Time To Play The Game

[Terry Courageous]

I had a reflections thread way back when, but deleted it in a fit of rage.

Anyway.

A little background info would be in order.

My name is Terrell Chandler Wartenbe. I like to go by TC. I was born Sept. 11, 1982 in Keflavik, Iceland. My dad was in the US Air Force, and was scheduled to be transferred to Warner Robins, GA. That's where I lived until I was almost 12, then we moved to Pocatello, ID. That's where I finished school, graduating from Pocatello High School in 2002. I just recently started college this past spring semester. I hope to become a teacher. Probably teaching history. For hobbies I love to read a good book. Ironically though, I haven't even picked up a single Wheel Of Time book. I came to this site because I saw Grim posting here, and thought it would be great to join. I joined back in August of last year, but because I didn't have Internet at my mom's house, I didn't post as often as I would have liked. But now I look at where I'm at. I've made 1,000+ posts. I'm in the top 5 in rep. And I've met some of the most interesting and humorous people around. I think you guys are all great. When I'm on wotism, it's just like walking into a room with some of the coolest people I know. But I digress...let's move this along.

Since school got out a month ago, many things have happened. For one, I moved out of my parents house. Living with my distant cousin, who posts on here as Battousi. Grim is his younger brother who may move in with us. That wouldn't be so bad.
I think that my so-called "friends" take me for granted. My friends will usually only contact me when they a)need something, or b)are just that bored.
The girls are the worst.

I've been a life-long member of the LDS faith. I haven't been too active in the church for awhile, but I've just recently started going back. I really believe that its something I need to get my life in order. I honestly believe that I'll become a better person and be much happier for it.

When I have more to write I will. But not any sooner or any later.

[Terry Courageous]

Well, I got a job that starts this Friday at a food distribution plant. I got hired on through a temp job service, and I'll start at 7.35/hr. Of course, I'm only working for a couple of months, then I can go back to school and get grant money for attending school. This may sound strange, but I actually enjoy school, despite all my grumblings about it.

When you hear LDS people talk about the church, they'll often talk about their testimony of the church and its principles. Some people will also say that they have lost their testimony. Me? I think its just misplaced from time to time. I've found my testimony of prayer. They say "ask and ye shall receive." That is so true. Now I know that many of you don't believe in God, or if you do, just not my particular belief system. But the power of prayer is a very powerful tool, and I bear witness that it does work and God does hear you and answer you. It may not be the answer you always want to hear, but he will answer you. I leave you these thoughts, and will end this post.

[Terry Courageous]

My job sucks. I worked 10 hours Friday afternoon/night/Saturday morning. It was bad enough until people started slacking off. We would have been out of there a lot sooner if people had just done their job.

Battousi and myself have agreed to let Grim move in with us, which makes paying rent and power bills much easier. I need to find another way to make some money without selling crap to pawn shops. At least my brother started to pay me back for the $500 he owes me. More than I can say for others who owe me money.

I'm just starting to rant, so I'll just stop it here for now.

[Terry Courageous]

The title says "Time to Play the Game" but I'm not going to be doing a whole lot of playing around these days. I got to get financial aid set up for school this fall, and get a more reliable job for the next month so I can pay rent. I may have to swallow my pride and work fast food. :cry:

Today, I got a calling in my ward to be on the Activities Committee. Even if I don't have a consistent job, at least I'll have something to occupy my time.

[Terry Courageous]

Spent all of my afternoon cleaning my sister's apartment that she abandoned 2 weeks ago when she moved to Georgia. To quote Dante Hicks of Clerks fame: "I'm not even supposed to be here today!" When I told my Dad that, he looked like he was going to breath fire and burn me to a crisp. So instead of getting anything important done today, I'm now screwed.

I need to go to Finanacial Aid tomorrow, no more screwing around. By damn, I will be the first one in my family to graduate from college, and go on to become a high school teacher. I won't stop for anyone or anything. I need to start looking out for number one. No more stopping to help people along the way, because it gets in the way of my goals. Right now my goals are to 1. Become temple worthy, and B. Graduate college. Don't doubt me. To quote Eminem: "Fuck you all if you doubt me."

Bde, bde, bde, That's all folks!

-The Game

[Terry Courageous]

I hate my family. I moved out so I can have some sort of independence from them, but there is no independence when I get phone calls from them telling me to get my happy ass over there to help them move stuff. I'm going to let my phone get disconnected so that the only way for them to contact me is to come to my house where I will tell them to get the hell off my lawn. I'm sick and tired of having to help move people every 2 weeks. No more. I am not going to help them move anyone ever again.

[Terry Courageous]

I don't what it is, but lately I've been feeling really apathetic. I'm just getting further and further into depression. I don't understand it and I don't like it. I need something that can give me some sort of direction. Something like a steady job or school. I'm just asking for something.

[Terry Courageous]

If you are ever in need of some amuzing stuff to read, just go into Yahoo chat. It's funny to see that everyone in there is a 19-year old female college student who loves to get off on their webcam they just got for Christmas.

[Terry Courageous]

This is starting to get a little old. I'm feeling left behind because it seems that everyone I know is getting married now. My "adopted" brother Dan is getting married today, my best friend Jeff gets married July 31st, another friend CJ, gets married next week. My other really good friend, Jared got married last November and he and his wife are going to have a baby by early next year. Where am I in all of this? Almost 22, single, with no prospects. At least I'm not as pathetic as my oldest brother. 25 and still living with my parents. But at least he gets dates.


Embarrassingly single=me

[Terry Courageous]

Reading AbsNot this morning I noticed people talking about weird stuff in their dreams. My dream last night turned into a disaster.

Apparently I had done something to piss off the mafia, only to be told by my former high school history teacher that "There is no mafia." Anyways pissing off the mafia was a bad idea because they blew up my mom's car with her in it. The shock for me was so bad I spent the rest of the dream spitting up blood, until my lips were so caked with it, I couldn't open my mouth. That's when I woke up gasping for air because my bedsheet had gotten so tangled while I was tossing and turning that it was starting to choke me. I often think about creating a thread in Gen. Discussion about dreams, but it seems that every one of my threads die way too quickly.

Still looking for a job, but I got three different offers yesterday. I had to turn one of them down almost immediatly because it would kill me by the time school starts August 23/24(?). The other two are construction and we'll see what goes on with that.

