Turtle Talk

[LaughingTurtle]

Well considering I was apart of the creation of this awesome new part of wotism, I guess it's only fitting that I be one of the first to post.

Now I've never done a weblog before, but I can type, I can (sorta) remember what I did during the day, and ranting is fun - thus i'm perfectly qualified!

Anyway, for you to understand where I'm coming from, you prolly need to know a little bout me. If my profile ain't enough, I'm a freshman at Virginia Polytechnic and State University, otherwise known as Virignia Tech, majoring in business.

*Ahem* here goes nothing....

Nothing really special about today, as usual 8am classes suck, and homework is pilling up fast, just waiting to fall over and crush me beneath it all. Though since 1am is considered part of today I guess I could go on about what happened after the big football game yesterday. To make a long story short, Tech whooped up on LSU 26-8, and needless to say, there were some really happy fans and some really unhappy ones.

What followed was a night of drunken parties (which of course i was not apart of...) and a lot of LSU bashing. It got so bad that the riot police had to be called out, with Tech fans on one side and LSU ones on the other. I heard around 25 or so people were arrested.

Thus beginnith the log - long live turtle talk!

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[LaughingTurtle]

AHHHHH DEATH TO HOMEWORK! That pretty much sums up my day....classes and then homework. Grrr. Nearly fell asleep during my morning ACIS class....only managed to stay awake due to my friends doodleing funny pictures of my professor....ah great stuff.

It's getting to be hot here again after a weeks respite of cool weather. I don't know whether to praise the heat or curse it. On one side, all the girls wear those yummy short-shorts, but on the other, it's hot as balls.

To all those who care, i'll soon be updating the wotist picture page....so stay tuned!

Well, back to the grind - :grumbles:

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

zzz...zzz....zzz...

me tired....day.....stuff.....happened......work.....eat.......wotism.....sleep......mmmmm....sleep.....

:smilieasleep:

[LaughingTurtle]

:eek:

~blink, blink~

OMFG! Geocities actually uploaded the damn wotist pictures.....quick somebody pinch me!

~ouch!~ (crazy f'n roommate :rolleyes: )

First time too, whereas yesterday it took me like 20 tries and nothing happened......i'm pissed and yet happy at the same time....so does that make me neutral....hmmmm

Well i'm off to go update the page....

(heh already back from my single class of the day! YAY! gotta love Fridays)

Oh, I'm quite looking forward to later today's 3rd degree sesssion hosted by NF.....

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Friday.....

Transfered all of the Wotist pictures from crappy geocities to my universities server.....lot of work, but it was worth it, i think. Returned a book I didn't need for school, got me $50 back...I swear the college makes more than half of it's money through that damn bookstore - $500 (+) for school books....robbery I say!

I don't know, I'm feeling kind of apathetic at the moment. I was happy before, but now I'm feeling kind of depressed. I guess I need to get out, but I feel trapped inside. I had fun with Nightfairy's 3rd degree, but now...I feel like i'm missing out on something. Stupid Friday night with nothing to do. :mad:

So here I am, stuck in my prison cell sized room, typing away at wotism, listening to my roommate play his favorite damn song again for like the bajillionth time :mad: chewing on a piece of plastic....

God I gotta get some connections...

:cool-but-not: :(

[LaughingTurtle]

Good day...woke up sometime after normal people usually get lunch. Checked out wotism, and low and behold, the mantel of Moderaship was placed upon my brow. I only hope that I can live up to the likes of Mike, Jacob and Jean, and follow their example.

Well after the initial shock wore off, I was still left with a happy giddy feeling. So with a flourish of my pretty golden cape, embroidered with a giant red "M" on it, I checked out the site in a new light.

After OD’ing on wotism I staggered out with my roommate into town to the nearest Wal-Mart MEGA-MEGA-SUPERSTORE….now this isn’t one of your pansy, regular sized Wal-Mart’s. This sucker is a college student magnet. It combines a regular Wal-Mart doped up on Steroids with a bonna-fide grocery store. So much stuff…so little time. Well we picked up the essentials….soda, pop-tarts, starbursts, minipizzas and stuff; along with some new games for the playstation – hey, what better way to cure boredom than kick someone’s ass in NFL Blitz 2003?

Once back, nothing much occurred til around 11:50 pm. Then some drunk ass-hole, (I assume) pulled the fire alarm, thus causing those god forsaken high pitched, shrilling alarms to go off – actually I didn’t even notice it, with the TV on and my stereo blaring out music :rolleyes: Well, stood around outside for 20mins, thinking up ways of how I was going to hurt the person that pulled the alarm when we were finally let back in.

Song o the moment – Offspring “Gone Away”

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Well now...time for a rant :D

I couldn't post yesterday (or do much of anything online for that matter) due to the dreaded.....UNIVERSITY BANDWIDTH NAZI's!!!

*Dum, dum, dummmm*

It appears that they have a program which monitors each and everyone's internet usage, so thus with me coming from home with my stone age 56K going to college, seeing a gift-o-the-gods T1 line...I just had to start downloading things....lots, and lots, and lots of things :D

Sadly, this nifty little program saw my downloading of numerous movies (and i mean numerous!) and multiple mp3's as a bad thing (i went over the preset limit) so it cut by access to non-Universtiy pages down from the regular 250-400kbps to around 50kbps :cry: :grumbles:

Ahh, but the crafty turtle has found a way around their evil communistic ways...I have turned to the wireless! Ah yes the savior to my plight. With the mere slotting in of a small poker card sized device I can access the wonders of the internet (wotism!) back nearly to the wonderful speeds of a T1. So here i sit, in one of the universities own buildings, waiting for my next class in 30 minutes or so...laughing at them in their face!

