Um, yeah so like things and stuff

[GWINNA]

Ok, how long has things thing been here? I realy need to like examime the whole board more often. So yeah. I doubt anyone cares enough to read my thread, so its just for my own amusement I guess thats ok, just as long as I don't delude myself. Nothing wrong with patronizing yourself from time to time. So lets see here, what can I blather on about? Nothing right now, I'll have to post agian when I actualy have something to say.

[GWINNA]

Why do I bother really? No matter how nice I try to be, no matter how carefull I am, people end up pissed at me? Sometimes it really is my fault, sometimes I can go off the handle and stuff, but now that my life has st oped sucking the big suck, its still not getting any better. I've been exceedingly nice about things, letting things slide, trying to be carefull how I say things, but people still get pissed at me...and its always stupid shit too. Like they take what I say and search it for any hint or possible insult. Like there is no point in even trying to be nice, it gets you shit on anyway. There's no reward for good behavior. Now that I've finally gotten my act together the foundations of which I've based everything are falling apart. The republican party has betrayed the ideas that made me a republican and there is no alternative, I don't have much in common with the democrats, and I disagree too much with the libertarians. I'm basically partyless. I don't like any politicians or candidates, it doesn't matter who wins, the governments just going to get bigger and more ridiculous and instead of working toward uniting people we're just continuing to separate people into categories. Would it really be that hard to make laws that focus on economic inequality, instead of other things. Why not work toward better education for the poor and forget dividing people up. The only true separation is social status to many people. Yeah we have some assholes left over from the past and their dumbass kids but I find it hard to believe these people have that much influence. Can't we just make it a law that the best person gets the job and if someone is discriminated against, thats the law that gets broken. Why have quotas at all, why not higher the best, most qualified person. Shouldn't that be our focus? The person? The poor do need a leg up from time to time to move up the social ladder, but at the sametime in helping them we shouldn't make them dependant on us, because when we do that we aren't helping them at all and in fact we're hurting them. I don't know, maybe I'm naive to think that way, maybe the world is full of assholes, but the way things are is obviously not the way to go, it isn't working right. They don't have these problems in other countries, England, France and stuff. At least not that I know of... I could be wrong about that. Its just ridiculous. Its so stupid I can't take it anymore. Laws that start out good get completely ruined with add ons that destroy the intent. Like prescription drugs. Yes, elderly that can't afford need medication should have assistance but it should be reserved for those who need assistance, not used as blanket over everyone. The way it is now, when the time comes, taxpayers will be paying for Bill Gates' drugs. Why? He can afford what ever he wants. Another things, the actual cost of drugs has gone down, its only the cost of NEW drugs that have gone up. I'm afraid we're going to end up stagnating research into new drugs and new life saving medicine won't be developed because of lack of incentive. People (myself include) are steal stuff of the net and the companies not only react but over react, suing for projected earnings and the damage that would have been done, not that was done, that could have been done but wasn't. The laws don't make any sense. America has continually abandoned its principles. We don't stand for anything anymore. It pointless.

[GWINNA]

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[GWINNA]

So apparently, repressing my emotions till I'm not even aware of them isn't good enough and "just because you're not aware of them doesn't mean you don't have them" Apparently other people can no read my mind and know what I'm feeling even when I have no idea myself....it keeps me from being sad. Why do people insist on trying to breaking my "4th wall"? :grumbles: