Well, me

[Mizz Elayne]

So...

This is a bit creepy. I have written a diary for some years now; but a diary that other people can read? That makes it, well, strange.
The thought of say, my brother reading my diary :eek5: It makes it better to know that none of you really know me, though. Except Marith of course, but I tell her most of this anyway.

Now, who am I? First off, I'm a 16 years old girl from Norway. That was the easy part. I think I'm a really boring person. Not much goes on in my life, and I don't want it too either. Well, I want something to happen, but too much and I get tired. If I spend one day with friends doing something special (something other than going for a walk or talking), I feel that I have accomplished a lot. That way I'm pretty easy to please.

That also makes me very asocial, though. Being around people makes me, as I said, tired. You have to think about who you are and what you do and say all the time. Unless I'm around very good friends, but those are rare. Around other people I have trouble talking, and I can't find anything interesting to say. I really can't when I'm around good friends either, but then I talk so much, something interesting's bound to come out eventually. I'm really an uninteresting person.

Nothing really interest me, so I don't know anything worth knowing about anything anyone else wants to talk about. And when I do, I feel like a complete fool when I talk, and can't form a complete sentence. I have discovered that my head runs away from my mouth. I keep thinking what to say next, and skips the bit in between. Life's hard!

I have found that I don't really care if anyone reads this or not. I'm me, no matter how boring and uninteresting I am. Too bad if I don't have all that many friends and no boyfriends like it seems every "normal" person my age has!

[Mizz Elayne]

Does anyone know how hard it is for a girl to play soccer with friends?

My brothers spend most of their days on the soccer field, with all their friends. How many girls would want to do that? Today two of my friends asked me, by SMS, to do something today while I was still in bed. For the record, I was wide awake, I was reading a book... The strange thing is, that they were my only two friends who care about soccer at all. What a perfect opportunity to play :D

Another strange thing about that, is that this happened right now. I have always liked soccer, and I have enjoyed wathcing, both professional and my brothers, but not until recently have I thought about playing myself. (Actually, that's a lie, but I've just heard about a girls team that's starting up close by, so it might actually become a reality) Anyway, I was in Denmark with my brother's team last week, and I played a lot, and bought myself a football while I was there. I spent most of yesterday kicking the ball around alone, and then today, both my soccer-interested friends want to do something! How great!

We ended up having a great time at the field, even though none of us are any good...

My "Trikserekord" (the number of times you kick or head the ball before it hits the grass) is up from 8 to 11 in three days... And everyone who's much better than me; don't laugh, that's a lot when it's me...

BTW, I saw a movie called Gideon today, really liked it. It was about a retirement home, with a bunch of grumpy old people who learnt how to live again :D

[Mizz Elayne]

Hot!

I don't live in a hot country, and until now, the summer's been rather cold. Then we drove to Gjøvik on Friday, and discovered where the summer's been hiding. It was great! As long as we kept out of the sun...

Right now it's 28C outside (82.4F), which is hot for a country with an all time heat record of 37C (98.6). I rode my bike to town just now, and I almost boiled when I got there. It isn't a single hill on the way, and I didn't ride very fast. Why can't the sun find a thing in the middle of rain all day long and 16C, and sun and 28C?

And even though I think this is really, really hot, I know that some of you would have been cold in this temperature. How can you stand it? I could really use something cold to drink!

[Mizz Elayne]

It's only a week till school starts again! I'm not sure whether that's a good or a bad thing... It has been great having vcation, and I wouldn't mind more of it, but at the same time I'm looking forward to school. I'm starting at "videregående", almost like High School, I guess, and I'm starting in a new class with a lot of unknown people. Don't know who yet. Marith, and another very good friend of mine might be in my class. Can't wait to find out. Hopefully we'll know before school...

I'm also taking French now. Im soo looking forward to it! I've had German for three years now, and will have for two more. Although I might actually stay in Germany for a year before I get that far. Would have been cool! Anyway, French. I love languages, seeing how they are similar, and being able to speak to people from the other side of the world is just great. OK, France isn't on the other side of the earth, but still. It'll be great :D I hope...

BTW, it's still hot outside. I have a strange feeling that the water is getting colder again, though...