MUWAHAHAHAHA.....(again!) BUWAHAHAHAHAH!!

Can't keep a good turtle down ;)

(oh yeah....8am classes SUCK!!!)

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

*Rant Log 1974232*

(Begin Rant)

:furious: Must....resist....killing....roommate...

~insert Dr. Strangelove scene of evil hand~

No! Stop! He's just ignorant....he can't help it......AHH!

So far on the count, this must be the bajillionth (yes bajillionth!) time he has been playing these same songs. What the songs are, is inconsequential...he's just been playing them ever since school started...like over 3 weeks ago, and just doesn't stop.

Over, and over, and over, and over again...sometimes he sings to em, sometimes he sings and there's no music, sometimes he plays em loud, sometimes EXTREMELY LOUD!

Now i'm not one to get angry easily...most people who know me consider me quite the mellow fellow...but a man can only take so much. I've even resorted to using those stereo headphones that cancel out outside noise...I CAN STILL HEAR IT, it's so loud. (stupid small rooms)

Must...get.....roommate....wider...selection....of....music :rolleyes:

*End Rant*

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[LaughingTurtle]

Ah Night time....realm of the fairies....sprinkling their pixie dust like stars across a midnight sky. A special thanks goes out to that mistress of midnight, for providing support when it was needed.

A pretty quite and ho-hum day... Not in the mood for ranting (though god knows there's enough to rant about :rolleyes: ) so I've decided that I'll just throw in a little thought provoking quote:
Tom Clancy
The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense.


(oh and I couldn't resist putting this one up...you know who this is meant for ;) )

John Ruskin
When a man is wrapped up in himself he makes a pretty small package.

[LaughingTurtle]

Well, today was a semi somber sort of day. With the shadow of what has gone before hanging over the day, the morning began in what could only be described as a dreary way. While it is important to remember and not forget why things happened, life must go on, so thus the sun still rises in the east, you get wet when it rains, and professors continue to bore their students to sleep with their "fun" lectures.

I find myself now looking back on the days since I moved into my new life. Reflecting upon what was done, what wasn't done, and what may still happen.

And while I have gone through vast changes in these past couple of weeks....from excessive excitement to downright depression...I know now that there is no real "quick fix" or miracle cure to these things which I am experiencing. It is all just a part of life which everyone must go through. The bad part of it is...I still am only in the beginning of it all, destined to many more ups and downs before I reach a sort of equilibrium and find my niche in college life. Though there is a good side...it doesn't last forever.

While breaking out into a new environment occurs in all stages of life, I believe that this is going to be one of the biggest. All that I did before was always under the sheltered life of family. I have never moved outside of my home state, and have lived with nearly the same people all my life. Suddenly I am thrust into an entirely different world, where now it's up to me to make the decisions and where all the responsibilities and consequences of my actions fall squarely onto my shoulders. It truly is an eye-opening experience.

Now I think I’ve gotten enough philosophical for one night...time for bed. Damn tests tomorrow....


Oh PS - Once again it was time for laundry and as before where's there's a hot room full of clean and fresh laundry there's a room full of hot half naked chics. (Don’t ask me why, it just is - ok)

[LaughingTurtle]

Ahhh, there's no feeling like the feeling of triumph! Once again, Virginia Tech has descended upon the field of battle and returned ever victorious. (for those who have no clue as to what I am talking about….it’s FOOTBALL – USian Style) They freak’n trounced Marshall 47-21!

I feel that since our team won....the next day should be considered a quasi holiday with no classes....and while they’re at it could we also go to school for free? :rolleyes:

Well no riots this time....but still loads of trash talking, near fights. Hit up 7-11 and am currently sip’n my cherry slurpee.

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

~looks at watch...3:30am~

Tired....day started off as usual...went to bed at 3am, woke up for class at 7am....came back to dorm from class at 9ish and then went back to bed til 1 or so. Checked out wotism....headed over to bro's apartment and chilled there. Watched the movie "The Boondock Saints" - I highly recommend it. Hit up 7-11 for slurpees at 2am....saw all the wannabes, drunks, police all out in force. Watched some jay Leno....and now here I sit tired as shit.

Tomorrow looks like fun...gonna go on a mini trip with my bro and some friends to check out the New River Gourge....the longest single arch steel bridge in the world, also 876 ft up....gonna be cool.

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Another boring Sunday. Woke up around 12ish or so. Pretty much lazed around watching football and a movie or two. Well it's not like I didn't want to go out have do stuff....it was pouring almost all day.

Yesterday was a lot more fun. Had a mini road trip to West Virginia, and drove around some killer hills ala Rally Car :D Got some neato pictures...though have to wait for em to develop and sadly i have no way to scan them in here at college.....I ain't pay'n extra for no photo CD. Though I wonder if Kinkos does it for cheap....hmmm

*sigh*

Then again I don't want to go to class tomorrow. I should do some studying or something, but i mean.....ack. I think i'm gonna go write something for The Wheel of Wotism....gosh, wouldn't malcor be proud :p

[LaughingTurtle]

Hmmm been busy. Going to bed at 4 in the morning and having to wake up for class at 7 is definitely not my idea of fun...hell waking up anytime before noon is not my idea of fun :D

Well golly gosh, and golly gee....I sure did have a fun time updating the wotists picture page. :rolleyes: Good part - Got cool new pics of Anita and Adam....Bad part - stupid index file(the backbone of the site) got corrupted while updating somehow. I had to go back and use one of my saved index pages (which was kinda old) and update it....*sigh* long and tedious work :grumbles:

Hmmm, been finding many new avays for people...I just hope that it doesn't turn out as adam or arch (mind getting fuzzy) said in that the almost all the people in the war will have avays by me...*double sigh*

