Grim Horizons

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I honestly never saw this before... so when i did i decided to put up a rant/ advice/ quote thread.
Hope i dont offend anyone as i tend to be very angry alot, so dont take it personally if i bitch about something people said that you've coincidentaly said. ok so....




Todays Quote:
If it is so, and it works, Let it be.

My advice of the day:
Let people live their own lives, quit your meddling, no one will isten anyway. why waste your time fucking with other peoples stupidity, when you have your own life to live. Dont barf on women. they find this unnatractive.

Thus Grim has spoken

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Learn how to tell milatary people to fuck off. i mean seriously if you dont wanna go into the military, just tell a lie or something like: "i take drugs to keep my mood stable so fuck off"
Anyway i have to talk to a stupid seaman (no offence navy people i just dont see myself going into any military, you just happened to bother me today:mad: )

I recently obtained a ps2, along with final fantasy 10. after much playing through the game i have come to a bastard i will call "Seymour" even though his proper name is *swears uncontrollably in anger*. Not only does his voice make him sound like a douche, but hes dead and he steals yuna and fucking marries her sort of. what kind of stupid *again swears uncontrolably* dies then comes back sort of just to steal the games love intrest????!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!

Todays advice:
If you die, stay dead and dont go kissing chicks who are the love interests in the video game your in.
Remember:
A cup half empty can alwasy be filled with water and sold for normal price. or in the case of normal venders half full of ice. so when you buy drinks always ask for almost no ice.

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Speaking of military might it doesnt show much for you if you dont show up to scheduled meeting when planned, especially if you are trying to recruit. stupid bastards. i even went to sleep early last night. ARGH!!!! again.

Well if he does call me to reschedule i will prbably just get forced into another meeting. Military people are more persistant than Morman missionaries. (No offence)

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Day 3


Insomnia shall kill me when school starts. i ony have half a week of freedom.:cry: The evil that is high school. and stupid bastard people that are too closed minded to understand that you are smarter than them. Today i feel like andrew wiggin. Props goes out to wotists with that name if he reads.

People always assume by looking at my grades
(1.83 GPA:dozey: )
So when the school counselar took me in (signing up for classes) and talked to me about passing HS(ill be a few credits deficient:shattered ) so we were talking and she asked if i was stupid or just lazy or something(thinking i was on drugs). needless to say i am strangly drug free:cool: .
So to prove my point we did a sort of test to see my learning ability. me, bein sort of tired after getting up early to meet stupid navymen, did take the test. when said test said that i had a perfect learning score (AKA HIGH capability) i thought they was lie-ing to boost confidence. or something. but then i get home, and take another iq type test, and it says my iq is like 142. if i remeber corectly genius is 150 or above. not to brag. but now i think ill actualy try to graduate instead of pulling the take GED to pass.

and remeber just because someone GPA is low doesnt mean there not smart. they could be almost a genius, and you would never know it:D

Advice for the day:
Judge with what you see someone do, not what someone says.

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And todays adventure says that friends are out to steal your girlfriend. bastards. Especially Unibrowed nasty teeth friends.

After much anger at my friend for spreading lies about me, i let him have the grace of coming over and hanging out with us people. Him, with a nifty car with good cd player, got to be the designated driver. not to say that we were drunk, just his car was cool, and we cant drive it without him. so, we go to a barbaque with dancing, and its next to the swimming pool here in the place im at. free swimming... means hot chicks. i had thought we were cool, now that me and my Girlfriend broke up. but apparently he has been sort trying to play the whole "grim's an asshole so come to me who is nice" thing with her. thats like trash talking your friend to be with a chick. seriously not cool. so we go to this thing, and after a few hours swimming, we go to grab some hot dogs/ burgers at the BBQ. When we were done eating it ended up being 10:20 PM. and because unibrow is an idiot, he had locked all my spare type clothes in his trunk. like pants. and a warm t-shirt. all i had was a wet towel and wet trunks and wet t-shirt. and i was wearing sandals. so i ask him for the keys to get my stuff to get properly dressed, and he just tells me to screw off so he can flirt with some chick. at this point, i realize said chick is an associate of mine, The Game's Sister. Unibrow, being the stupid shithead that he is is trying to get laid by my friends sister. who happens to like any old moron with a penis. probably diseased like a super bitch.

anyway he tells me to go away, so i go to break into his car, to get my clothes and not be cold. but after i get into the car, and try to open the trunk, and it doesnt work. i is pretty pissed. at this point its like 50 degrees without windchill, and im pretty damn wet from swimming.

after trying very hard for about 10 minutes, my friends tell me they wanna head back to my house to just hang out and do stuff. unibrow, busy with the skank, decides to tell us if we wanna get home, then we are gonna walk, unless we wait for another hour or two. my house is about 5 miles away. so me, pretty pissed as per being cold and wet and stuff decided that it wasnt that far and i was seriously about to kick some ass. so i stalked off declaring i was gonna walk. so i walked off with my friends, about 3 miles later, he drives by with TG's Sister in the car. and we drives home. and here i am about to destroy him, because he is an ass. willpost tomarrow more on this after much thinking on friendship.

