haven't "learned" to look away, so they stare with big eyes! And sometimes they make a broad smile and pat themselves at their heads, like saying: "I too haven't hair..."

Today has consisted of much waiting. First, waiting for the cell poison to drop in. Second, waiting for a cab to drive us home. Third, waiting in the cab to GET HOME! And then waiting for a pizza... :D

Bad weather here. The rest of "Lisa" has come to southern and western parts of Norway, considerably weaker than in Florida, (luckily!).

Oh, tonight I'm going to sleep in my own bed again... :zzz:

[Marith]

After a long night with lightnings, cold ears, and a dog with a bad stomach (don't want to go in details here!), everybody was pretty tired this morning. I woke up at 10.45 am! I'm getting lazy...

Today I was at my local hospital to get a tiny cell poison cure, (it lasts only 15 minutes, usually they're about 2-2,5 hours in my case). The poison affect my nervous system, and now I feel like a balloon with arms and bones like small fire-sticks. Strange... :confused:

I'm curios to see how I'll react further in the week...

[Marith]

Nothing special has happened today. The weather has been gray and "sleepy". It's contsantly moist outside, and the garden are overcrowded with large brown snails and slippery leaves. Just a usual day in the autumn.
I like those days.

I have said before than I feel tired almost all the time. It's not "tired" like all you want is sleep. It's a feeling that you don't want to do anything. Like reading, for example. I have a lot of books to read, however, I don't manage to start... When I read an article in the newspaper, I fall out of the story before I'm finished. It's annoying.

Often I have a bad conscience because I'm a lot away from my friends. I love them, I really do! There are also periods when I can't be near other people because the risk of infection. I've never been especially social, but in these periods I feel pretty isolated.

Today has consisted of sitting on the sofa and stare into nothing. Quite boring, still I'm to tired to do anything else...

...at least I don't have pains. :) :D

[Marith]

I just have to say that I'm so happy today. And at he same time I'm sad.
I've the strange feeling that I've "woken up" in a new world where I see what's really happening. It's so strange a feeling, life has become richer, in a way. I have no right to complain.

When I watch or read about persons out there in the world, (or in my neigbourhood, for that sake), that are having a bad time, feeling alone or has lost everything, I just want to stretch out and give them a great hug! A hug and some nicely chosen words to make them feel cared for.

But that's complicated. Perhaps they want to be alone with their problems/feelings. Perhaps they hurry away from me and wonder if I'm a lunatic or something. Perhaps I'm the wrong person. Or, perhaps they need someone who sees them. Perhaps they're longing for be respected as an equal.

I sat for hours thinking about this yesterday and today, and just want to react in some way. But I don't dare. It's so scary to be with others, even if you think you know them. However, contact is necessary in our world, and I want to do something to help others. It could be a small thing...

Don't think anyone understand clearly what I'm trying to explain. Don't do it myself, either... It's just... I want to share this with people.

[Marith]

I'm still feeling so extremely happy. I can sit and smile for hours. :D

Yesterday I got another cell poison cure. The blood tests told that I almost don't have any immune system left, but I feel better than I've been for a long time... Just hoping I don't get that aching in the skeleton again... :2eyes:

Hopefully I can join a birthday party for a friend of mine at Saturday. I've made a present for her that I think she'll like... ;)

[Marith]

You can never trust your internet connection... :grumbles:

Well, I was in that birthday party I wrote about. Wonderful to see someone except my own family!

Almost a week has gone without writing here, so just to sum up: I've been too tired to sleep/eat/think, I've just been sitting completely still.

Tomorrow I'm going in another birthday party, (many of my friends and family members are born in the last part of October). I hope my sore throat/tounge is better then, because we're going to have homemade pizza!