*triple sigh* Got loads of work to do, and heaviest class load tomorrow.... :cry:

Well back to chat

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Zombified Turtle today. Woke up...ahhhhh.....brain......classs......eattt. (woke up 7, came back 9)

Sleep.......

woke up...ahhhhh.....more brain....classss....eattt (woke up 11:30, class started 11:15, whoops)

back now 12:30. Eatting brain...er pizza...mmmmm

Frigg'n 2 more classes and ones a lab and the other's calculus :mad: Don't know if there's enough brains out there to support me...brain........BRAIN......AHHHHH

[LaughingTurtle]

Ugh, starting to feel sick here....me thinks it's from the lack of sleep, lowering my immune system. Head hurts, runny nose, and loads of work still left to do... :dozey:

blah :(

[LaughingTurtle]

Hmmm kinda unnoteworthy day. :(

Woke up....listened to Professor Gobbly Glook (me and friends have thus deemed our redneck southern business teacher) bs all class....took a quiz and then left for English. Have to watch "The Matrix" and write a 5 page essay on it's use of suspense. Anh.

Felt really bad all day, headaches, runny nose, etc. Tried to nap, but felt to sick to sleep :rolleyes: Tried doing homework, but only finished my pysc. essay on Olfaction....

Sorry bout the short posts lately, but i'm just not feeling up to par.

:(

EDIT: BUT I almost forgot....a ray of sunshine on today's cloudy day...my bro (real life actual brother) finally checked out what I've been so crazy about, and registered here at wotism! Heh, he goes by King_Albert, so if yah see him on the board or in chat, make him feel at home. Cause if yah don't...there'll be some mad smiting going on, (insert men's warehouse dude) "I Guarantee!"

[LaughingTurtle]

Feel a little bit better today...not by much though :(

Had to wake up at 7am to go turn in my geology essay. Came back from class, went to sleep....woke up, and had lunch, went back to sleep....woke up, went and saw the ballistic movie with antonio banderas and lucy lu - typical summer action movie.

I think i'm coughing up a lung, but as the wise one Mike told me "Don't whine, you do have another one." :rolleyes:

So check'n out the forums and about to go back to sleepy land where all the chics dig the turtle :cool:

Peace.

[LaughingTurtle]

WOWE what an inactive day I've had. Then again, sickness usually limits what you feel like doing. Slept in as usual, chill'n in the room til the Tech game came on. Was pleasently rewarded with a Tech victory over Texas A&M (stupid aggies :p ) of 13-3. The hokies now advanced to 4 and 0.

Anyway, on the subject of school...any who either aren't in college yet, never went, or you can barely remember what happened for uh...certain reasons...let me state that it's all a conspiracy! Three exams, two essays, all occuring within 2 days...it's pure evil i tells yah. >Austin Powers< Eeeeeeeeeeevil!

Good god! I really gots to get me some nyquil or something. I think that other lung is about to come out...don't know what I'll do then. :rolleyes:

Well back to writing my paper on The Matrix's use of long range and short range suspense.

[LaughingTurtle]

Half a league, half a league,
Half a league onward,
In the valley of Death
Rode the brave turtle
"Forward, the Laughing Turtle!
"Charge for the guns!" he said:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the single turtle.

"Forward, the Laughing Turtle!"
Was there a turtle dismay'd?
Not tho' he knew
Someone had blunder'd:
Their's not to make reply,
Their's not to reason why,
Their's but to do and die:
Into the valley of Death
Rode the single turtle

Exams to right of him,
Exams to left of him,
Exams in front of him
Volley'd and thunder'd;
Storm'd at with shot and shell,
Boldly he rode and well,
Into the jaws of Death,
Into the mouth of Hell
Rode the single turtle.

Flash'd his sabres bare,
Flash'd he turn'd in air,
Sabring the tests there,
Charging the school, while
All the world wonder'd:
Plunged in the pot-smoke
Right thro' the line they broke;
Calculus and Psychology,
Reel'd from the sabre stroke
Shatter'd and sunder'd.
Then they rode back, but not
Not the single turtle.

Exams to right of him,
Exams to left of him,
Exams behind him
Volley'd and thunder'd;
Storm'd at with shot and shell,
While horse and hero fell,
They that had fought so well
Came thro' the jaws of Death
Back from the mouth of Hell,
All that was left of him,
Left of single turtle.

When can his glory fade?
O the wild charge he made!
All the world wondered.
Honor the charge he made,
Honor the Laughing Turtle,
Noble single turtle.

:D :cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Night time is a very bad time for me. It seems as if my mood goes down with the setting of the sun. It’s pretty dark out right now and I’m feeling quite apathetic. Some may say that it’s just all the new experiences I’ve been experiencing lately in such a short time being a freshman in college, but I’m not sure. I’m no shrink; I’m only taking Psychology 1. Though I do know that it’s not the work, the stupid exams and papers aren’t helping, but they are not what are causing this. Exams, homework, shit like that are annoyances, but they’re just that, annoyances. They add to the pile, they’re not the root of the cause.

I think one of my major problems is a lacking personal social life. I have lots of friends, and I get out, but what I don’t have is a close relationship with the opposite sex. I see so many of my friends hanging out with their girlfriends and it’s depressing. I hate being an introvert. I can’t just go out and hook up with a girl. I have to get to know someone…and the problem is, all the girls that I know all have boyfriends or are just “friends.”

Heh, college is almost torturous, in that there are so many beautiful women around, but I’m too shy to make the first move. I don’t drink (or at least yet) so I can’t choose that avenue to loosen up. I’m definitely no Fabio, hell I’m not even amateur soap opera worthy, but I’m not hideous. Well I hope they don’t think I’m hideous……. fah.