End transmission...

[Terry Courageous]

Well it turns out that one of those construction jobs was a bust. I'll have to contact the other one sometime soon.

Tomorrow my baby brother turns 18. You start to wonder where the time goes when you think back and it wasn't all that long ago when he was still running around in diapers eating your G.I. Joes.

My favorite memory of my little bro is from the summer of 1993, when we still lived in Georgia. We were having a swim party for Reece's 7th B-day in the back yard and my parents were filming it for posterity. The camera is focused on the diving board where my little sister was jumping off of it into the pool. Then you see my little brother with his back turned to the camera, facing the outside of the pool, messing with his trunks. My dad asked him what he was doing and he turned slightly to reveal that he was pissing in the weeds. As soon as he was busted, he pulled up his trunks, turned, and jumped off the diving board into the pool. Needless to say, there was P in the pool either way. (Get it?)

Had another change of avatar. I chose Ramza due to the ongoing discussion in the videogamers thread with Beowulf and magatsu17. The tilte is fitting because none of the human characters on that game have noses.

That's all for now.

[Terry Courageous]

Now most of us either have younger siblings, young cousins, nieces, and nephews, or we have our own little children. There's always those moments when they can say something that will just make you melt.

A lot of times lately, I've been feeling uber-depressed. So for some reason I go over to my parents house to eat all their food, thinking it'll make me feel better. The other day I go over to find my niece Claire bawling her eyes out because everyone is being mean to her. As soon as I walk in the door, she sees me and screams for joy. She jumps into my arms and gives me the biggest hug a 4-year old can give. And then she tells me, "TC, you are my prince, and I'm your pretty princess." She doesn't know it, but hearing her say things like that always lifts up my spirits. She is the cutest little turd I know, and I'll miss her when she joins her mother in Georgia at the end of the summer. Because I honestly don't know when I'll see her again after that.

I need to end this because I'm getting all emotional.

[Terry Courageous]

I received this e-mail yesterday afternoon from my ex-girlfriend, who broke up with me twice over e-mail. However, she claims the first time was her brother doing it. Anyways here is the e-mail, enjoy. It has been grammatically altered to make it a lot easier to read.



T.C.

How is everything going for you? Everything is going great for me. So how has your summer been going? Mine has been going great. You know I was just
thinking of you and deciding if I should write you and tell you how I feel
about you, but I wont cause I don't know if you still like me like that or
even like me. So my lips are sealed.

People tell me to be true to my heart, do what is right. So I prayed last night if you are the one for me. It might sound kind of stupid that I did that, but I had to. You want to know the answer I got? It was a answer I never got before, it was "follow your heart". I don't know why but I have been every day. I really like you. As a matter of fact I love you and I want to be with you, and I know love is a strong word to say cause my feelings are so strong for you, and I know that I have hurt you in the past so many times and I think no one should be hurt like I have hurt you and I regret ever hurting you.

I am asking you this and hoping I get the answer I want. you might have to think about it for a long while but, will you go back out with me or in other terms will you be my boyfriend again?

So have you found a job yet? If so where do you work? Work for me has been so busy they have been working me down to the bone. I close every night ,but Sunday and this Friday they are only working me four hours so I get a break finally. You know as I come to think about it you have probably
forgotten all about me by now. I'm not a hard person to forget and why
wouldn't you after all those time I hurt you I feel like scum for doing that. I have to go get ready for work I will write you later.

love
your ex-girlfriend

P.S. Call me sometime if you still have my number if not it is ###-#### and
I know the phone works both ways, so can I have you number? That is if you
want to give it to me after all this time. I finally brought myself to write
you and it was so hard cause I had no clue as to what I should write to you.
This letter may sound stupid, but it is how I feel and I had to get it out
before I burst into a thousand tiny pieces.

Can you believe that? She said I was "the one".
*Brushes hair back a la Keanu Reeves*
"Whoa! Like I'm the one and stuff."

[Terry Courageous]

These movies have been out for awhile but I just saw them last night.

First, "Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen"

All I could think of while watching this movie is how much the main character was exactly like one of my friends. I didn't notice much else from the movie, because I was too busy cuddling. :dozey: Overall: Not enough drama even from a drama queen. Don't watch this crap fest.

Now, "Van Helsing". Very good choice to watch at a midnight movie. The plot was decent, except I felt it didn't explain his past all that well. Some of the action scenes were done very well, and the occasional humor is added in all the right spots. The movie was very enjoyable except for the constant commentary by a fat man in the back, right across the aisle from where we sat. He wasn't being loud, but he was being obnoxious. I was trying to focus on the movie so I didn't say anything to him. I should have though. It should be a crime to do commentary during a movie. Five years minimum I say.
Overall: Watch this movie, especially with a date, and especially when its dark. ;)

[Terry Courageous]

Well, against my better judgement, I went on a date with my ex-girlfriend.

The old saying is true, "The more things change, the more they stay the same."

Meaning her mother is still a controlling dictator. The girl is 19 years old. Cut the freaking umbilical cord already. There are 5 younger siblings to worry about. Show a little faith in your daughters decision making. Don't call to check up on her every 5 minutes. It ruins cuddling time during a boring movie. Don't haterize on me for not serving an LDS mission. And stop interrogating me like I'm a spy. I am not a threat to you, unless you are worried about me taking your daughter away from you. If that's the case, its doing you a favor. You don't have to worry about her so much.

If she only saw half the other guys her daughter has dated, she would be singing my praises. Not to sound arrogant or anything, but most of the other guys who have gone after her daughter are scum. And I am definately not scum, far from it in fact. I've never intentionally gone out of my way to hurt this girl, nor do I plan on intentionally hurting her. I've discovered that I still love this girl, and I want a long, meaningful, and loving relationship with her.

As much as our family and friends will criticize us for it, it's not their problem. Nor is it their business. What needs to be done is for us to decide, not anyone else.

[Terry Courageous]

Well in 4 hours, my best friend gets married.

Like I said awhile back, I kinda feel left behind.

BTW, a new avatar change, due to my becoming the SuperHero In Training.