I can't think clear. I'm ranting. (Surprise... :dozey: )

[Marith]

I've been to the Radium Hospital for three days, and have been to ehh... dizzy and tired to write anything. At Thuesday I finally got a VAP (Venous Access Port). It hurts a little, however it's getting better day by day. When I woke up from the narcosis I just began to cry -don't know exactly why, I wasn't afraid or hurt or something -just got a sudden urge to cry on the top of my loungs... :confused:

Began on a new kind of cell poison cure at Wednesday. This one is better than the two I've had before, but I have to drink cell poison three times a day. My mother put it in some sugared water so it tastes less bitter. I think on that sickly, sweet taste everytime, and count the hours to next time... *shudders* :2eyes: Many kinds of food have similar admixtures of the ones in the medicine (bad explaining...), and this makes it difficult to eat enough. (I shall eat at least 8 times a day, preferably with so much fat and sugar as possible).

I just want to vomit every time I think of food... :blue:

[Marith]

Not much has happened since last time. I'm too tired to do anything at all.
Now I'm halfway in my chemotherapy; a good feeling!
My life feels a little pardoxal at the moment; first, I would like to say that I'm incredible happy to be alive, still, my condition could be better, much better.
Why do it seems like we always need to complain at something?

Look forward to Christmas. Just hope I can be at home. However, if I'm forced to spend Christmas Eve at the hospital I'll be too sick to take any significant notice of the celebration.

Well, enough bad thoughts! *sits upright in the chair*
Ahh, I'm tired, happy and have nothing to do. *slumps*
Could things get better? :D

[Marith]

Perfect description of my brain right now: "To the left there's nothing right, to the right there's nothing left..." :D

[Marith]

Last night the aching in the skeleton began again. I took some painkiller to get some sleep. When I woke up the pain was gone, but my legs tend to fail keeping me upright. As long as it doesn't hurts, I'm incredible happy!
It took some time before I could get any sleep, and I tried to describe the pains to myself. The closest thing I can say, is that it felt like to hammers thundering against my knees. After a while these blows come closer and closer in time, and in the end you don't know where to be or do, because the pain is constant.

In spite of these pains in the night, I managed to go to town with my mother this day. I got some new t-shirts, big ones. Have become a little more "generous" the last weeks, however, I think it's only I who feel like it. +2/3 kg isn't much, but it feels like 10/15 kg... :D
Have never cared much about my looking, why should I start now? I'll admit that I'm not especially pleased with myself those days, just have to accept that for a while.

[Marith]

I'm finished with the pain -for this month at least. Now I'm just incredible happy that it's over. :D
The first snow fell today, however it has begun to rain now... :grumbles:

Soon I can look forward to Christmas "legally." You see, I like the "looking-forward-to"-thing more than Christmas itself. Still, I don't like that all the shops begin with Christmas in October!
Wish it was possible to "catch the scent of expectation."

[Marith]

I've got a bacterial infection. I had fever yesterday evening, and was sent to the hospital to take blood-tests. Got some antibiotics. I only have an usual cold, however they (the doctors) will not take any chances since I have cancer. Antibiotics and cell poison don't go very well together, so my trip to Oslo (I should have been there tomorrow) is put off for a while. :(

[Marith]

After much discussion I now know that I'm going to Oslo at Monday. That means that I don't have to spend Christmas Eve there, (unless I get sick) :dance1:

It has been snowing here today. :)
I'm getting better of my infection. :D
I did make an oil painting of my dog which I'm a little proud of... Like to paint/draw, and this was only the second time I've used oil paint. Do any of my readers (there are some out there, I see the number of views) know how long it will take before the paint is dry? I've heard six months before it is completely dry, but that seem to be a little long...

[Marith]

Well, have been to Oslo. Sat about 8 hours with cell poison, and were in "good condition" so I got extremely bored.
I can get the last cures at the local hospital intead of Oslo. Yes!!! :D

Have begun with the medicines again... Don't like it. :grumbles: But I have to take them.

Don't have much else to say. I'm fine, things could be much, much worse than it is now, though sometimes it's not so easy to think positive. Everybody has good and bad days, me included.

[Marith]

Most of you will not understand this: I hate MESNA!!! :cry:

...ok, feel better now...