[Mizz Elayne]

Tomorrow's the big day! I don't really know where we're supposed to meet, only that I'm supposed to be somewhere in that school at 9am Wednesday morning. My mum called the school some days ago, and I'm in the same class as Marith :D, but not my other good friend :cry:

I've finally applied to go to Germany for a year, I'm sitting here with a new form that I'm to take with me to this interview I'm going to sometime in the future. The problem is that this form is in German. I suddenly realized that I don't know German all that well. Help! :eek5:

The form itself is actually alright, cause that's mainly Ja/Nein (Yes/No), but then there's this essay that I have to write. When I am on the interview, I have 15 minuts to write a letter about me to my future host parents (whom I btw won't have a clue who is at the time). I tried writing an essay like that right now, certainly didn't make it in 15min... Don't think I made it long enough either... Hope I can use a dictionary. Hope they'll pick me. Hope my host parents are nice. Hope I get a sister. Hope...

I have forgotten everything I have ever known about German conjugation. Not good, not good... :grumbles:

I read the bottom the previous post here again, and thought I had made a mistake. Then I realized that I actually meant water, not weather.

[Mizz Elayne]

I realized I hadn't said anything about how it all went. :blush:

I'm in a great class, like everyone already, and tomorrow we'll find out if that other very good friend of mine can change classes with a girl who's in my class now, so that both my good friends will be in my class. Then there's all the other girls whom I think might be some very good friends in not long.

The first day we were at the school, we were there the grand total of two hours, got sent to our class room and got the list of books to buy.

Today, we were told to interview the person next to you to get to know them better. I sat next to Marith, must say I know her pretty well already :) I think I know the names of everyone in my class now :D

Tomorrow will be the first real day, i think my back will break from the weight of the books. Oh well...

Went to this years first violin lesson today. I think I need some time to get used to that again... I have hardly enough time to get home from school, grab my violin and go back in time. Puh! I had great fun, though :D

All in all, I'm in a very good mood. Don't think I will be tommorow morning...

[Mizz Elayne]

Mari, the girl I wrote about yesterday, is now in my class. Great! I have discovered that I like my class so well that I've almost reconsidered going to Germany. Might be because I would hate being in a class below them, though. :mad: Btw, a woman from the exchange thingy called today to set a date for the interview, but I wasn't there to pick up the phone...

I've come to realize that beach volleyball actually is quite fun to watch. Something's happening all the time, unlike football, where it takes a while to score a goal. Don't think I don't like footbal anymore, but it can be boring sometimes (and incredibly exciting).
Another good thing about beach volleyball (normal volleyball as well for that sake) , is that you can lose the first set 21-10, and still start at 0-0 in the next set. Makes it more interesting.

For some reason, I'm still in a good mood. I've not been in a bad mood for quite some time now. At least I don't think I have. Maybe I should ask Marith... Think I'm a bit too happy about all of this, though, when she hate it so badly.

Anyway, it's the weekend now, time to charge the batteries again to prepare for a new week. The computers was stolen from the school during summer, so we got to go 45min early from economy today, and I still thought the day was amazingly long. I think I need quite some time getting used to 8 periods a day. Is that the right word? Periods? I hate using words I'm not absolutely sure about. That <== inflammable is one of them...

[Mizz Elayne]

Survived another week, and I still don't hate school. Very good sign...

I actually liked economy this week, maybe it won't be the worst subject of the year after all. :)

The first two German lessons was me, a girl from my class and the teacher, yesterday, the rest came as well. We were 26 people at first, but at least 8 of them were supposed to have German C, which means they start German from scratch. My class is German B, so they all had to leave. Anyway, all the new people did exactly the same as my friend and I had already done, so we spent German doing our math homework. Good thing, I hate doing homework at home...

I was at this year's second violin lesson on Thursday, and my teacher gave me a concert to play that the best violinist in town (not far from it anyway) played last year. I'm soo proud. I need the whole year to learn it, though...

Oh, I have found out when the girls soccer team is starting up, so this Monday at 8pm I'll be on my very first soccer practise ever. Can't wait :D

Tomorrow I'll sing in church with the local Ten Sing, which started up again on Tuesday. Which again means that we've had a minimal amount of time to learn the songs. Hopefully I'll remember the words...

[Mizz Elayne]

Singing in church went OK; at the end they wanted us to sing another song. As I said yesterday, we haven't had time to learn more than two songs and had to sing one of them once more. Fine by me ;)

Anyway, one of the leaders in TenSing called me this afternoon, and wanted me to attend a leadership course... First it's a year of learning, and then a year of practise in the local congregation. Might be a great experience. I think I want to do it.