[Terry Courageous]

Well as with all the other weddings I've been to, this one had its share of drama. The groom's younger sisters started freaking out over everything, and then they got pissed off at their older brother who wasn't the one getting married, over some stupid thing, because someone got window chalk on their mom's car, and because I was defending him and had his alibi, one of the girls came up and bitch-slapped me! WTF?! It was almost one of those GTO moments where you wanted to bend the girl over and spank her as punishment...UGH! What was I thinking? Instead I gave her a smirk and a middle finger and went on my way telling Douglas to let Jeff know that I was leaving and I'd speak with him later.

So here I am. The last one from my group in high school who isn't yet married. Maybe I'm just the one who takes his time finding the right person and won't get married for another 5 years.

[Terry Courageous]

Well I've finally done it. I've had all summer to get my financial aid done and I pissed my time away. Now I'm gonna have to take the semester off and actually do some hard work. I'm sure it must have killed someone.

[Terry Courageous]

I believe that an apology is in order.

Many of you may have noticed the outrageous n00b: Outcasted Hero

He is my younger brother. He suffers from severe ADHD. And his posts greatly reflect the way he is in real life. He doesn't think before he speaks and says very random, off-the-wall things. And I'm sad to say he somewhat gets it from me.

If anything he says leaves you feeling disturbed, upset, pissed off, or really confused; let me know, and I'll try my best to curb his ways. But please do not encourage him to continue acting the way he has been. It seems harmless enough, but its because people think his actions are cute is why he continues to be this way.

So in advance, I'll apologize for his actions.

[Terry Courageous]

I'm not going to be in school, I can't find a job worth having, I have no prospects for a girlfriend, and now my niece leaves to Georgia tomorrow morning. I really have nothing good going for me right now. My personal goals have been set on hold, and it makes me mad to know that I screwed everything up with school and my ex-girlfriend. And now I don't know what I want to do, and really couldn't care anymore. I just don't care anymore.

[Terry Courageous]

I realized that I had given up too easily on my dream of returning to college. I may still have some time to get things back on track. If this does go through and I do end up going to school this fall semester, I predict a lot more posts in the venting thread. :p

Also, last Friday I was set up on a blind date. All I asked my brother to do was to let me know if she was cute or not. His jealous girlfriend, who's cousin was my date, wouldn't let my brother tell me because that would constitute as "checking out her cousin". Holy crap!

Anyway we doubled as far as the movie theater. Me and Jill went and saw Aliens vs. Predators, while my brother and his gf saw Princess Diaries 2. Can we say :whip: ? Anyway, after the movie, I got a chance to actually talk with this girl. She's really cool, but she lives out of town. Oh well. There's always townies, or an ex-girlfriend eh?

[Terry Courageous]

Like I said they are idiots. Two months ago, they told me they needed certain documents that weren't presented last year. OK, I spend most of the summer tracking them down. I finally get them together and guess what.

I DON'T NEED THE BLOODY DOCUMENTS!!!!

So I get to go and fill out my FAFSA, which will take a couple weeks to get approved, so in the meantime, I have to get loans. Which, BTW, are so much fun! :D :rolleyes:

So in short, if you go to college, try and find a competent financial aid worker, and talk only to them. The rest are morons. :sign:

[Terry Courageous]

Seeing as how I'm starting school once again come Monday, I may not be around as often as you guys are used to seeing me. But not to worry. I'll come in and post here in Reflections so you can get personal updates of my college career. But seeing as how OH, Grim, and Tenaka are the only ones who seem to read this, I guess the rest of you will find out eventually.

[Terry Courageous]

Seeing as how I'm relegated to be stuck in Pocatello, Idaho, and there is nothing to do...my good friend Ryan and I decided to go to Lagoon in Utah.

We had a blast. They had the "guess how fast you pitch" attraction. I realized that my pitching speed in nowhere near what I thought it was. I was under the impression that I threw a mid-70's fastball. Wrong! Try 64 as my best of three throws. I still won a replica helmet anyway.

Went on most of the rides and I even tried to get on one of the kiddie rides, but to no avail. I had a couple parents yelling at me to give up, because their kid was behind me in line, and I was taking away from the brat's fun time. The best ride was Rattlesnake Rapids. We were in a raft with 4 young and nubile girls, who made the mistake of wearing white t-shirts on a water-based ride. Let's just say I didn't notice the scenic scenery. :D

And then there were lots and lots of other very hot chicks. Unfortunatly, most of them were with boyfriends, or were just too young.

Of course with any vacation, there has to be something that goes wrong. We stopped at the Subway that they had there, to grab a bite to eat. I asked for my usual, Cold Cut Trio on white with lettuce, tomatoes, olives, pickles, banana peppers, mustard, salt and pepper, and oil and vinegar. They were just way too generous with the vinegar. In short, the worst Sub I've ever had. And of course, staying in the sun all day long without sunblock isn't a very good idea. My neck and arms are dark red from sunburn.

All in all though, I wouldn't have traded my last day of vacation for anything else.

[Terry Courageous]

Well the first week of college is half over and I wish I hadn't come back to school.

Monday: Wake up at 7:15 AM after going to bed just 4 hours earlier. I can't remember what happened in Math class at 9:00 AM. Didn't have another class until 2 PM. Finally a chance to rest, right? Nohoho! It figures that when I want to be left alone, everyone and their mothers want to come and bother me while I try to get some rest. Finally the parade of aquaintances dies down just in time for me to get to my next class. Appreciation of American Music. That was a bad decision. Most boring class of my life. Get home about 3:30 and pass out for a couple hours.

Tuesday: Another early start. This time I wake up with a headache, a stomachache, and a 9:00 AM class. Billiards class at 9, the only reason I'll willingly wake up early on Tuesdays and Thursdays. English at 11 is going to be the worst class by far. 5 minutes into class we knew we were getting homework. The teacher even looks like a pedofile. Government at 1 is going to get interesting, I can tell.

Anyways, I've got to get back to my barbaric English homework.

[Terry Courageous]

Wednesday: I had no idea I was so popular with Pocatello girls. At least 10 different girls were flirting with me over the course of the day. :confused: That sort of thing never happens to me. Classes were quite normal on this day.

Thursday: Recieved the worst ass-whipping at pool in recent memory. Turned in evil English homework only to get three more assignments due by Tuesday. More flirtation by strange girls I do not know. :confused: What is going on here?

Friday: Um, yeah. My alarm clock didn't go off until 9:45, so I missed my Math class. Then a school sponsored activity went on last night. Lots of music and food. Good times to be had by all.