(MESNA is a medicine which reduces some the side effects with the kind of cell poison I get. It's necessary, however it tastes like.... *vomits in the background*)

[Marith]

Have begun to read a book, "The da Vinci Code," not sure if I like it yet... I just use it to make the days go a little faster. However, sometimes I'm too tired to even holding the book.
Not much happens, and I'm happy about it. In the long run it will become boring, though. :D

I'm confused. A part of me is happy all the time, while an other part can be irritated, angry, tired... Don't need to explain this, still I try to understand. Perhaps that is something there's no meaning to understand. *wondering*

:umm:

[Marith]

Haven't been much writing from me the last time, I've been too tired. (Bah, I soon begin to hate the word tired!)

Now I can see the end of this. I've just started at my last chemotherapy cure! Shall begin with radiotherapy by the end of February, and after what I've heard from others, that's almost nothing compared to cell poison.

At Friday I had to take away the VAP, because I got an infection around it, (without fever :) ). It didn't look wery nice, I admit. Even the doctors got quite pale and asked how on earth I'd managed that.
Because of that I now have to take antibiotics in addition to the other medicine, and walk around with 15 stitches for about twelve days. Yay! Not exactly fun, however, it's OK. :D

[Marith]

For those interested; here's the oil painting and the original object. :)

[Marith]

I was at the Radium Hospital again today. Just a day-trip this time though. They made a mask that I shall wear when I get radiotherapy. That's because I have to lie completely still when the beams go through me.

I also took some CT-pictures today. To take those you get a kind of contrast fluid in your veins. The problem is that my veins are quite "shy" and have gotten very fragile by the cell poison, so they simply burst...
The doctors tried many times, at the fifth try the needle vent in. I'm glad I'm not afraid of needles. Actually I think it's a little interestning to watch.

The radiotheraphy probably starts March 7th (not sure how you write dates in English).
I'll have to travel for about 4-6 hours for 17 days. Luckily they don't give radiotheraphy in weekends and official holidays (such as Easter), so I'll get some pauses. Think I'll be finished in the beginning of April, if nothing unexpected happens.

[Marith]

The doctor called me at Friday and said that radiotherapy would be too risky to my heart. I'm going to a so-called high dose treatment, a cell poison cure which is 3-6 times harder than normal. I'll loose my hair again and become very tired. For more information, see this site (http://www.cancerbacup.org.uk/Treatments/Stemcellbonemarrowtransplants/Generalinformation) .
Just remember, the treatment is also very individual.

I'll try to update this thread when I get the chance...

[Marith]

Short summary:

-I've got a "mild" cure, which consisted of five days in a row with cell poison. Got very dizzy for some days, couldn't walk for more than a few minutes at a time. I'm quite sore in my mouth, and drink salt-water regularly (to keep my teeth clean, a toothbrush is to hard and I only begin to bleed).
-Problems with eating enough food, because of what which is mentioned above and no apetite.
-I'm taking some syringes (myself, and I actually think it's alright!) which shall make my marrow make a lot of new, fresh stem-cells.
-At Monday I'm going back to the hospital, where they will strain my blood for these cells. Perhaps they need to try a couple of times before they have enough.

That was all for now! (PS: I can get a PC with me at the isolatet room... :D)

[Marith]

Home, sweet home! :D

Today I've seen a musical my little brother sings in. (He's 15 by the way.)
Luckily he didn't sing solo... :p

When I got home, I was so tired of getting hair in my food that I decided to cut myself totally bald. (Again... Nah, it's ok, really.) The hair would fall off by itself eventually.

I feel quite fine, it's spring-time here and I take some short walks. Have begun to look forward till the school starts after summer-break, however that's i August... :( (I know I'm a nerd with big "N"). Well, I need the summer to get back in condition, anyway. :rolleyes:

[Marith]

I've now begun at the isolated two weeks (+/-) at the hospital. My condition could be better, I admit, but nothing unexpected has happened. To say it short; my throat and guts are quite sore, and that hurt...
I haven't any dictionary with me, so please don't play my English teacher. :rolleyes:

Well, I've an excellent wiew; a shadowful place between two high yellow-grey buildings. I can't see the sun at any time of the day (nearly) and the only sign of spring is some workers cleaning windows.