It’s kind of funny, all the girls I know always ask me, or wonder why I don’t have a girlfriend. *sigh* (too bad as I said - most of em already have boyfriends and that the others are strictly “friends”) I just can’t talk to woman that I don’t know.

Damn this sounds way to much like a sob story….well I guess it is….sue me.

Another thing…(out of the blue) I’m kind of getting tired of wotism. Nothing against it or anything but the best way I can think of explaining it is a junkie OD’ing. I’m just losing interest for some reason. I’m still gonna be here (for avatar wars and The Wheel of Wotism) but I think I’m going to tone things down a bit, and see if that works. I probably won’t be gone for long with those damn withdrawal pains, but who knows. I’m hoping for the best.

[LaughingTurtle]

Talk about kicking you when you’re down. I finish the last post and just received a new email.

At 5:30pm today, a man who I have known for over 13 years and who I considered a 3rd grandfather passed away. He was one of the greatest men I have ever personally known. I grew up knowing him and now I feel a great sorrow as the world has lost a true prize. When people would get together he was known as “The Godfather.”

He lived to the age of 92, something which even today isn’t exactly common. His mind was as always as sharp as a tack and I will forever remember all the wonderful stories and jokes he told me.

Life goes on, but that doesn’t mean I have to like it.

[LaughingTurtle]

Feeling better now, mostly due to the kind words and sympathies expressed by wonderful and careing people, many of whom were wotists. I thank you all for giving me support during this rough time. It nearly brings a tear to this manly wotist's eye to see how much of a community we all really are.

All I can say that is I feel really strange now. I believe that the distance between myself and what happened has created a sort of buffer to the experience. While the first night was quiet rough, I feel almost normal now. The only problem is, is that when I return to home, I know that the feelings will come back again.

Maybe in another life
I could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair


And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away


Leaving flowers on your grave
Show that I still care
But black roses and Hail Mary's
Can't bring back what's taken from me
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would


And it feels
And it feels like
Heaven's so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The world is so cold
Now that you've gone away
-Offspring "Gone Away"

Frank Wright (1910-2002)
You will be missed

(This I can only hope will be my last sad post)

[LaughingTurtle]

I am happy to report that I am feeling at 100%. Mr. Wrights funeral was today, and from what I was told, it was beautiful and befitting of such a man.

Today started out half over as i got up at around 1-2ish. I didn't go to bed the last night til around 5am. Don't ask why, I watched the movie Se7en, then went to wotism to chat and then watched Pulp Fiction. I was so bored. Most of all my friends had left to go back home for my high school's homecoming. Fah.

Anyway, woke up, saw the hokies were on TV playing Western Michigan. They summarily whooped up on them 30 to nothing. The hokies advance to 5 and 0 baby! After that, I basically chilled around the dorm, looking up wotism, and burning movies and stuff. Around 8pm I headed out with two of my remaining friends and got pizza then went over and played some pool.

It was great! I actually beat my one friend twice who is really good at pool - either that or i just suck :rolleyes: This is the same friend who's into punk and rides the unicycle :D Though he did when the last game. Well after that it was midnight so we headed out for some ice cream. Now back here I'm once again at wotism. Addiction is a very ugly thing....I wonder if they have a wotists anonymous group or something ;)

LT
:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Wee, what a night last night. After hitting up wotism, my unicycle friend came by again and we were both bored so we decided to have some fun, stair style. First we started on the bottom of the first floor and climbed up seven floors (14 flights) without actually ever touching the stairs once - as in only using the railing - crazy hiliraous stuff!

Then we headed over to the campus colisum...were my friend climbed up on top of the huge building. Now he didn't pull a spiderman, but there are like these arch thingies that go up the side of the building and he climbed those.

Well we came back to the dorm and loads of peeps from our floor were out and talking and such. Eatting cake, and drinking "lemonade" :rolleyes: Well, me, my friend and this other guy from our floor decided to go back to this girl's room. This is about 2ish or so. We chill'n at their place til 5am. Once we finished me and my friend (the other guy was passed out in the girls room in a chair :D ) did some mad rollar blading/mountain biking on campus. Really cool when you're the only ones out and about.

Got back 7ish, showered, slept, woke up at 1:30.

Onto football watching, and much homework :( Damn psyc exam tomorrow....

[LaughingTurtle]

Never again. Never, never, never again in my entire life if i can so help it. Never again will I allow myself to let myself be scheduled with early morning classes. Having to get up in the weeee hours of the morning, to truck all the way across campus (my dorm is at the one far end, most of the building where my classes are, are at the other) in the biting cold of the morning to listen to some monotone voiced professor lecture about something which my brain can't even comprehend this early is really a bitch.

Some may say, at least it's not work - Well it is work! It a different sort of way. Bottom line, either school or work, don't wanna do it, see it, even think about it until the sun is coming back down again.

Wotism + Early mornings != goodness

Wotism chat, so good and addicting keeps you up too late, and thus when you must wake up early (later that same day) you be dragging as hell. I just read Mike's rant about insomnia and I can say - I feel your pain.

[LaughingTurtle]

DAMNATION!!!!! :furious: :furious: :furious:

I am throughly pissed off. 3 AM. in the fucking morning, just about asleep, and some asshole goes and pulls the fire alarm. It in itself it not that bad....I have to get up at 7 am for class later today, but I'm cool. Just an annoyance. After 10 mins of waiting around outside in the cold wee hours of the morning, we're finally let back in.

I'm really tired, jump back in bed, all's fine again. Just nodding off to sleep again and barely 20 fucking minutes later it's pulled again. SHIT! Thus the routine of marching outside and waiting around for now 10-15min. is repeated.