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after thinking about it for a day i kinda just am pissed at unibrow, and will probably just end up kicking his ass. or something. probly not.

anyway short post i gotta sleep tonight because school starts soon and i wanna get correct sleeping habits for it.

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I hate school. school is too early in the morning for me not enough cofee makes Grim a tired boy. and being a senior is good, but when you have to do work all day life begins to be very boring.

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Whenever i think of how much time i have wasted, being a stupid loser shithead idiot lazy bastard son of a bitch, i want to kill myself and save my future kids the embarassment of having a failure for a dad. god i think of every oppurtinity that i have passed up, and puke with disgust. so little time, so many mistakes.

with that in mind i have been on the path to reform. at least school wise. seeing as how youve gotten this far you might have seen my crap GPA. thats because i fucked around all my life.

needless to say, alot of work to do. the good news is i graduate on time. the bad news is no scholarships for me. i was actually thinking of joining the military, but i cant decide now. it just seems so much like they promise and i dont know if they are gonna keep it. the main thing is i would get money for college, and also all credits i earn while enlisted are free to me.

i guess im just not up to life anymore. so much failure, and one glimmer of hope, and knowing my luck it would just fuck me over. fell free to email me whatever you think about my stupidity.

Advice: Live like you are gonna die tommarow. because im right behind you with a chainsaw. or something:shattered

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Its been far to long.

Did anyone know that you can be a sex offender for mooning people? i met a guy who mooned his ex wife and got indecent exposure charges, and now he has to be registered for sex offence. what kind of bullshit is that. ill give the full story...

He was going to his house to pick up his golf clubs, and when he got there, his ex wife (they had had a bad divorce) took his clubs, and one by one chucked them out of the 2nd story window. so as he picked them up she was not only trying to hit him with them, but also laughing. just as we were leaving she was getting ready to leave. so as we pulled out of the driveway, we pulled around for a passby mooning (AKA Showing of the buttocks). she called the police and he got charges for indecent exposure, and is now a sex offender. now i dont know about you, but when i think of sex offender, i think of some old guy raping little children. not some guy mooning someone. maybe im just a stupid baastard, but i think there should be a difference between mooning and raping small children.

on a funny note, because of this, i now think of all stupid little kids cartoons, such as spongebob, or ed edd and eddy when i think of sex offenders. and highschool boys who want a cheep thrill of making people look at your ass. and jeff foxworthy.

anyway i just find this to be bullshit, so...

anyway advice for today:
Just because the motto is do the dew, it doesn't mean that you wip it out and F*** the can. so dont.

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I was sick of school yesterday. first time i was home all school year.

Ive been saving my sick days for a week long vacation before some holiday or another.

right now im feeling pretty tired.

anyway....


Nothing new, just trying to get through highschool without being a super senior next year. though id stick through it rather than get a GED. GED is the cowards way out. much like suicide.

My beard is looking nicely. ive decided to make it look like Kunikida's beard from Blue Seed, so i can dress like him at the anime convention ill be going to. its gonna be sweet. i just have to get a white trenchcoat, and white suit. ill probably be doing a skit of Omake #8, the monologue of breakfest. pretty damn funny.

anyway. Quote of the Day:
"If the truth hurts, Wear a helmet."-Brandon Ackerman
Random advice of the Day(Probably really longer)
If you ever feel like killing someone, try walking a mile in their shoes. then, not only will you be a mile away, but you will have their shoes as well.

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Sleep is good. because i don't get much sleep i am unhappy.

My new japanese teacher needs tp be killed in the face. not only are we not doing anything new, but she yelled at me when i politely asked her to teach us. after class. the very next day (yesterday) she insulted our old japanese teacher, and us by saying that he passed everyone with a C, even if they didn't do anything. i think this was aimed at me, but i had passed with a b last year. it makes me wanna fuckin just beat the fucking shit out of her. godamn. i fucking hate stupid teachers.

on a happier note, i am going to be taking a college course for japanese at ISU. Very good.

Quote:
"Whats a molecule?" -Tyson Young

This is a quote from someone sitting next to me in the school library. he just asked me that. very strange young man.

Anyway i think i will have to calm down before i kill someone. those bastards.

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At one point this guy was standing behind me reading my stuff that i wrote, and complaining about my computer time, but now he is gone. i have scared him away with me extreme wotism skills.

Wotism is good for you.