Really looking forward to get home, but then perhaps I'll be too tired to care about that...

So, I sit in this room all the day, playing cd's on my discman, reading books (Slave. The true story of a girl's lost childhood and her fight for survival by Mende Nazer and Damien Lewis), sitting at the Internet, and writing a diary (trying to at least)...

I could have written more, however I think I've said the most important.
By the way, I got my stem cells back yesterday! Now I have to wait for my blood curves to be normal again...

[Marith]

Have felt really ill some days now, however from now on it can only grow better. Still I can't drink and eat on my own, but have managed to drink 1 dl Biola (sour milk with raspberry taste?) without throwing up. :D *proud*

It's a little difficult to sleep here.
First, the nurses come in to check my blood pressure, pulse, temperature and weight about five times each night. :umm:
Second, the pump that gives me food, water and medicines has a horrible alarm when a bottle is empety or something other is unnormal... And that's quite often... :dozey:

... :zzz:

It seems that I can come out of this isolated place before the weekend begins! I'm glad I'm young and in good health (considering the cancer, of course!), that's why this take shorter time than expected.

And after this, the nomal life can start again, though, it will never be just like what it was before... :type:

[Marith]

I'm out of the isolated room and finished with all the threatment!

However I'll remain at the hospital a couple of days. I hope I can goo home soon! I'm longing home! :cry:

[Marith]

I'm finished with everything!
Got out of the hospital today and feel fine after all. Though I've some pills to take left, until 16th May. So, at 17th May (Norwegian Constitution Day) we're going to fly a flag for that, in addition to the date of course.

(EDIT: We haven't a smiley with a grin big enough to suit my feelings...)

[Marith]

(ONE pill to go! :D)

I've managed to catch a cold. It's not dangerous considered that my imune defense system now is working normal, however it's annoying and tiresome. On Thursday I'll go to a control, just to check that everything is ok with me.

Look forward to tomorrow! Just wish I had a little more apetite...

[Marith]

Nothing extraordinary has happened.
I'm almost done with the cold, and COMPLETELY free of pills! :D
Have been to my local doctor to check that everything goes as planned, (and it does).

Today I've been mostly outside, and even managed to get a little sunburn -or you can call it "colour" if you prefer...

At Saturday I'll visit my "old" school. There will be a kind of marked there with stands, animals and more. I have looked forward to that in many months now, only hope the weather stays good.

[Marith]

...well, the weather was quite bad. Anyway, that didn't matter much, there were so good to see my "old" friends again! They have changed a lot, (maybe I've too?), the two I went in class with aren't so good friends anymore... Not fun. :(
Their friendship has always been a little "up-and-down", perhaps they'll like each other after a while...

Ok, beware of shock: I've begun to exercise! :omg:
Lazy me, spinning around on a indoor bicycle... Can't say I enjoy that, however I don't enjoy to get tired of everything either. It isn't exactly much to be proud of, yet it is a beginning. I aim to ride my bike to school next spring, the distance is at least 6 km (perhaps more, I'm not sure).

I'll also begin to repeat math this summer. Don't want to feel like a cauliflower (love that word!) when I get back. It just a little hard to get started... :D
Does someone know some English books which isn't too difficult for a beginner? (If so, pm me.) Intend to try to like English at school, (another shock!). :2eyes:

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Yeah! I got a letter today which says I'm welcome to a rehabilitation stay at Beitostølen Health Sport Center. I've crossed fingers for this, and I'd almost given it up because I eas a little late with my application.
I'll be away almost all of July and don't know a soul up there. Hopefully I get to know somebody during 4 weeks. :2eyes:

*jumps around like a crazy idiot... (Wait, I am one!) :D *

For those interested, Beitostølen is here:

[Marith]

We drove to the vet with our dog today and put her down. Now our house feels so empty... :(

She had gangrene in her tail, we removed it, however the wound wouldn't heal properly.