So that's been my first week of school this semester. Lots of homework, and lots of groupies. This should be an interesting semester.

[Terry Courageous]

The new avatar I have now was originally from Ronin Warriors. It was Ryo's symbol of virtue. I just added the line that would make it look like TC.

Like you care.

[Terry Courageous]

I seem to be counting down the days for a lot of birthdays and things this week.

1 day til my friend Elizabeth's b-day.
3 days til Jeff's b-day.
5 days til my brother's and my shared b-day, and ISU's first home game.
7 days til my adopted brother Dan's b-day.

New avatar is volume buttons with one of them supposed to look like a cocked eyebrow. Sort of a mock/tribute to The Rock.

[Terry Courageous]

As a member of the LDS church, I have grown much spiritually in the past few months. My bishop always tells me he is proud of my turnaround. However, he seems to be a little overzealous with it. I take LDSCES classes, one of which, my bishop is the instructor for. He always seems to point me out, when at most times I'd like to keep a low profile in class. Especially when he tells me in front of the class that I'd better have a date for an upcoming dinner/dance date sponsored by the Institute. I know that he only wants to try and help me, but some times a person has to know their boundaries, and the limitations of others. I'm just tired of being this "standard" to the rest of the class, I'm no better than anyone else in there.

[Terry Courageous]

Well now that my birthday has come and gone. It's now time to look back at all the fun I had.

The 10th:
Hang out with bestest friend in the whole wide world, and his wife and step-daughter. Went bowling and out to dinner. Not a bad start.

The 11th:
12:30 AM-call from my oldest sister, inviting me to come to the bar so I can celebrate my birthday with her. *neglects to tell me it's at the gay bar* So I get introduced to all of the popular gays in my town. :rolleyes:

2:25 AM-get home from weird and sober trip to the bar. Go to sleep.

11:00 AM-wake up again and go to parents house for punch and pie.

4:45 PM-my friend Jared and his wife pick me up to go to the first home game for ISU this year. Which we lost BTW, 35-20. :( *almost pimp slapped a bitch for getting on my case for booing our shitty QB*

8:45 PM-game finally over, go to dinner with friends.

11:45 PM-go to the midnight movie with other friends to see King Arthur. Not a bad movie except the coolest knights get killed. *dammit!* At the end of movie get hug and kiss from friend. *yes the friend is a chick*

So that was it. Sure it sounds boring, but it was the best birthday I've had in years.

[Terry Courageous]

The newest avatar is none other than Randy Orton.
He helped me finish in 2nd place this last war.
I'll stick with him but change the title.

[Terry Courageous]

That's right boys and girls. I waited too long to ask a girl to a dance and now I have no one I'd like to go with. Plus, even if I did find someone, the price of the tickets for it went up like $10! I don't have that kind of money, and I wouldn't dream of asking the girl to pay for it. So I'll just sit at home next Friday and wonder what might have been.

I decided to withhold my resignation from avy wars for now in favor of the consumate gentelman: Cid Highwind.

[Terry Courageous]

As promised in the venting thread, I'll explain my latest problem.

Homecoming dance at college.

My brother and I plan on doubling, his date cancels on him so I'm left with the extra ticket.

So I decide to give ticket to my friend and set him up with a date, who I was planning on asking in the first place except I ran into someone I knew.

I casually mentioned that I didn't have a date yet, so she suggested that I ask her friend, who just so happens to be one of my ex's.

Later, my buddy tells me he can't make it, and so not wanting to have this other girl feel left out I decide that "my date also cancels on me." So that I can go with the girl I wanted to go with and now the extra ticket rots on the nightstand, never to be used.

Who cares though? Everything worked out in the end.

[Terry Courageous]

Alright so there isn't much to say about this. Not a whole lot happened, just some dinner and some dancing. And a whole hell of a lot of laughter. I tell ya a chick with a great sense of humor is kind of a turn on. So I thank all of the people who told me to ask this girl on a date. I'd like to thank the Clarks, my bishop, and my...my...oh yeah, they were the only ones that told me to ask this girl out. So yeah, thanks to them. And no thanks to the ugly sonofabitch that tried to ruin our date last night. Screw him. Right in the ass with an unlubricated fire extinguisher.

[Terry Courageous]

For some reason it bugs me to see people on their cell phones while driving. So I took an inpromptu survey just this afternoon to see how many people were driving while on the phone.

The 1100 block=4 out of 15 people.
1200=1 out of 13.
1300=3 out of 26.
1400=1 out of 16.
Turning off the overpass=1 out of 19.
1500=0 out of 10.
1600=2 out of 13.

Not3: I only counted the cars that passed me on the specific block. So if a driver was taking a call before or after I saw them, I didn't count that.

[Terry Courageous]

Well September has come and gone. I'm now 22, in my 2nd semester as a freshman at college, and depressingly single. Now the only thing I have to look forward to now the rest of the year is Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's.

[Terry Courageous]

Yeah, I'm not doing so well on the dating scene. And I seriously doubt my chances of passing my English class. So this Homecoming Week isn't looking too good for me.

[Terry Courageous]

It's about time I updated this one.

Last Sunday I was ordained an Elder in the LDS Church. It was a really great day, even if half of my family wasn't there for me.

Still single, but I'm gotta start looking for a girlfriend. I'm pathetic on my own.

I'm assured of a failing grade in my English class now, so I have to retake the class next semester. And if I don't shape up, I'm going to fail my Math class as well.

[Terry Courageous]

I entered a pool/billiards 8-ball tournament today. I lost the first matchup in a race to 3 by scratching on the 8-ball in the fifth game. Then out of frustration and despair I couldn't focus on beating my opponent and lost three straight to him.

[Terry Courageous]

It's been awhile since I've found a computer to get on to wotism. I hope you guys haven't missed me too much.

Anyways, Thanksgiving was great as usual, I had way too much food. But man, that pumpkin pie is so good!

My brother and I have been discussing my probable move to Logan to stay with him, and I might transfer to Utah State if I go down there.

[Terry Courageous]

As mentioned in the venting thread, my "so-called best friend" is dating one of my ex's. But this actually isn't the first time he's done this. He slept with another one of my ex's about a month after I had broken up with her. And it just seems to me that my friends use me as a dating resource. I'll meet a girl, get really interested in her, and then my "friends" will go behind my back to date her. It's happened with 4 of the last 5 girls I've really liked. I'm really getting tired of it.