I hate my japanese teacher. she is a stupid bitch, and complains to first year about how i contridict her on things about the language. i can't help that im better than her. stupid bitch mother fucker is gonna die. and i hope she reads this. bitch. mother fucker. gonna die.

yeah apparently she is also trying to get me removed from being the japanese club president, for apparently abusing power. what else would i do with it. its not like decisions are up to me, only to the stupid bastard teachers in charge. thats why i can't watch hentai as an anime subcommitee activity. because of my bitch teacher. god i hope she dies.

Reasons for hatred:

All assignments i have done have not been put in the grade book. the 2 that i didn't do were. i have a 12.7% in the class. and im better at japanese than the teacher. she went to japan on a mission for the LDS church, for 2 years. she comes back and tests japanese as her minor at some shit college. then My old teacher dies. she gets job and sucks ass at it, then complains that i demand too much of her. bitch.

Get this, she insulted my old teacher too. She comes in one day, and says:
"I heard that Mr. Smith Passed everyone in the class with a C. I will not be doing this." she then went on to say that he was a bad teacher, and must not of known what he was doing. I told many older students, those who had known him. there was a feeling of people going to do a curb stomping on a stupid bitch teacher. i agree full heartedly.

If i would not get thrown in prison, i would just bitch her out with a baseball bat. godamn bitch mother fucker gonna die bitch.

~End rant~

Quote:
"Ima gonna kill that bitch till she bleeds out her eyeholes."-Grim

Random Saying:
"Don't sit around and talk, go and beat the shit outa someone."

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate stupid bitch teachers.

Note: GPA raised to 2.05
B+ average as of now, except japanese.

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Wow violent thoughts i had.

if anyone is offended at my last post i apologize, i was kinda tired and angry. (and a little drunk).

Dont drink and post rants. they could convict you of.... i dunno.

i will probably just bitch her out or go get her fired. stupid new teachers.

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This confusing world i live in.

Female logic is inept. 1+1=3.5

Story told as: 2 of my friends like me. in more than just friends way. normally every guys dream. one of them, friend A had a boyfriend up until last week on thursday when they broke up. on her online journal that i read she said that there was some other guy that she has liked for a while. i assumed my friend brian, because they are together alot. anyway. other friend, Friend B i have liked for about a year, and not really said anything. problem: both Friends were just that: friends. I liked Friend B though, and this created a very big problem. if i told friend A that i only wanted to be her friend, then it would be very asshole of me to go out with Friend A. Me, being a complete moron, did just that. and doing thus, have forced friend B into a very bad position. If she does say yes she will look like a bitch to the other chick, and if she says no i will prbebly just carve Hatred and sayings such as that into my forhead. now normally i am a very happy person (hence the Name Grim) but this is just gonna make me more and more depressed. why can't life just be simple, and go my way for once.

(I like her)+(She Likes me)= Good relationship waiting to happen.

But it won't. Godamn me and my stupid stupidity.

Fucking fuck Fuck Fuckity Fuck Fuck.

~End Rant Storytelling~

Quote:
"Come Carpe Diem Baby"- Metallica

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well i got my answer. lets just say it was a negative one. i hate it when i take things to seriously.

well thats what i get for trying to be happy. i think from now on i will just use the flame and the void to remove myself from all emotions around me. become a heartless bastard. or just sleep alot.

fuck the world lets get high.

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Why is it that every time something good is goin, i get screwed.

Girls are more trouble than they are worth. one like i should learn to just mind my own buissness and just masturbate or something. fucking women. always just go and betray you. like bloody cats.

i guess i still have my sanity... wait thats gone too now. fuck the world. i quit trying now. no more women for good old grim.

Good... Thats funny.

Quote:
I'm Gonna make you part of my balanced breakfest.
- Whats your battle cry website.

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The principle thing that life is about is sex. religions try to hide it and say "family", but they are just embarrassed that they like sex. How hipocritical they are that the speak out against sex, and yet profess that it is the meaning of life.

Religion is just a tool to control the weak. the kings and tyrants of the middle ages made it up to explain why they are in charge, and not the peasants. it used to be different however.

Why is it that any ancient religion is considered garbage, when christianity, which has just as many falacies, is still considered. similarities: Learning from a 2000 year old book that claims to have prophecies of our day. why do this? to control peoples ideas, stop their creativity, and overwhelmingly cripple our minds.

Solution: instead of following some 2000 year old book, create your own code of morals of how you will act according to common sence. don't let some stupid religious person control how you think or feel. if religious people had it their way we would be some kind of communist country where some old guy with a beard says things about how god told him this or that.

Don't give power to those who would oppose freedom of thought and action.

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you know, if there is no way to stop the problem, remove yourself from the problem and it will stop. i have decided to quit trying. it is obvious that my asshole friends dont really give a shit about the same things as me. it seems that every time i turn around i see another fake. or maybe its just me. so i decided that if i am so depressed about it then it is my fault.

so to all my friends who actually read this: Sorry i wont be around much anymore. i have been trying to calm down and leave well enough alone, but seriously i dont want competetion to get out of hand. the only thing that makes sence to me right now is that i need to stop being around you.