My mum is tidying her home office atm. I have tried a lot of pens and pencils and thrown away more than half... Don't think that office's ever been tidy before...

My favourite colour is bright blue, just love the ForumSkin Kieran's Meddling! thanks Tenaka!

[Mizz Elayne]

I was at my first soccer practise yesterday! It was great! It has rained almost constantly the last week or so, and the field looked that way. The ball rolled about 0.5m before it stopped because of the water :) I came home soaked, and, well, not clean, but oh so fun! I feel like I'm a child playing in the mud, except that it's socially accepted to do so :D

I'm going on a trip with my class tomorrow, we're staying at an island till Thursday. Not really looking forward to the first bit, ecology.. I think I'll like the last day, though, we're learning how to sail. Yeah! Then we have to write a rapport of some sort about what we did and what we found. I can't say I like things like that...

My brother's watching Bruce Almighty right now. Love that movie!

[Mizz Elayne]

The trip went great, I even enjoyed the first day. No sailing, though; we rowed for a bit more than an hour instead. The teachers said that there had to be at least one boy in each boat (out of three people), cause they're generally stronger than us :mad: Sure, they are right, and the guy who was in my boat is stronger than me and my friend, but so what when he can't row? We didn't mind rowing, neither me nor my friend really wanted to steer(sp?), and we aren't the weakest of girls, but I don't like it when they claim that boys are better than girls. By the way, fish stinks. Duh..

I've figured out that I have 14 hours when I'm not doing anything next week. :confused: Counting sleep as something to do, I need it... I've signed up for that leadership course, and it's taking up all of Friday, Saturday and Sunday in addition to Thursday evening. Not so sure I want to do it anymore, I hate having a lot of things to do. This weekend, I have to fill in that form for my year in Germany. Have to finish it by Wednesday, and it's no way Monday's starting without that form being done. My nerves wouldn't take it... :eek5:

I guess I'll get through it. :) And it's really just "a problem of luxury". Don't know if that's a phrase you can use in English...

[Mizz Elayne]

Well, I got through the week, haven't gotten too much time to be here...

I was on the interview for my year in Germany on Wednesday, think it went OK. Wasn't too nervous.

As for the leadership course, we weren't suposed to know anything before we left, and noone's allowed to talk about it, which means that I really shouldn't say what I did. Let's just say that I was VERY hungry and EXTREAMÈLY tired. And spent the weekend in the forest/mountain.

I'm playing violin at a conference at a hotel with two friends this evening, I'm really looking forward to it! We're supposed to play for 30 min, but I don't think it'll last that long, don't think it matters though. It's really great getting paid for something you want to do :D

[Mizz Elayne]

So. I got a letter telling me I got accepted on the "High School Year" program in Germany. Great! Then they had to send a whole lot of forms at the same time. Not so great. I hate forms. And then I have to have a medical check up. Don't think I've had that since I was 4 years old or something. Scary... :2eyes:

I really wonder if anyone's reading this or not. It's not exactly any fun reading, is it? Can't come up with anything to make it more fun, so I'll just stop for this time.

[Mizz Elayne]

It's been a while..

I've sent all the forms, and I hope they won't send me any more for a loong time... I have started reading a German book. Well, actually I started four weeks ago, had to borrow the book again today... I have reached page 75 of 170 :D I have to say to my defense that I have had a lot to do lately... My dad was in Germany on Wednesday and Thursday, and bought me a German Donald Pocket. I'm looking forwards to reading that one, it's easier with pictures ;) Have to finish the other one, though, I want to know who the killer is.... :confused:

School is going great at the moment, especially since it's no school at all next week. Hehe. No, seriously, I like school, strangely enough. I had only two subject I didn't like, and then we started chemistry in science. Now it's only one. :D Norwegian :grumbles:

Got to go ;)

[Mizz Elayne]

I want to write about what I believe in today. I am a Christian, and has been my entire life. I feel that nothing can get me to not believe in God, but at the same time, I wonder if I could have become a Christian if I wasn't raised that way. I mean, I don't doubt for a minute that there is a God, but everytime I think about it, or think about something to say to convince others, I can't see why anyone would start believing.

I'm sure there was an easier way of writing that...