[Terry Courageous]

I seem to be attracting a lot of negative energies toward myself these days. This, of course, comes in the form of other people's drama. One of my "friends" makes her life sound like such a Greek tragedy, its almost funny, except when she drags me into it. And then she considers herself a matchmaker, but all she does is cause problems for the people she's "trying" to set up. And instead of setting the people up and leaving them to their own devices, she leaches on to them.
For example, I was talking to one of my friends today and just as I was going to ask her on a date, the "matchmaker" sits down next to us. I mean her timing couldn't have been more perfect than if she would've walked in two people having sex. Now if I had asked my friend out while this other girl was there, she would have demanded that we make it a double date, and that would've meant that she couldn't/wouldn't find a date, and would end up being a 3rd wheel. And of course, she wouldn't leave us "alone". She'd keep dragging my date away to "girltalk" with her, and that would be the end of it.

And because she wouldn't leave until I had to go to class and the girl I was talking to had to go to work, I saw my window of opportunity slam shut right on my fingertips. DAMN HER!

And she's not the only one. My brother and his girlfriend are really trying my patience these days.

He lives in Utah. She lives in Idaho. I'm trying my damndest to stay out of their business, but they insist on using me as their go-between. So sacrificing my time, which could be used for what I want to do, I end up trying to clean up the messes they cause for each other. And then, when I seem to be really busy, my brother calls me up for no other reason than the fact that he's bored out of his mind and wants to talk to me. PISS OFF!

So here I am, stressing out about my college classes, my social life, and trying to pay bills; trying to do what I need to do to make everything easier on me, and all these clowns are doing is bringing me down with their incessant nonsense. Where does it end? Does it end when I drop dead from a stress-induced heart-attack at the age of 23? Will they be satisfied that they have destroyed me? No. They'll find themselves another victim. And then other people, maybe even those that may read this will be that victim. If so, you have my sympathy. And good luck to you.

[Terry Courageous]

Next week is Finals Week. It's awesome. I can't wait. I only have to be to school on Tuesday and Wednesday. And then I'm home free. It's hard to believe that this semester is almost over now. It feels like I've been at it for a long time now. And then in a month, I start the Spring Semester. And we're back to where it all begins again.

[Terry Courageous]

I'm thinking that I'm really out of shape these days. I'm very prone to self-injury.

I pulled a muscle in my left shoulder rock climbing yesterday, and today I slipped on some ice and have a nice deep bone bruise in my left knee. And then, I sprained my wrist bowling tonight.

[Terry Courageous]

I'm sure this has happened to most if not all of us. You get a phone call in the middle of the night. It's someone who you'd rather not talk to at that moment because they have nothing good to say. So why do we answer the phone at that time? I call it "morbid curiosity".

So at 2:47 in the AM, I am awakened by my phone. I answer it. It's my good friend. He tells me he's sorry that he's calling me back so late, because he's been getting laid since 10:30. Instead of being astonished at his amazing stamina, I politely tell him that it could have waited until tomorrow to tell me this. But then I woke up and understood who it was. Then I got pissed off, because he was calling me at this time only to gloat that this is the second ex of mine that he's nailed. So then my phone "mysteriously" shuts off. Because I'm so pissed off, I couldn't sleep the rest of the night.

So boys and girls, I'd advise you all to never answer your phone after midnight. Only bad things can happen from it.

[Terry Courageous]

Well my Fall semester is finally over. Now I have to register for Spring semester.

In other news, I won't have access to a computer for too much longer. So you guys may not see me for awhile. If ever again.

[Terry Courageous]

OK. So I lied about the whole computer thing. (As if the three or four people who actually read this thing care.)

And after much prodding from someone telling me to ask one of my girly-friends out on a date, I finally did. *THANK YOU!!!* I knew I liked her from all the times we've talked over the last few months, but I never expected any serious feelings to come out of it. But after spending most of an evening with her, I came to the realization that this girl fits most criteria for what I look for in a serious relationship. It's funny how I never really gave her a thought in this respect for the longest time. I guess I'm "accidentally in :love:". (geez. never thought I'd use that smiley.) Now the fun part: telling her. :eek5:

[Terry Courageous]

So I find out that this girl thinks of me as a "good friend". If I had a dollar for everytime I heard that from a chick, I'd have enough to order a large pizza.

[Terry Courageous]

I just checked my final grades for this last semester.
1 A
1 C
3 Fs

Don't say it. Just don't say it.

[Terry Courageous]

So yeah. A girly-friend comes over tonight to hang out and one of my roommates is home. That means that nothing is gonna happen. And so we end up playing XBOX for an hour and a half. Then after she leaves, my roomie comes into the living room looking tired. It turns out he went and took a nap in the other room. I told him he was a dick for not telling me he was taking a nap. He asks what was wrong and I replied: "You think I wanted to be playing XBOX with her for the last hour and a half?"

[Terry Courageous]

Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas, Channukah, Kwaanza, or whatever you like to celebrate.

I went to a girl's house tonight to hang out, and ended up making out for over an hour until her friend called her up to do something with her. (And just when it was getting really good too.) Anyways, she wants to get together tomorrow night too.

Tried using some spray-can-hair-dye tonight, but I didn't have enough to turn my hair completely black. Oh well, it made my hair look a little darker which was cool.

[Terry Courageous]

It's 2005. Hope you all had a Happy New Year. Now let's settle into this year and live it up.

I'm done dealing with Financial F***ing Aid. They still haven't gotten anything done right, and now I can't register for school. Thanks a lot morons!

[Terry Courageous]

I can't go to school this semester, now to top it all off, I'm in debt up to almost $4000. $1600 was free money, and now I have to pay it back because I didn't go to one class for a month and a half.

[Terry Courageous]

It's come to my attention that I suck and no one wants me around. Until my morale improves, I won't be returning here. So this is goodbye for now everybody.

Stay well.

So long.

[Terry Courageous]

I gave you guys that last post because I was going to take some time off to help my family with some emergencies, and I didn't feel like explaining myself.

That wasn't fair to you guys.

I'll explain what's happened.