Now it's 3:45, and I know i'm not going to get any sleep tonight. I haven't been getting much sleep lately, so this isn't helping matters at all. I feel sorry for the people that are going to have to deal with me later today....I'm gonna be quite grouchy :grumbles:

And I just know it was some frat asshole too. Prolly for one of their stupid assignments as pledges....pull the fire alarm three times, etc.....FUCK FRATS!

:mad:

[LaughingTurtle]

Still feeling quite sleep deprived...so much so that I er, skipped my morning ACIS class. *yawn*

At least tomorrow's Friday....

~uses what little mental powers he has left to convience Wendy to post in The Wheel of Wotism~

~promptly falls unconcious from effort~

zzz...zzz...zzz...

[LaughingTurtle]

Well, today wasn't too bad. Woke up at 7am for class, came back at 9 and then went back to sleep til 1pm :D

Woke up, went out with friends and played racquetball for the first time in my life. My ass was promptly kicked, but I had loads of fun while it happened! Came back, chilled at wotism then went out with my bro. Back at 2am, now back at wotism but all's quiet.....hmmmm

Fah.

The 'rents visit tomorr-er later today :rolleyes: Bring'n home baked chocolate cookies and brownies - mmmmmmmmm :)

Peace

[LaughingTurtle]

The parents visited.....came bearing many gifts...mmmm fooooood.

Went out shop'n and loaded up on everything. I'm happy. Life is... livable.

That brings me to tonight. Went out at midnight with unicycle friend (though he was on his roller blades tonight and me on my mountain bike) We cruised around campus, went up main street and thought..."My I am hungry." So we decided to hit up Wendys....Eat great, even late - BULLSHIT!

We rolled up to Wendy's, but the inside was closed....so we rolled into the drive through only to find out that they don't serve people on bikes or rollerblades. INSOLENCE! This is discrimination against those vehicularly challenged. Thus those in the lower income status, namely college students cannot eat great, even late The rich car owning bastards can. :D

Thoroughly disgusted we rolled on to a nearby McDonalds where you could go inside. I tried out the semi new "Triple Thick Milkshake" but discovered that it was nothing different than the normal milkshake only $ more expensive. Grrrr

Finished with our meal we headed back out and tried our hand at stair jumping/bouncing. After a few hours I think I might have done some permanent damage to my shocks....but nothing nearly as bad as unicycle friend. We were going down 7 or so rows of stairs, each 8 or so steps and he made it all the way to the last but wiped out on the landing. Hmm, don't think it would constitute road rash....so let's just call it sidewalk rash.

:cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Man....for a second there I though monday was gonna be just another boring day. Well that moment of naivety was quickly shattered with an IM from my punk-rock unicycle friend. (this is roughly 7pm)

"I hope you have nothing going on tonight."
"Umm, not really." (Was only talking to malcor)
"Come to a show with me."
(insert a few sentences on price/bands/location)
"k"
"coo"

What insued was a long walk down to main street and then another long walk down main street to this little house. Going around to the back we (me, my unicycle friend, and my roommate) see a group of people standing around a door to the basement of this house. Well, after paying the cover charge of only $3, we desend into the depths of this dark basement.

The first band turned out to be pretty good - Stations (punk) I believe they were quasi local. Even got their CD for free.
The next couple of bands were popy and pretty crapy IMO
About 3 hours later the last band was up, Against Me (another punk band) and they were actually quite good, they were from Florida.

Not too bad for a Monday.

[LaughingTurtle]

No offense to any wotists but....smokers suck. I don't mind when yer outside smoking or anywhere out in the open, but in small confined spaces, or living areas....it really pisses me off. Hmm, let's take dorms for instance, the people next door smoke (pot as well), and they do it all the time. I don't mind casual usage, but when my throat is raw and sore from their damn smoke, it tends to piss me off.

Now the genius's from the resident hall association (dudes that run the dorms) last year had a vote and said that students may smoke in their rooms but not in the hallways....now does anyone besides me see the intelligence in this? Smoke does not just say in one place....it permeates. Thus when someone smokes in the room next door, everyone on the entire hall can smell it. :grumbles:

On a happier note, malcor finally posted in TWOW - WEEE! :D Also, been working on some cool stuff that's turning out pretty good.

Well I'm off...have a nasty headache from the smelling smoke all day long.

Now for you moment of zen: Laughing Turtle in German is "Lachende Schildkröte"

[LaughingTurtle]

Hmmm, yeah, this really has turned out to be a ranting thread, but then again, that's what it's there for i guess.

Though this was actually more funny than annoying...a pipe burst in my dorm and thus everyone lost water pressure and the the volleyball court ouside was flooded for a while. No drinking fountains, no showers, no flushing toilets...fun, fun. Thankfully I had taken my shower about an hour eariler, but there were many who were not as fortunate. It was great watching some people walk arcoss campus to another dorm with water pressure with only a robe or towel on. :D

Though what does suck is that now i don't know if i'm gonna do laundry....not having water for a while really crowded up the room so i might do it. Hmmm....

On a last note on ranting.......I'm kinda pissed about the whole wotist picture thing. I'm was working with a FREE host for the first part, and people expect it to be as awesome and as great as wotism.net. The password was limited to what the pages file name was, thus if i changed the password from the "really easy one" i would have had to change the file name and thus any thing that used it's name to link would also have to be changed. Baically a whole lot of fuss and work for a better password. So for everyone who bitched about the easy password :p @ u

I've locked down the pics site for now, until I can decide what to do about the password situation...

[LaughingTurtle]

Long day, tired, yet cheerful. Had to wake up at 7 to go turn in my essay for geology then go to lectures for psyc, ugh. Later was Calculus were I recieved a new project - Yippee! :grumbles: And tomorrow I have a project (which i haven't done yet) due and quiz in my business class.