Don't you even say this is sudden. this has been a long time coming. So be quite and just deal with it. i apologize if this is a little blunt and pointed at certain people.

you know its good to be open with your feelings, but when you lie streight to my face it kinda pisses me off. and i am streight sick of all your stupid whining and fucking shit about how horrible your life is. you dont see me complaining about even half the shit i have had to take. deal with it. fucking christ.

I dont wanna sound super possessive but seriously when someone likes another person and its your friend and you know it... LAY THE FUCK OFF!!! i mean seriously. i may be hipocrite, but i waited a FUCKING YEAR FOR YOU MAN.

i dont get super pissed like this often, but yeah i am sick of having to come up with strange diseases to get attention. I wish that someone would tell me that i am a good person, or any kind of FUCKING PRAISE. all you have to do is be silent for 5 FUCKING MINUTES and you get all the attention in the FUCKING WORLD.

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SECOND FUCKING BEST!!! Why is it that whenever anything good happens to me i have about 30 people who want to tear it down.

Even a self proclaimed genius has the right to be jealous.

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Oh the above post was directed at my real friends... in real life... so yeah.

You know i am kinda at an undecided point right now. i asked my parents if i dont end up getting a job can i move with them when they move to utah. do you know what they said? no.

no way. so within the next 3 months i get a job and an apartment or i am homeless.

yeah my grades are horrible. i getta come back next year for round 2. my parents wont let me stay with them. they told me that i was a disappointment and they would kick me out now if i wasnt in school. so the fact that im gonna be a supersenior just made them more angry.

the girl that i like told me that she would never date me. or even give me a chance. or so i think. my friend is pissed off at me because i tryed to strangle him. i have been getting nicotine craving for about a month now. i havent been in contact with my best friend in over a month.

yeah now is the kinda time that shit is hittin the fan for me. semi-genius person who gets kicked out of his house and is hated by the girl he likes, and most of his friends. why the fuck does everything go wrong all at once?

Kids take it from me: dont be a fuck hole. Dont fall in love. Never try and pick up your good friend as a girlfriend. pay your taxes. and dont sell yourself short.

Love is bad. never think about a chick to much or you will fall in love. dont hate your friends over something you cant control. never try to get what you want.

You know i thought i had hit rock bottom a year ago when i thought i had done everything. im still here. people say that is proof that i will just live through this too, but i dont think that i will live until the end of next week.

I really could have used a little help from someone. just because i have been through a lot doesnt mean that i know everything about life. i really hate having done so much now.

Well i think i will go want another cigarette. because i cant have one just makes it worse now that i have all this stress and nobody that cares about... stuff...

Well friends. id would like to say i have ahd a good life, but i would be lying. So whenever you read this it would be the worst point in time in my life. ima gonna go find some party with drunk chicks and try and get laid tommarow... i dont think im ment to have any kind of relationship, seeing as how they never work out. so one night stand just seems to me the only thing that would ever work out for me.

see ya around folks.

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Wow depressing thoughts. apparently i did hit rock bottom because i have nothing more to complain about. My life just all around sucks. Fuck.

Well i guess i always have Wotism (Hugs Wotism).

Tis a nice forum, i rarely do anything else anymore.

To just give up would be too like me. I never press anything that happens to me. i guess thats why i fail so much because i dont try hard enough. so i dont think i will give up quite yet.

Oh my GPA has raised from whatever it was last to a 2.63. it makes me feel better. even though i still have to come back for round two. I guess i raised them by repeating classes i have failed. Like english 9. so i am a senior in a ninth grade english class. pretty funny.

well untill next time i bid thee a gentle Farewell.

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Man... It has been a while. I guess I should start with this:

Life has been going ok. Not really up, but also not really down. I am just living it through, hoping for the best, and hoping that the girl I like still likes me.

I saw the Last Samurai Saturday. That movie is so sad, I actually cried 3 times during it. I think it ranks on my top two movies that I have ever seen, only not one because I might have forgotten another movie.

I recommend watching this movie, as It is very good.

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Have I got some stories to tell heheh. Last weekend I went to Anime Oasis, an anime convention here in idaho. It was awsome, especially the wonderful people there. Everyone there was super awsome, and there was a high number of people cosplaying as cool anime characters.

I roomed with 13 other people in a hotel room, and we only payed for 2, so it was quite a crowded room. It was so incredabaly awsome, just being around other people who like anime 24 hours, for 3 days streight. Out of 14 people in our room, I only knew 4, and by the time the con was out, I still did not know everyone. The coolest person I met there had to be Zach, who helped me get into hentai night (I didn't have ID so he said I was his little bother and I was 18).