My brother eloped back in July. They didn't tell anyone. In fact, the girl's mother doesn't even know about it yet. To make matters worse, she left him after two months saying that she didn't want to be married anymore. My brother found out two weeks ago that she is pregnant. Now keep in mind, that they are still married, but have been separated for a few months. And still nobody is supposed to know. They plan on telling the parents in a month or two that they got married. But how is that going to look? Oh. She's 7 months pregnant. And they got married. It's going to look like they were fooling around and had to get married to make it look better on them. So while all this is happening, my brother is swearing me to secrecy. With all that stress on me, added in to all the other shit I have to deal with, I've almost snapped. I've contemplated announcing it to all of their friends. Just to spite them both. In addition, she is a controlling psycho bitch. My brother doesn't seem to notice it though.

I was planning on helping my brother, and focusing all my attention to helping his stupid ass, but what's the point? He won't even help himself. Fuck him.

And you're right Lexi. The reason I gave was lame. I'm just too stressed from this shit to do anything right these days. As far as I knew, nobody hated me that much. And that was just a piss-poor excuse to give.

I'm sorry everybody.

*bows in apology*

[Terry Courageous]

So I went and spent $20.02 on a webcam today. 3rd best $20 spent so far in my life. It may move up the rankings. You never know. ;)

And once I learn more about it, I'll do my best to post some shots of me in here.

[Terry Courageous]

We almost lost my Grandma today. She had to be rushed to the hospital when she was experiencing difficulty breathing. She's been admitted overnight, due to having some liquid where it shouldn't be. Lungs. So if there are any updates on her condition it'll be posted here when I get the chance.

[Terry Courageous]

Here's a pic of wonderful ol me.

[Terry Courageous]

Today was yet another interesting Monday.

Did my new usual thing. Woke up at 9am, went to class from 11 to 1, ate lunch, came home and sat at the computer for a couple of hours chatting with people.

Went to a church activity and had some homemade ice cream. Interestingly enough, it was very tasty. Peach flavored.

While talking to one of my good associates, "Legend", he got a text from a girl who likes him, (and I think she likes me too, if Friday and Saturday nights were any indication. ;) ) only he doesn't feel the same way about her. Lucky him, I really like this girl. So I suggested that he pawn her off onto one of his friends. For a guy who suffered brain trauma last summer, he still catches on pretty quick. He quickly took me up on the offer and told me to go for it. If only I had more friends like that...

So yes folks, it's been another exciting Monday for me.

This message was edited due to content.

[Terry Courageous]

This is my 3500th post. w00t!

[Terry Courageous]

Now I'm not sure how many of my fellow wotists are of the LDS faith, but tonight I had the opportunity to listen to one of the 12 living apostles. Elder Henry B. Eyring. Not many people in the church I don't think have the opportunity to get to listen to any of the apostles, or the prophet for that matter, in person.

I wish that you all had been there to witness the message that he and the other speakers delivered. And I'll spare you the details of what was said out of respect to your own beliefs. If you really want to know what was said, you could just PM me.

But it was an experience like none other. I'll just leave it at that.

[Terry Courageous]

It has come to my attention that I have become somewhat of a hot commodity to womens in the chatting community. In what I assumed would be a gag, I let one girl have my phone number, assuming that she would just dismiss it as a desperate ploy. But the funny thing is that she actually called me up. And we've talked a few times during the last week, most of the conversation times going well over the 40-50 minute mark. And this last one which just ended at 1:30 AM my time, went 70 minutes! My phone's battery may not last much longer if this keeps up. But what I can't get over is how much she's reminding me of one of my ex's. And sometimes that's not a bad thing. But alot of times, that's not a good thing either.

[Terry Courageous]

I've been nice and sick these past couple of days. I normally don't get sick, but when I do, I'm sick for a long time. It started out as just a simple fever, I started drinking lots of water. OK. That's all good and well, then I started to get a sore throat and a cold. Add in a headache, and you've got one hell of a cocktail. So now when I cough and/or sneeze it hurts my entire head and I hack up bloody phlegm. I'm using bloody in its literal sense. There's blood in the phlegm. Lots of it. I hope I"m feeling a little better by tonight, when I'm supposed to go out dancing.

[Terry Courageous]

Not much to say here except I'm still feeling like crap, and after the events of last night, I'm not too happy with many individuals who I thought were OK to talk to.

So for now I'm avoiding talking to anyone because as some people can attest to, I become a straight-up bastard to anyone and everyone.

[Terry Courageous]

Now all I have is the head cold. No headache, or sore throat. All is mostly well. Mostly.

[Terry Courageous]

Well even if I don't like it, the Patriots won. Oh well, better than the Eagles winning it. Still sick, head feels like it wants to expand to twice its normal size. I've tried everything short of lyposuctioning my nostrils clear of all that phlegm. I just hope I get feeling better by tomorrow morning.

[Terry Courageous]

Whilst playing basketball today, I went up for a rebound but couldn't quite reach it, so I tried to tip it to another player on my team. Unfortunately a girl was right behind me when I tipped it downward into her face. Now keep in mind that this ball is going fast enough already, to get a boost in the same direction, so it isn't going to leave just a little bruise. I'm lucky the ball didn't break her face. Then when we resume the game I went up for yet another rebound only to come down on someone's foot. Lucky me. My foot is fine, the girl's foot I came down on wasn't. I was beginning to notice a pattern, so we decided to stop the game. Then when we were having some refreshment, I tripped up on something and spilled water on yet another girl's shirt, which was white. (for the benefit of all you pervs who read this.) So having nailed the hat trick for the night, I decided to go home.

Now how could I possibly screw up anything at my house that would involve a girl? Easy. I walk though the door, knowing that there wouldn't be a girl in my house, and ripped the loudest, smelliest fart of my life. Lo and behold, one of my roommates had a female friend over and sitting in the front room.

I just had to lower my head in shame, walk off into the night, and wonder how this much could've happened in the space of an hour. For shame TC. For shame.

[Terry Courageous]

My sore throat came flaring up again, and this time it was so bad, I could hardly swallow anything without being in terrible pain. So I went to the hospital and was there for 40 mins. before I even saw the doctor. Then after a 3 minute exam/questionare, I'm told that I have strep throat. You don't want to say stuff like that out loud or else God will smite you down with it. So now I have to take penecillin every 8 hours, with a swollen throat the size of an apple. Fun.

But to ease your fears, I'm not dying. Sorry guys, I know this comes as a shock.