Did laundry today, and poped by in wotism a lot. I waiting in dire anticipation with Mike working on a tenitive solution to the Wotist Picture Page debacle. The first attempt ran into troubles, but it's on top of his to do list to fix! :)

Lastly, after looking at my day, it seem pretty average, if not a downer, so why is LT so happy? One word - Vivacia! Yes, ladies and gentlemen, all it takes is for one's Sedai to hug and snoogle with and all the world's troubles just seem to melt away....

:D :cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Woke up....twas 7am and I had class.....lifted arm out from beneath the covers and shivered....hell no was dis turtle getting out that early to go to a geology class that was going to take place OUTSIDE! Yes the prof. in all his wisdom and glory wanted to have the class outside for a lecture on contruction and stuff. Well, I said "screw that" and slept in, eventually getting the notes from one of my friends.

Heh, it was funny, MTV came to Virginia Tech today (and tomorrow) to do some filming for their shows during our homecoming - One of their shows is where people do insane things for cold hard cash. People were eatting cow brains, and shaving heads all for the glory to be on TV and get money. I might be on TV in that they filmed the Pep Rally (DAMN those Tech dancers are hot! :D ) so watch MTV on Oct 26th I think, whatever next Saturday is, at around 1pm EST - You might see LaughingTurtle!

As usual, chill'd at my bro's apartment, and now cruising wotism. Gonna post in TWOW soon.... Also, can't wait for the game, tickets, football, homecoming...what more could a turtle ask for....well besides THAT! ;) hmmmm I wonder what Viv is doing tomorrow...... :cool:

[LaughingTurtle]

Jeez i seem to always start my posts with what time i wake up...well i guess it is what starts the day :rolleyes:

To continue in the tradition I woke up at 9:00am and my Psyc class starts at 9:05am :eek: Good thing for bikes, I just threw on the closest clothes and jumped on my bike and pedeled like mad and made it to class in time for the quiz. Though sucks for me in that it was rainy and thus got a wet ass from the bike seat. :grumbles:

Usual day, classes, lectures, exam in calculus - FAH! :p

Had a race (computer game NASCAR 2002) i was winning in 2nd place but then some asshole had to go and wreck so we had to go to caution and then some other asshole cut me off thus putting me like in 6th where i stayed til the end of the race - ARRRGH stupid ass drivers that don't know how to drive!!

Well anyway, Viv is on now, much smiles and hugs make LT a happy warder turtle. Now i'm trying to put in my course request for my spring semester courses and so is the rest of the university, thus the server is lagg'n like a biaotch, and it's taking forever to get through. :mad:

Must think about viv......damn "cannot find server errors"....VIVACIA!.....stupid slow loading.....snoogling!.....ahhhhh

:dozey:

[LaughingTurtle]

I'm pissed...I don't know entirely why (a lot of little things) and that only makes it worse. I finally finished the pics page thing and I should be happy, but I'm not, everything seems somehow hollow... My grandfather had to be hospitalized again today because of his low white blood count and weakness due to the fucking chemo, my own health is suffering because of the fucking smokers next door, and the goddamn sniper is continuing to kill people in and around my hometown area, I just don't know, feeling angry all of a sudden and it worries me.

[LaughingTurtle]

A court is in session A verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today, just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale the cage made of steel
Screams fill the room alone I drop and kneel
Silence now the sound my breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around my face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence expecting no return
Here there is no penance my skin begins to burn



So I held my head up high hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels there selfish pride
We're all held captive out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
I hear a thunder in the distance see a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given on that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness only he holds the key
A light to free me from my burden and grant me life eternally
Should have been dead on a Sunday morning banging my head
No time for mourning ain't got no time


I cry out to God seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

[LaughingTurtle]

Heh, I sound just like arch....scary ain't it ;)

Woke up at 7am ugh, to go take a Geology exam - ~shudders~ me thinks I should have skipped wotism last night and studied more....damn you addiction! Oh well....might have to start taking some of my own wotism drugs to keep the addiction at bay long enough to study for my psyc exam and my ACIS (business class) exams this coming week.

Well, once I finished the exam I came back and went back to sleep til 1pm. Woke up, hit up wotism, sadly it's been raining all day long :( Tried doing homework when has been mounting and seems insirmountable....but well.....meh.

Headed over to my bro's at 7, chill'd and had pizza and of course had our traditional 2am slurpee run. Heh, lemme tell you, driving on wet grass is fun shit....we will not go into that for obvious reason....

Well I got tickets for Tech's game tomorrow against Temple, should be good, but we're definitely favored to win, something which I have no problem with.

(and arch no problem about bugging me for TWOW, cause now i get to bug you to do it.....AND QUIRKY!!!!!!!!!)

:D

(PPS Talked to Viv again tonight....ahhh :) :) :) .... looks like she might post more on the message board - YAY! And I might be getting that new pet name ;) )

[LaughingTurtle]

*cough* *cough* *hack* *hack*

Can't....breath....damn smokers.....AGAIN!

FAH! Well my weekend wasn't too bad, went to the game as i said, boy did we suck out there...we still won 20-10 (8-0 baby!) , but it sure wasn't pretty. With playing like that my hopes of beating Miami feel just a little more.

Anyway, today I saw Jackass the movie...was worth it at matinee price, it had some really good laughs in it, but it was also disturbing and gross in spots. I mean...paper cuts on the spaces between your fingers, toes, and on your lips??? ~shudders~ Plus launching fireworks from your ass...~shakes head~ Oh well...