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There is still strange to get up in the morning with no cold, wet nose "welcoming" you, however, I think I'll get used to it.

Finally the summer seems to have come. We've had sun here in southern part of Norway for about a week already, now the whole country has, (or will, soon). :cool:
And it's not too warm either. (Well, I haven't worked much outside yet, so perhaps it is...)
The temperature in the fjord is about 15-17 Celsius, I think. Have to take a bath soon, haven't done that yet, and I'm late! (Haven't stayed out of the fjord this long since... eh... I don't remember!) Last year my first bath was taken in February...
Maybe this will be the last post from me in a while. I'm going to Beitostølen on Sunday, and won't get much free time there. Good summer to you all! (Good winter for you "down under") :D

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Got home at Saturday evening. I really enjoyed myself at Beitostølen, and wanted to be there a week longer... However, the school are going to start again soon, and there's alright to be at home with nothing to do.

I've been swimming a lot during these weeks, two times each day in chlorine water. I took some bath outside too, one was nearby the mountain area called Jotunheimen.
I'm thinking of keeping on with my swimming when our swimming bath opens again after the summer break.

Hmm... Did I say there was "nothing to do" here? :2eyes: I have repeated math, when I started I didn't even remember how to multiply and divide... I'm soon finished with that, am going to have an "self-made exam" before the school starts 17th August. My brother thinks I'm crazy, but I've rather be a little prepared than totally blank.

And, like a preparation for the English subject, I'm reading "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince." Nice excuse... :D
I've read all the other books in Norwegian, where the characters have different names, and considerably often I think: "Who on earth are this person!..."
It will be interestning to see how much I've understand of the book. The Norwegian translation comes in Novemer (not quite sure at this point).

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Back to school! Ah, nice, really, even though I don't know any in my class...
My head feels like it's filled with syrup when I try to think, I hope that will change. However I got a nice surprise at Thursday in my English class: I'm no longer so afraid of speaking aloud as I was before! Strange... :umm: Perhaps there is a little help in beeing two years older than the rest.

By the way, I've to announce something: "Baldie is no longer bald!"
Look at the picture below. (I even start to grow curls in the neck...)

[Marith]

Had German lessons today... Don't manage the "ch" -like in "Kuch en" (cake), or in "auch " (too). :(
Well, I'll learn that during three years. :D This was just the start.

Our German teacher told us that those who will choose biology next year, corporate with German students and take a trip to Germany in the third year. That sounds interestning, although I don't like German, I love biology! However, that project lies far ahead in time,and I'll have to consentrate on my present subjects.

Ah, I love to be back at school, even though there are some difficulties! :broad smile:

[Marith]

Ok, time for an update again.

-Since last time I have cast a vote in the election of our Parliament, called "Stortinget." I will be eighteen years old during this year, and was a so-called "first-time-voter..."

-I read my German vocabulary so intense that I'm having problems with not writing "ich" instead of "I" right now... :2eyes:

-I manage to walk home from school every day (6 km +/-) without getting too tired. Yay! :D Love it! (Though my classmates think I'm a little crazy... He, he.)

-And I've had my first period of "night-work." Last Monday I had this Norwegian homework which should be finished on Tuesday. I used longer time than I imagined on beforehand and could't go to bed before 1.30 am!
(I began at 12.15 pm...) :zzz: And when I got to school on Tuesday, my teacher had changed her mind, (or perhaps I misunderstood her in the very beginning), and told us to deliver the tasks on Friday instead!

[Marith]

This week we have our autumn break from school. Next weekend I'm going to celebrate two friends of mine's 18th years. I just wish the days would speed up! :D

I'm sooo looking forward to the next year. Then I will study biology and chemistry, two subject I find quite interestning. (And I'm finished with compulsory English. :p ) However I like this year too, I'm just feeling a bit "grown-up" compared to my classmates sometimes, and the next moment I'm "one of them..." Strange. :dozey: Well, they're alright, that's what matters.