It was so absolutely awsome going to a place where everyone was like me, where I was not the "weird" anime freak. The con Chairman, Jeremy Loppet was especially awsome, Talking with the visitors, helping around.

At the Con I got to hang out in a jacuzzi with a voice actor, Michael Coleman, who plays stan in hamtaro(haven't seen) and Luke on Zoids Fusors, and also Chic on Infinite Ryvius. He was totally awsome, talking to me for almost 2 hours about what he does, and telling me some stories about other voice actors. Michael Coleman was a super cool guy.

By the time it was time to leave I was feeling a little sad at having to leave all the ultra awsome people I had met, and it showed that most people felt that way when the chairman got up to talk to everyone for closing ceremonies, and he started crying. He hadn't thought he would make enough money to keep the convention alive, and he was so happy that there would be an Anime Oasis 2005, that he cried in front of everyone. It almost made me cry listening to him talk about it.

Anyway so I guess I am doing a little better than I have been. I needed that little Pick-me-up thing to happen, and bring me back from the shit that normally happens in my life. Hopefully my life will continue to be as good as it is now...

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Going to my prom this year. Actually quite proud of myself for actually getting a date with the chick I like. I got myself a trenchcoat too, and I think I am gonna wear it instead of the gay tux coat that came with my tux. The trench coat looks really cool, and I really like it because of the big buttons it has, and it looks like a pirate coat.

The girl I am going to prom with said she likes it too, and she said she was ognna buy me one of those poofy 1800's shirts made of silk to go with it for my birthday (August 10)

And one more thing: Thanks to my good bud Mr The Game for donating to my cause, alowing me to go to prom. He is a real good prom and volunteered to donate 100$ to my prom ticket and food, and that means I am financially able to go.

I can't believe how far my life has gone now that I think about it. I guess thats what this reflection type thread is about, watching yourself mature after time goes on. I am happy with the way my life has been going.

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Its time a decision was made...

I feel it's time for me to give up on trying to talk in the general discussion forum. I am almost never online and I fall behind in the topics that people talk on. So, I feel I will only be talking on the Theories section and this journal area... Though I might just post on absnot sometimes.

So for all the people who were wondering were I am going... Ill be on theories and Diablo 2.

Diablo 2 accounts (USWest):
*SoH-Grim
*Grim-Tidings
*Ahzrarn

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What the hell happened to this site? In the past 7 months this site has turned from a friendly community with member that were friends with me to a not so friendly bunch of hipocrites, playing the childish games of popularity contests.

What the hell does reputation have to do with how good a person you are? It seems that the few people who are nice enough to give reputation are few, and far between. I barely have my reputation up to 75, and seeing as how its low, when I spread it it doesn't spread much.

You know, I was perfectly fine with coming to this site every once in a while to say hi to what few friends I have here, but this is turning into high school I am popular so what I say means alot. and thats exactly what I didn't want at this site.

Fuck this if everyone is just gonna be self centered little assholes.

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I can't believe I still love a movie after having watched it so many times. Maybe it's because I feel the same way as the main character from it. I am of course talking of The Last Samurai.

I think there is something wrong with me, that I have always felt out of place were I am, that I never felt at home untill I went to Japan. It seemed to me that even today the honor of life was there, was with me.

To quote, <i>I have never been a church-going man, and what I have seen on the battlefield has left me to question the motives of God, but there is indeed something spiritual about this place.</i>

I could never have put it better myself. Sometimes I feel like a foreigner to this place, alone with no one to relate to. All I know is that if given the chance I would never return to this country.

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Almost everyone I know has played final Fantasy VII, the first of the series to be on the playstation. And now, squaresoft is making a Final Fantasy VII Movie, called Advent Children. Up untill about a week ago, Nanaki and Cid were kept as secret characters. But not anymore! Check this out

http://www.geocities.co.jp/Playtown-Dice/6280/image/0702_fam-2.jpg

Tears of joy streaming down my face, because Aeris is also back (sorta)

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Well, I should have learned by now thast other people cannot be depended on to help when your in need. Unless you go to church, your a forsaken loser, black sheep of the family. You deserve to live under a bridge if you dont believe that god is worth worshiping.

At least, thats what I have come to believe. I live under a bridge, next to the highway. How can I get a job when I am dirty, underfed, and all around nasty looking? I don't know, but I am just so glad that I have been forced into a state of homelessness.

You know, because I eat all their food, because I sleep on their couch. And because I don't go to church.

Oh, Say happy birthday to my dad if you get a chance. I doubt I will.

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Old habits die hard, and today I seek comfort in the arms of my mistress... It seems like I just can't let go of my favorite game ever, the most addicting Diablo II (tm). Recently the drama in my life has put most soap operas to shame...