[Terry Courageous]

I have strep throat and I went to a college basketball game tonight. After screaming at the top of my lungs for 2 1/2 hours, my throat feels like a watermelon is lodged in it. So being surrounded by people who won't know what hit em is kinda bugging me, but hey; that's a risk they took by going to the game tonight.

BTW, Idaho State lost to Sacramento State 99-97 in OT.

[Terry Courageous]

If not for this strep throat, I'd be having a really good Valentine's Day. One of the girls I'm very interested in, basically asked me for a booty call and I sadly had to decline. Now she's gonna move on to the next guy and I lose out. :cry: :cry: :cry: If only I could get better right now...

[Terry Courageous]

I finally feel super good but not quite healed. I think the worst of my strep is over and now I'm ready to kick some names and take some ass.

BTW, I've received another invite to the hi5 network. Some of you nice peoples have already sent me one, but here's the link if anyone wants to join.

Link to hi5 (http://www.hi5.com/i?l=AJS7U5U)

Also if anyone wants to view my MSN Spaces page
The Game's MSN Spaces Page (http://spaces.msn.com/members/mashdawg/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c02_owner=1&_c=)

[Terry Courageous]

After recent discussions about homework in AbsNot I was all set to reply with a near ban-worthy view on the school system. I thought better of it and decided to put my scathing article where it could do some slightly less damage.

I felt that homework was just a way to give the teachers some sort of control over what a students grade should be. I mean, I never did homework, and I'm one of the smartest people to ever go through my high school. All those standardized tests can back me up. I never needed to do homework, because I did something that people rarely do in school. PAY SOME FUCKING ATTENTION TO THE LESSON! I even tried to persuade teachers that homework was a waste of my time and theirs. I almost succeeded in convincing a few teachers to actually ban homework. But the vice principal who was definately not student-friendly, tried to give me some bull-shit reasons about why homework was necessary. I showed that bitch by whacking her across the face with a cow leg and making my escape like a real man by jumping out of her office window two stories up. The resulting broken leg was made to feel worse when in the hospital they sent me some homework to catch up on. I used it for rolling papers when the guy in the next bed had stashed some pot on him.

Anyways, when I made my triumphant return to school I struck a brilliant deal with my History teacher that all I would do is take the tests without doing homework and I could still pass with an A. After demonstrating my incredible gift for memorizing stupid shit that doesn't matter any more on the first two tests, she took me up on my deal. I ended up with a 94% in the class. Second highest right behind a NHS student with a 95%, and a small dick.
I also placed ahead of 24 other people(dumbasses/football players/snobs) who couldn't compare with my near-superior intellect and they showed it by begging me to bomb the final just to make the grading curve better.

My response was one that shouldn't have shocked their feeble minds. I walked up to the front of the class and told them all to eat shit. Despite the fact I had to take a pointless trip to the Dean of Students(another bitch slapping with animal parts) I felt that was the most fulfilling day of my high school career. I stood in defiance of the bullshit clique and gave them the literal finger: a thumb in their already crowded ass. Some of them I couldn't get it up there because thier heads were taking up so much space they were poking out like hairy hemmeroids.

The end result? I didn't have to do homework and still got a higher grade than just about everybody.

5 wotists after reading this article are convinced that bitch slapping school authority with a cow leg kicks ass.

[Terry Courageous]

I was at the LDS Institute building tonight with a few of my pool playing buddies playing the game we so love, when I had the sweet idea of holding the 1st Annual Institute Invitational.

We got the brackets set, and the games began. I beat Denim in 4 games, in a Race to 3. Then I lost to Warren 3-2. So then I had to play Denim again, this time losing 3-1. Then we switched the finals to a one-rack format. Denim beat Warren in the Finals, but since it was double elimination, they had to go one more, which Denim won again. I may have placed 3rd in the inaugural event, but I can claim that I beat the winner of the tournament.

Next time we hold it, we're going to have to put money down on it.

Final Results:
1st-"Dynamite" Denim Millward
2nd-Warren "the Warrior"
3rd-TC "da Man" Wartenbe"
4th-Jason "the Shiny" Steinmetz
5th-Jeremy "the CLB"

[Terry Courageous]

So I'm watching a movie at this guy's house. Out of Time. With Denzel Washington, who less than 5 minutes into the movie is nailing a chick. What a man! Anyways, there was an asshole who 10 minutes into the movie claims that he's "figured it out". I'll tell you what I figured out. That you're an asshole who doesn't know when to shut the hell up. No one cares that you figured it out genious. Shut the hell up and let us figure it out if we can, because we're nowhere near as smart as you. Piss off. The asshole then procedes to remind us every 10 minutes that he knows what's going on. Really? Good for you asshole. Shut the fuck up. Then when I tell him to basically fuck off and punch him in the kidneys. You'd think he'd get the idea to shut up. Nope. He starts bitching about how his kidneys hurt. So then I do him the favor of breaking his leg to take his mind off his kidneys. He cries more. At that point no one can enjoy the movie because of this *****'s whining. So I drag his broken ass upstairs and I throw him out the door, ruining his shit along the way. When I came back into the room, the hottest girl threw herself at me because I rule so much that her boyfriend couldn't compare to me.

15 girls have thrown themselves at me for ruining someone's shit.

[Terry Courageous]

I went to hang out at the SUB tonight and ran into my last ex. We spent most of the night hanging out, and came real close to making out. ;) I don't know if I should actually try to persue this or not, because I have some life-altering decisions to make in the near future. But anyways, whenever I don't talk to her forever, I end up running into her and catching up, and I somehow realize I had never stopped being in love with her. I don't know what it is, but I just want things to go right and I want to be with her.

*is confused now*

Maybe I'm just tired right now and rambling. Maybe I need to think on it for awhile.

[Terry Courageous]

Well well well. It seems that everyone has a beef with me.

I go to my parent's house to pick up something from my brother, and my sister starts going off on me when I don't have $5 to loan her so she can go to the bar, get drunk, and make a total bitch of herself. Yeah, its my fault that I don't have $5 dollars to give you when my rent is due tomorrow. Its also my fault you have to be sober for a night. Who the hell am I to deprive someone from drinking?

Then, when playing Halo, someone decides its my fault that he didn't win, so I got called a jackass, and slugged in the head. You suck at video games? Don't step up to my mad skills, and get your ass handed to you. Put the controller down, and do some sit-ups fatass.