Talked with Magatsu today...been long, long time. Me and him were newbies here and go way back. Good times. Lost in WTP, but came real close so I'm happy with that. Gonna do a special project with TWOW, but with my current amount of free time i don't know when I'll ever get around to it *sigh*

Avatar picture for this week is Alexander Anderson and if anyone has seen the anime Hellsing they'll know what I'm talking about. He's a kickass priest who goes around killing undead and vampires. I don't know, he really cool and i resemble him in a way (haircut/glasses/5 o'clock shadow/etc). I just like it...~nods~

heh, I've really gotten into working on my buddy profile web page...prolly cause i stopped working on my normal webpage so the inspiration just kinda transfered over. If anyone is bored and wants to check it out (and doesn't have aim) you can go HERE!!!!!!! (http://www.geocities.com/laughingturtlelt/buddyinfo.html) to check it out.

peace!

[LaughingTurtle]

meh, anh, fah!

Don't feel like going over yesterday...hmmm summed up: school, wotism, eating, misc shit, sleep.

Well....still working on TWOW with arch and malcor....looks like things are going to be heating up very soon with eco terrorist battles, vampire commanders, reborn enemies, the war over caemlyn and the fate of the entire universe as we know it, hanging in the balance...so stay tuned!

Just got back from taking my business class - ACIS (accounting Info Systems) Exam....biggest one before the final and i think i may have screwed myself....big time. I'll just have to wait to find out.... :(

Anywho....laundry day today....runn'n out of clothes, time to see hot chics in their shorty, shorts, in the laundry room...do dah, do dah day!

[LaughingTurtle]

Well did laundry...not too many hot chics though :( just enough to make laundry bareable.

Ugh, got Pyschology exam tomor-er later today...studied...yet still - FAH!

Heh, my buddy info page (for my AIM screenname) became so popular and got so mnay hits that it exceeded it's alloted bandwidth twice already. So I moved it from shity geocities to my university space. No pop ups and hopefully more bandwidth. Me thinks what pushed it over the limit was my "Vote for Pettit Page" One of my friends is going to run for office when he gets older and I came up with his current campagin solgan "A vote for Pettit is a vote for BOOBIES!" LOL, check it out HERE!!!!! (http://filebox.vt.edu/users/mimille2/webpage/buddyinfo.html) if you want to see what i'm talking about ;) AHHHH more hits....stay away bandwidth police...eat more doughnuts!

[LaughingTurtle]

What a day...after waking I had to take my psychology exam...~shudder~ Though I did find out how I did on my ACIS exam that I oh so dreaded. I PASSED!!! not pretty (hell the damn thing was beaten with an ugly stick) but I still passed - YAY!! :D

The rest of the day was mmm ok.... STOP FAHKING SMOKING YOU ARSEHOLES!!! :mad: Did an updated summary up for TWOW, and also finished the new advertisment for it - it's too bad I can't put up the regular size one...it's 2.4 MB though :rolleyes: I had to trim, crop, and edit it a lot to get it under 102kb. :dozey:

Did DnD with the group again...i wasn't too into it tonight cause i was working on the animation and a bunch of other stuff - all at the same time. So sorry guys, but it was a little slow anyway due to the fact that we're all still getting used to the idea of roleplaying online.

Well tonight is Halloween night and me without anything to do...as usual. Sometimes not drinking can suck. Well when one of my good friends from High School (who now goes to West Virigina Uni.) comes to Tech for the football game in a few weeks, she say's that it is her mission to get me blitzed and make sure that i have a good time ~wink, wink~, no if, and, or, buts about it :D ~crosses fingers~

Oh yeah, that reminds me....NF you're so melodramatic...

Well once again for your viewing pleasure is the new TWOW advertisement!

[LaughingTurtle]

Was angry...got better....got angry again...cooled down...now i'm just fucking livid.

If you actually want to see my rant...go here4RANT (http://filebox.vt.edu/users/mimille2/webpage/rant.html) I purposely didn't put it here cause if you don't want to see a bunch of sentences about why i hate this and why this sucks...don't click the link.

Don't ask about the pics page, it will be up when it's up.

Hopefully I'll feel better after some sleep.

[LaughingTurtle]

GAH! This just isn't my week or something. As soon as I patch things up with Buck and everything starts to seem on the upside, I get beaten down again. ARGH!

Ok...for openers.....dorm suck ass due to fire alarms....Some moronic idiot, or drunk likes to pull the alarm to get his/her shits n' giggles. Now I really don't mind most of the time....sure it's an annoyance and the things are louder than hell, but you come to expect that in dorms. What really gets me is when they do it during the week, you have an 8am class the next day or it's winter outside. Well today...it was in the 30's for temperature and raining outside. Low and behold the alarm was pulled - freezing wet fun!

Next as I'm coming back from class I get pulled over by a cop...ON MY BICYCLE!! We have this massive drill field in the middle of our campus, and the street encircling it is only one way for cars. Since I knew bikes weren't allowed on the sidewalks I ride on the side of the street. Well Mr. Piggy informed me that since cars only go one way, so must I. Now in the long run I see the merit and intelligence in that. But what gets me is that I was only going less than 20 ft from where i entered the street from the drill field, to where i was going to get off. He saw me, and yet still thought I should go like 2000ft around the other direction (the drill field is huge i'll post a satellite photo soon) instead of 20ft my way. Riiiiight.

FAH! I need a woman and something to drink. Well at least a hug and something caffeinated

[LaughingTurtle]

Part of the Campus (Well Main section...couldn't fit everything with the size limit on attachments)

[LaughingTurtle]

Blue is the cop's way, red is mine. Harumpf!