A mail-friend of mine is on the Radium Hospital right now. She has begun at exactly the same high-dose treatment as I had in April/May. The roles have been switched... Perhaps I'm going to visit her in November, depending on her condition.

[Marith]

A little vent:

Ok, I'm damn (sorry!) tired these days! I fall in my own thoughts when I should have been consentrating on school-work, with the result that I've delivered really bad tests for about two weeks now. I try to do my best, but still I feel like an idiot. Arrgh! That's frustrating!:mad:
Everyone seem so clever in what they do, while I make failures over and over.

(I can't think clear today, so don't take this vent too serious. Hopefully it'll be over soon...:2eyes: )

Well, some more pleasant: I have no school for tomorrow and Monday. :)

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Just wanted to show that I'm in better mood today. :)

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18 years! Oh, they went fast! They sang for me in class today. Embarrasing! (And a little fun, too. :D)

Today I've chosen subjects for my next year in school. Biology, chemistry and math (MX). Would have chosen physics too, but that would be too much. Better to learn three (well, we also have some compulsory) subjects properly, than to learn four half-way... I'm going to be what they call a biological engineer. Decided that in March, when I got my stem cells fetched (?)(Don't bother with dictionary...).

I was at a control at the Radium Hospital the 15th, haven't got any results from the tests/pictures yet, however I think it went quite fine. I'm going at least six kilometres home from school every day, don't think I could done that with the cancer returning.

[Marith]

One week left -and still no Christmas feeling. Don't know what's happening with me... I'm even looking forward to the school starts again, even though I haven't finished this year yet (that will be on Wednesday).

[Marith]

Happy late New Year!:D

The Christmas feeling never showed up, but now is it March and spring is...

...rather far away...
The last week we've got over 100 cm snow and icy wind. Maybe you think this is usual for Norway, considering how far north we live, however there has not been this much snow at once since the winter 1952/53, (or so the weather forecast said).

I was at a control at the hospital two weeks ago and everything was fine. But I've got shingles (my dictionary says this is the English word for herpes zoster) - in Norwegian: "helvetesild" (directly translated = "The fire of hell")

As you probably already have guessed this isn't any comfortable at all. It hurts. I've got the shingles in the right part of my forehead and down to the eye. At the moment I can't see anything with that eye because it has swelled up (again, I've had this for almost three weeks now, one day it's getting better, the next I can't do anything at all...:() Shingles isn't dangerous (hey, I've had cancer and survived! :p), just very annoying. It can last from three weeks to months (I've heard about three years too, however that's extremely unusual).

I've been away from school some days, luckily we had a winter holiday last week, so I haven't missed much. I'm just tired! It feels like a arctic expedition going to the bus stop waiting for the bus, (the weather doesn't make that better!)

That's all for now. Lots of complaining today, my mood isn't the best these days...:grumbles:

[Marith]

... but not today! :D

I can now wear my contact lenses again, and see everything more clearly. I'm still tired, however things are getting better. The right part of my head still itches and tickles.

Tomorrow I have an English test about British history and two short stories. Looking really forward to be finished with that!

[Marith]

And the test went really good. Got 6 (something similar to an A)!:D In English, my definately worst subject! What's happening?:2eyes:

[Marith]

Today I washed my bicycle and rode it to and from my school about six kilometres away... Spring here I come!:D

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And spring was gone... My only exam (written English) was on June the 1st (:D), and after that date I have had summer holiday. Just a formal gathering at school on Wednesday left, where we get our grades.

The "problem" is that I do not like holidays. The summer is too loooooong to my taste. I am ready to begin at the next semester right now! (My brother thinks I am mad... He go to school because of the holidays, he says.:rolleyes: ) I have got a job for summer, probably I will work in week 28 and 29, but I do not know for sure yet.

We have had lovely wather for a few weeks now, at least in my part of the country, though today it rains. :) (Likes rain) I consider moving to Svalbard in the summer because of the warm weather... J/K:p

The result of my exam will be known on Friday. Finished with English and Economy forever! (As school subjects, at last...)