I get home, and my roommate starts yelling at me for clogging the toilet. I haven't even used the bathroom at the house today. Step off numbnuts. Just because you couldn't hide in the bathroom and "rearrange your Magic deck" (ie. whacking it) you have to yell at me and tell me to clean the bathroom? No thanks. I'll just do what I always do, piss in a jug next to my bed or take a shit in a box and put it under my mattress, so I can avoid using the toilet. Thus avoiding having to clean the bathroom since I don't use it. Shows that I just outsmarted you dumbfuck.

You know what? If I wanted to get yelled at so much, I'd get married. Then I could listen to her scream at me for all my imperfections in life. Wait. I forgot. I am perfect. Fuck you. I win!

23 people who have bitched at me, did so with no reason.

[Terry Courageous]

This week we decided to play 9-ball for the tournament.

My results:
1st Rd: defeated Raymond in 4 games.
2nd Rd: BYE
3rd Rd: lost to Jason in 3 games.

Loser's Bracket 3rd Rd: defeated Denim in 4 games.
4th Rd: defeated Jason in 5 games.
FINAL Rd: defeated Jason in 3 games.

So in short, I rule.

Full results:
1st: Me
2nd: Jason
3rd: Denim
4th: Raymond
5th: Jeremy

[Terry Courageous]

Well it turns out that I can no longer be trusted by anyone. Not even my former best friend.

There Is Nothing To Do Or Say To Fix This. I Would Have Expected More Of You. I Don't Know What You Have Said Or To Whom It Has Been Said To, But You Destroyed What Trust And Confidance I Once Had In You. Dont Expect Me To Assist You In The Future.

Well then. That just makes it one less person I can avoid pissing off. But trust me when I say this. You can't trust me.

49 people trust me despite the fact they can't.

[Terry Courageous]

In the spirit of my ass-kickery and criticism I bring you this headline:

I OWN Fangirl Whore

I simply point out an error someone made, and they called me a not-so-nice name. Did I deserve it? You decide.

A helpful criticism goes bad. (http://stylesclash.com/v-web/bulletin/bb/viewtopic.php?t=772&start=150)

For reference, my name is TerryCourageous on this particular board.

103 fangirls' boyfriends want to crack down on me.

[Terry Courageous]

Even though this falls under the embarassing category, I have to post it here. Tonight at a church dance, my brother, Outcast Hero, gets in the middle of a circle and starts dancing like a maniac, then out of nowhere takes his shirt off. I quickly tackled him and dragged him out of the room to try and salvage the situation best I could. The rest of the night, everyone kept asking me if he was my brother. My neck hurts from hanging it in shame so many times.

[Terry Courageous]

This week we had 7 people take part. We played 7-ball which is a lot like 9-ball, except a little more difficult. Anyways, it panned out like this.

1st-Jeremy
2nd-Jason
3rd-Jake
4th-Denim
5th-me
6th-Raymond
7th-Cameron

I lost to the friggin CLB! He beat me in 4 games! WTF?! So that brings my average finishing position down to 3rd.

[Terry Courageous]

I was a server at a church function for the Relief Society tonight. I was shocked that every single one of them came up and thanked us all personally for helping out with the dinner. I even got to take some leftovers home. Namely some banana cream pies! WOO! I have to find a date for tomorrow night, since my buddy vounteered me to go with him on a double date. The plan is bowling and dinner. It's a first date for him and this girl he's been wanting to ask out forever, so something simple. I plan on making his night hell for him. He won't remember being teased more in one night. Although he could do the same to me... :2eyes:

[Terry Courageous]

Well I did get a date for Friday night, we ended up playing mini golf however. Then at the ice cream parlor, it seemed that everyone working there knew my bro, the famous OH. And when I put a dollar in the tip jar, they started singing show tunes about the store. :confused: OK. So after ice cream, my buddy and his date went their separate ways, and me and my date went to go watch a movie with her friends. She didn't tell me until we were almost there that, "Oh yeah, some of my friends are gays and lesbians. Is that going to bother you?" Is that going to bother me? Somewhat, unless the girls are hot and making out. They weren't. At least the lone gay man didn't hit on me. So during the movie, there wasn't much action going on unless you count the teenagers in the back of the room feeling each other up. They don't really count because they are underage. So anyways, after the movie we head home and I end up with just a goodnite hug. OK, cool. I can deal.

Then tonight, I call the same girl up to watch a movie at my place. The Grudge. What a lame movie. But that didn't matter, because she sat in the recliner while I was alone on the couch. Feeling alone and in the cold, I sat there wondering if I'm just a cool guy to hang out with and if that's just that. She just sees me as a cool guy, nothing more. So while she thinks that, I'm having make-out withdrawls.

[Terry Courageous]

So tonight at Ward Home Evening, my lady friend from the previous post was there, and I spent most of the night chatting with her. So as everyone was leaving, my roommate Steve asks: "So are you two going out?"

I give him a blank stare usually reserved for people who ask rhetorical questions of me. "No." I reply. "Why would you think that?"

His reply: "Well you two seem to hang out a lot..."

I cut him off. "Me and you hang out a lot. What does that mean?"

Being the smart guy that he is, he quickly realized where I was going with this, and apologized for his rudeness. That's right. You made an assumption and made an ass out of yourself. See me and her are just two people who enjoy one another's company without the stress of a relationship. That's called being friends. Which I can handle doing at this point in time. I mean its not like either of us are looking right now. But I wouldn't rule her out of the equation when I start actively looking for a meaningful relationship.

[Terry Courageous]

OK, you might be able to just disregard the prior post, seeing as how me and this girl have just gone out on our second date in 5 days, making it a total of 4 now. We went and saw Hitch. That movie made a lot of sense to me. Although the getting hit by a taxi to meet a girl can no longer be used, because the guy in one of those internet commercials did it.

Anyways. After spending so much time with her lately, I'm starting to wonder if maybe there could be something happening. But I won't be able to talk with her until Monday, because I have obligations to fill tomorrow night, and she leaves to go home Thursday and won't be back til late Sunday night. Maybe the time apart will be good for reflection.

In other news, there was no weekly pool tournament because of Spring Break, the Institute was closed, and also no one would've been there. Denim is in Utah, I was on a date, and Jason was sick. So the tournament would've sucked anyways. But there will be next week. Oh there will be.