My clan has somewhat split, giving me a choice between old friends and new friends. My old friend, ApKx, decided to leave the clan after a long arguement with the clanleaders wife. It left me quite torn at what to do, because he had been one of my first friends i had made on diablo 2.

I ended up telling my old clan that I would not be fully leaving the clan, only that I would re-start my old one, and play on hardcore. The clan leader told this to me:

"Grim you have earned the respect from an individual that has a tough time giving respect where none is merited. I must say that as soon as i heard of the situation and the fact that people were leaving clan it began to get onto my nerves. i thought what have i dont to cause this. i cant help it if i am away protecting peoples rights. i want to be there to hold things together and hope that when i get home maybe i can resolve this issue with the guys but who knows. Maybe they just dont feel comfortable anymore. That is their choice and i cant change that but ireally would rather them not be angry at the clan. hopefully they will return and if teh yare making a new clan best of luck to them. I only hope that in the future we are allies and friends. i still consider Apk my friend even though i dont understand why and if you would be so kind as to tell him my email address so perhaps i can still correspond with him. If he needs anything tell him to come talk to me. I am his friend until he tells me he doesnt want that anymore. If that is the case then i am truly sorry. Well until i can get home things are out of my hands and there is nothing i can do to help anyone. My hope is that everyone will still give things a chance to work out. Well good luckto all and thanks grim for not being a band wagon friend. -Zedd- "

Zeddicus is my friend, one of the few people in the military I have ever respected. He is currently somewhere overseas (He could not disclose to me where) and has left not only the game he loved, but the women as well. My respect for that man, that he could leave so much behind for something that he believed in, goes deep. I hope one day to believe in something as strong as he does.

It doesn't matter what you believe in, but how much faith you have in it. I may not agree with the war, but I do respect those that live in honor.

Art Stuff
Sometimes I wish I could draw, and actually make it look good. All the time I sit and try to make art that is not written, and it comes out looking the same as all my other art. Just once I wish I could complete something that I have started.

I am working on a beautiful picture, My Necromancer, complete with exquisite bone armor, and a flail. Unlike some fanart, I did change quite a bit about him, to make him an original Character, Grim. I know, it's an over used name, but, I have used that name since 2001 when my game came out, and I can't seem to let go of it...

As it goes, I have not been able to articulate a bone spirit, without making my character look really cartoony. Maybe it's just my stubby fingers... or a lack of ghastly inspiration...

If you were drawing something that looked like this(http://www.battle.net/images/battle/diablo2exp/images/skills/bonespirit01.jpg), and wanted it to look realistic, how would you go about it?

[Grim]

You know, it's funny how so many new people join, and post like crazy, but I still can't seem to get back into the swing of things...

At least half of the major posters here today haven't been here longer than 8 months.... It seems like my whole life is connected somehow. As soon as shit starts happening to me, and I ignore other things, that right when everything else starts happening.

4 more days... maybe someone can remember, I don't want any sweaters this year.

I'm feeling so nostalgiac today. I wish I had something to do with my life...

[Grim]

I don't even want to know whats wrong with me anymore. It seems that my life is full of many disapointments. I guess I expect too much of people...

I don't know whats going on, I have lost all motivation to leave my house. I don't want to be around anyone, and yet I do, but it seems that everyone is angry at me for some reason.

Heres the song of the moment. I don't know whats up, but this is the general feeling I have been having recently...

SEETHER LYRICS

"Fine Again"

It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself

[Grim]

I need something socially redeeming to talk about. My life sucks, school started, and the only people that still respect me are the few friends I didn't offend last year. It seems I am cursed to do nothing with my life, I might as well quit while I am ahead.

What the hell is wrong with me, I can't seem to get angry at things I used to, I feel as if the fight has been drained from me. Like I could care less if I died tomorow. I guess I am not suicidal or anything, just sick of the bullshit that envelopes my life.

I am too addicted to Diablo 2. I guess I understand why, Psychologically. The only thing that I "feel" is a stable source of enjoyment in my life is Diablo 2. I have played that game for as long as I remember. I seriously think that without it I would have been a completely different person.

My mind believes that everything else is undependable, just waiting to abandon you. Like friends. Apparently Diablo 2 will not leave me, and thats why I think I love it so much.

So for all those that are worried about where I am, or what I am doing, just remember, I am probably playing diablo 2. Wasting my life behind a video game because I am too afraid to take a chance and lose again. Anyone with questions should refer to around November 2003-may of this years posts. I guess it's harder to let go than I thought.

[Grim]

Metallica is not only my favorite all-time band, but also I believe the best metal band of all time. Back in the early 80's, only shortly after the brutal and amazing onslaught of NWOBHM bands, it was obvious that metal was moving in a new direction. Although most of the NWOBHM-era bands only survived for a couple years, their influence on the next generation of metalheads defined the genre. Under the influence of such NWOBHM greats as Motohead, Iron Maiden, and Diamond Head, Metallica formed to release Kill 'Em All in 1983, one of the first thrash metal albums. Thrash metal was under development at this same time by not only Metallica but several of their contemporaries, including Anthrax and Slayer. By the time "Ride the Lightning" was released, it was apparent that Metallica led the forefront of thrash.