Anyway, I believe that there is a God that created the whole world, and that Jesus is his son, born of Virgin Mary. I believe that I will spend eternity in heaven, and that i need Jesus to get there.

I also believe that Jesus wants me to give my life to Him. I'm afraid of that. I want my life to be under my control, and I don't think I could do anything radical if God asked me to. The main reason for that is that I'm never sure that it's God that speaks to me. How do I know when it's just my imagination messing with me, and when it's God?
I'm scared.

At the same time, having Jesus in my life is great. When I am scared, feel alone or just want to talk, I can always pray. Praying comforts me, and makes me feel loved. An evening last week, I suddenly felt that I had to pray for Marith. Don't know if it was especially needed right then, but I just felt the urge to do it.

When my little brother was born, my mum was very ill. One night my grandfather felt that he needed to pray for my mum, and he prayed through most of the night until he felt that it was OK. He later found out that my mum almost died that night, and suddenly turned better at the same time as my grandfather stopped praying.

Really like that story...

[Mizz Elayne]

Loong time since last time.

I'm really enjoying today, I have NOTHING to do! I'm having trouble believing that's true. Well, I guess it isn't, really. I could always use some violin playing.

Anyway. We really haven't got all that much homework, but I'm having trouble doing everything I'm supposed to do. I just remembered that I spend the last two periods today writing about that... We got this booklet about technology and I wrote about how people were busy even though we have a lot of technology to help us with just about everything.

Oh yeah, we got our router back from repair today. They hadn't done anything about it, cause it wasn't part of the guarantee, and we got it back in the same state we turned it in around 4 weeks ago. It makes me pretty mad to think that we could have had it at home and used the two lines or whatever that actually worked this whole time. :devil:

Christmas is coming fast, only 2 weeks and 4 days till "1. søndag i advent" Don't know if Americans have that, you light a candle that Sunday (11/28), and then 2 candles the next Sunday until you have lit all 4 just before Christmas. Please tell me if you do have it. I must buy some presents...

I got into an overwhelming Christmas spirit all of a sudden. Great!

[Mizz Elayne]

I'm getting tired of using the phrase "it's been an long time", so I just won't do it.
"1. søndag i advendt" (see above) was last Sunday, an that day TenSing (or Amasing as it is called) had a show. We reearsed for 7 ours on Saturday and 5 ours on Sunday. After te concert, I elped tidy up all te equipment. I was more tired tan I wanted to be. And I know tat tis contains a lot of spelling mistakes, te h key isn't working... Just realised I could copy and paste it... hmm...

There's a lot of snow outside, and there as been for at least two weeks. There's almost constantly clementines in the house, and I'm baking "pepperkaker" tomorrow. I'm too lazy to looks up that word. It's someting you bake that special for Christmas. All in all, I'm looking forward to Christmas. I still need to buy some presents, though.

I'll try not to wait this long until next time. Not at all sure I'll make it, though...

Pepperkaker = gingerbread... Thanks to Marith for telling me ;)

[Mizz Elayne]

I felt like writing in here again.. Nothing special has happened lately, though

I still don't know anything about where in Germany I'll be living next year. I'm not too pleased about that, it would have been nice to know.

I played in my second soccer match yesterday, we played against the same team as we did in the first one, the 13 years old girls in our club. We lost 10-2 last time, and 9 or 8-2 this time. We're getting better ;) We actually played better, and some of those goals were just the goal keeper making mistakes. I have a cold btw, and got out of breath really easily. Not good.

Next week is winter break, which I'll be spending in a cabin on the mountain with a friend and both our families. Reeally looking forward to that. :D

I'll be back...

[Mizz Elayne]

I've realized that I haven't written here at all since I left for Germany. I really should, there's a great lack of English impulses in Germany, I have had a hard time speaking English since I got here. Don't like it one bit..

To make a long story short: I live and go to school in Germany, which I have done since the end of August, and will be doing until June. My hostfamily here is great, I have found many new, good friends, and the school is OK. They analyze a bit too much for me to be comfortable (German lyric, history etc), but I'll survive.

I must say that the differences between Norway and Germany are very few and insignificant. Well, they speak German and have about 300 people per km²to Norways 13, but I live very rural and doesn't notice the difference in population density. A different language isn't exactly enough to make a people different, so Germans are really much like Norwegians; different.

Bis bald! Viellecht...