Each member of Metallica is extremely talented. If you've ever seen Kirk perform live, you will be forced to acknowledge him as one of the guitar gods. Lars is obviously not in his prime anymore... but just look at the drum work in "One". I don't particularly like Jason Newsted or his replacement, Robert Trujillo - though his stage performance is unmatched by any bassist I've seen - but Cliff Burton was one of the best bass players of all time. James is not a stellar singer, I'll admit, but his talent lies in songwriting. There is no one person whose lyrics I admire more. His songs range in subject from life to death, love to hate... and so much more. Metallica is truely able to express emotion in their songs, unlike so many other bands. Who can not watch the "One" video and not be touched? I want to play "For Whom the Bell Tolls" for every pro-war fucker... and "Nothing Else Matters" is a great song to play for your girlfriend. "The Unforgiven" is my personal favorite, because in it Hetfield condemns the Christian Science background his parents raised him in, like several of his songs do. For me, like so many of Metallica's songs, this carries a personal implication, since I as well was raised in a strict Christian household and hated it.

There is no metal band who has been able to stick together as well as Metallica has, 20 years and counting, and no band had had a more widespread effect on the realm of heavy metal in the 80's. Though Metallica's music has significantly declined in the last decade, it is undeniable that "Ride the Lightning," "Master of Puppets," and "...And Justice For All" remain 3 of the best heavy metal albums of all time. All three of them combine heavy, angry riffs with harmonic melodies for an amazing effect, a successful mixture that few heavy metal bands have been able to achieve. It is amazing how something so heavy can be so sentimental - for example "To Live is to Die." I have both headbanged and cried to that song. 80's Metallica was nothing short of astounding, and the influence of their songs on the realm of metal is still apparent today.

[Grim]

Anyone who knows me knows I am addicted to Diablo 2 worse than anyone else in existance. But, after much time and review, I have decided upon a new MMORPG to switch to, that is when it comes out. Guild Wars is the answer to my prayers, a breath of fresh new Graphics, combined with the same reason I still play Diablo 2: It's free to play. You buy the game, and there are no Pay-Per-Month fees, it is completely free. It is my opinion that because of this, Guild Wars will completely DOMINATE all other MMORPG's. Here is the official website:

Homepage (http://www.guildwars.com/default.html)
Game Info (http://www.guildwars.com/gameinfo/default.html)
Review (http://articles.filefront.com/177)

With this in mind, when it becomes available to the general public, I will be buying a new computer and this game. From what I have read, it beats all other online games out there, only possibly being beaten by Final Fantasy XI. Seeing as how there is a continuing market (IE Final Fantasy XII, XIII, etc) I highly doubt Square-Enix will continue to properly fund, and care for the game.

This game is a game for people like me, who master a game and it's capabilities, it doesn't waste the time of people, by causing wasted time leveling up, but focuses more on teamwork and player skill. That is exactly the kinda of game I am looking for.

[Grim]

Lesson One: Women, and Love.
When two women like you, it is not ok to go out with both. But if both of those two know each other, it is also not ok to even try to go out with one. It is best to just run away, or ignore it. Even if you really like one of those women. Because if you go after only one, it will hurt the others feelings, and force the one you went after to choose between hurting their friends feelings and hurting your feelings. So, be smart, unlike me, and DON'T GO AFTER EITHER.

Lesson Two: Get shit done in school.
Don't be an idiot. If you have the choice, get highschool done as soon as you are able. Don't get a GED, or any other lame excuse to leave school. Education is important, and if you ignore it, life will ignore you. Even if you have to go for a second senior year, keep on trying to complete High School even until you are half dead. I will continue my schooling until I think I am done learning.

Lesson Three: Don't piss off your parents.
If you piss off your parents enough, you will find yourself homeless. Luckily, they realized how awesome I truly am, and I get money for rent and such, but seriously, DON'T PISS OFF YOUR PARENTS UNLESS YOU WANT TO PAY FOR SHIT YOURSELF.

Lesson Four: Give up.
If you like a girl, and she doesn't like you, you CAN'T CHANGE IT. No matter how close you were, how right you are, women don't like persistance. They like drones. In fact, you have a better chance being gay, because most women will like you more if you are. Don't waste your time trying to "Win the Girl", because if she doesn't apreciate you now, there is a high probability that she never will.

Lesson Five: Screw Religion.
Seriously, religion only teaches seperation and bias against other people. We don't need that shit in a civilized society, and we DON'T need some 80 year old man controlling our personal lives. Jesus was a good man, but there is no possible way that Jesus would approve of the manipulation and evil that has been done in his name. It is time for civilization to rise above it's petty differences, and religion is one of the major factors that keeps humanity from doing so.

Lesson Six: Always have a backup plan.
Don't depend on friends to come and help you out. There is only so far someone else can help you, and it's better to know that you have more than one backup plan if your original plan doesn't work. People cannot be depended on, it is much easier, and more reliable to depend only on yourself.

That concludes my preaching for today, I could go on, but rarely anybody reads these things anymore.

[Grim]

Well, I have refrained from make an official opinion on this matter for some time. Needless to say, while I did vote for Nader in protest, I had thought that Kerry would win. The only thing that makes me glad I didn't vote for him now, is the fact that he did not have the conviction to stick through. He gave up.

Kerry is a coward.

All I can say is I pity this country, and everything that has happened to it, if it continues going the way it is. Most people who know me know my religious views. This country is the closest it has ever been to a theocratic monarchy as it can get.

While I am glad Kerry didn't win, Bush needs to shape up, or the republican party will split down it's seems, and we will have a democratic party, a republican party, and a broader independent party.

Nothing against anyones religious views, but God needs to sit out on the next election, or I am going to start getting angry about these things. Our country is about religious FREEDOM, the freedom to have a religion, and practice it freely. But that doesn't supercede the seperation of church and state. God cannot, should not, and if he truly cares, will not be made an issue in politics. If he is, then are we not the same as those monarchies of the middle east? Are we not advocating for something that should be private?

The ramifications of this election are enormous. But, as with most things, I will stand by, and watch. I cannot predict what will happen, but if things continue as they are, more than one amendment could happen...

[Grim]

Religion.

Fuck religion. I hate dipshit christians, that think their better than you, starving their hormones by not having sex, and claiming not to masturbate. Fuck them. If this world is corrupt, and evil, and you think the next world is any better, kill yourself.

Fuck people that hate porn. Oh my god! it's fucking porn who gives a flying fuck. Families fall apart because of porn, not because the man is being unfaithful, but because the parents estrange the son by getting rid of everything instead of punishment. Porn is my freedom from having to deal with dumbass relationships.

GUESS WHAT FUCKERS! I AM 18!!! OMG FUCKING DIE. YOU CAN'T TAKE MY PORN!

If your not looking for it, you won't find it; and if your a dumbass and get mad at me for it, then you can die. Literally. Just die.

Another thing: Pirated software. I like pirating software. I have about 4 gigs of software, estimated 700$ value. Fuck you FBI. Fuck you dumbass roomates, feeling guilty that I'm "Stealing" from overrich companies. You know, if they didn't charge 500$ for a fancy form of paint, this wouldn't happen.

Guess what? Pirated comics are the same fucking thing! It's no less a fine for 1 thing than 100 things. Lets see... Pirated comics, pirated TV shows, PIRATED MUSIC, pirate this: FUCK YOU!

Down with the establishment. Down with religion. Phase two has begun. Are you ready?

[Grim]

Oh, Even better. I get to school, and some dumbass wants to fight me. How wonderful. Too bad he is under 18, or I would not hesitate to take my anger out on someone. Stupid kids.

I hate humans. I hope this pathetic race learns it's lesson from the nuclear technology it is abusing.

[Grim]

Hello all. Life sucks. Not really.

Got a job, Lurk around here sometimes, mostly on deviantart though. even that is starting to bore me.

I've lost most of my friends due to stupidity, and my best friend has started to ditch me for his girlfriend, a girl that I used to like (Not the one I usually wrote about, a different girl I was just getting to like before they started going out :()

Anyway, I've kinda decided I would just give up on trying to get a decent girlfriend. It seems to have worked wonders for my bestfriend, I'm 0-2 and he just seems to be wracken shit in. I hate to sound like a whiny, self loathing, pity party loser so...

Have a nice year everyone, and even though I said it couldn't be worse than last year, it's already off to a bad start.

[Grim]

I am sick of this shit. Every time I get my hopes up for anything (Girls, events, fun shit) It ends up that either it can't happen, or won't happen. I am just so fucking sick to death of trying to do anything anymore.

I wish something heroic or interesting would come up. I wish I could have my goatee still. I wish I could find something to fill up the void (Read empty boredom) in my life.

I work everyday this week. I'm sure by tuesday next week I will be a soul-sucked zombie, and tomorow I have my credit apeal hearing. I doubt I will get my credit, and if I don't, none of you will see me again. I will probably go hide somewhere, and go to work.

I have always noticed that life seems to kick you when your down. Well, I go off to take a piss, and it seems someone plugged up the toilet and didn't tell me. My bathroom is flooded, and apparently its leeking to the downstairs. Hooray for having no phone, or any godamn towels for that matter.

I think I am gonna just run away. This is bullshit.