[LaughingTurtle]

Well now...I've had sort of an eye opener. While chatting it up with fellow wotists over MSN....Chat had been forsaken after hanging up it's no fairys of the night sign, I saw that I had recieved an email from my psyc department. "Grades have been posted for Exam 2" I was like, "cool." So I surfed over and to my dismay I just barely passed the exam. Now this isn't bad in itself, but coupled with my previous exam....I'm pretty much failing psyc. Not a comforting thought. In addition, my latest exam from geology wasn't so hot either, and my business class is disheartening. Even though I'm doing very well in Honors English, Calculus, and my first geology test was quite good, the failing parts really depressed me so I had to leave the chat lest my depression spread amongst friends.

Damnit, why is it so true what is said that the happy moments in life are most fleeting and the sad moments seem like forever.

[LaughingTurtle]

~is waiting for the week from hell to end~

~taps foot impaitently~

Can't wait for Thanksgiving to come as well, so that I can finally visit home for the first time in months. Friends, family, home cooking....getting down just thinking about it. FAH!

Damn 9pg papers....grr

~Goes off to write some more TWOW (screw you paper!)~

[LaughingTurtle]

More FAH!

Dumbasses vandalizing our shower room....for the SECOND TIME! Now we (every resident) has to pay for the damages...grr :grumbles:

Plus, today I sat in front of the TV for 4 hours as VA TECH took on Syracuse and sadly lost in TRIPLE overtime 50-42 Needless to say I nearly cried and had a heart attack at the same time. :cry: :grumbles:

~still gotta work on that 9 page short story for English...on page 5~

~Goes off to write some more TWOW (is addicited, once again - screw you paper :p ) ~

[LaughingTurtle]

Well, finished 9 page short story, recieved new assignment for a 6 page research paper ARRRRGH! :mad:

I wanna write TWOW, but it's kind of a big event...Duncan's confrontation with Malcor...and well...I don't know how I should go about writing it. *sigh*

Hah! did WTP already, ~pats self on back~

Friend from home is coming down to visit this weekend...can't wait for Saturday to come.

[LaughingTurtle]

Coolness...Been working hard on making a website...tough going but it's bearing fruit...sorta :rolleyes:

My friend from back home came down to visit me today....he arrived 2am, and we caught up with each other. Was definitely good to see him. After much sleepage I gave him the royal tour of the campus and gave him an inferiority complex (he goes to a different University that is much smaller than TECH) hehehehe

Sad to see him go, and a bunch of work to do for school and studying so I don't fail two classes :(

fah

[LaughingTurtle]

Man...I was really happy yesterday, I dunno really why.
Maybe it was just all the women i was talking to yesterday - hehe, but i felt good. Also, Thanksgiving break is coming even closer....FIRST TIME HOME IN MANY A MONTH!! MMM homecooking, visiting with friends and family...and no school for a week.

Sadly...today I have to first get through my Calculus exam and my geology lab final...FAH! :mad: Which I should be studing for now, but decided to do the Wotist Picture page update that has been sitting around. That and I need to do TWOW... *sigh* ~wants to add 3 more hours to the day, that and distroy all timezones for MIKE ;) ~

Watched Transformers the Movie yesterday...always brings a tear to my eye when Optimus dies.... :cry: Gotta go find G.I. Joe the Movie next...in a nostalgic mood i guess

[LaughingTurtle]

Gah...I hate it how a few bad things can ruin such a good mood. My great happyness was quashed today as I watched my team lose once again for the third straight time.

Though...what really has me bummed is that I learned that my parents want me to for the beginning of my Thanksgiving break, leave to go visit my sick Grandfather - he has cancer. I just hope things are ok...

[LaughingTurtle]

Back once again...after a week sojurn to home for the holidays. No internet, no wotism for a week...felt good.

Though, the break wasn't as good as I had hoped it would be. Thing started out bad though they did eventually get a bit better before i had to come back. Total of 30 hours of driving...ugly, and some of it was spent in a pick up trucks third seat in the back....major cramping going on. I did head up to Michigan and visit my grandparents. It was great to see them, even if for just one day but it was disheartening in the fact that was in all reality the last time that I would see my grandfather alive with his condition worsening.

Got back and for a few days right before turkey day I was really depressed. I was among family yet felt so distant. Not alone, yet incomplete. Ironic for the holidays. Dunno what did it but come Thanksgiving I shook it and enjohed my remaining day.

Dorms didn't open til today, so I crashed at my bro's apartment for the night on the floor. Got in today, went to football game, froze, happy that team won, went out for big steak dinner...catching up on wotism.

Not too bad, not too good, the story of my life it seems at sometimes.

[LaughingTurtle]

:p to everyone who's talked about it...payback time. Enough said.

[LaughingTurtle]

must.....do.....TWOW.....bored....but.....writers....block....ahhhh

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[LaughingTurtle]

The Pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity,

The Optimist the opportunity in every difficulty.

[LaughingTurtle]

Angry, depressed, confused, and yet still have a funny pic...

[LaughingTurtle]

I only see myself reflected in your eyes
so all that I believe I am essentially are lies
and everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was
died with your belief in me so who the hell am I?

I don't know if I'm real without you
what is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
HOW CAN I EXIST WITHOUT YOU?

I'm wandering 'round confused
wondering why i try
the more that you deny my pain
the more it intensifies...
I pray for someone to ache for me the way I ache for you...
if you ignore that I'm alive
I've nothing to cling to

I don't know if I'm real without you
what is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
HOW CAN I EXIST WITHOUT YOU?

I stare into this mirror
so tired of this life
if only you would speak to me or cared if i'm alive
once i swore i would die for you
but i never meant like this

I don't know if I'm real without you
what is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
HOW CAN I EXIST WITHOUT YOU?

-Stabbing Westward
"Shame"

[LaughingTurtle]

Stupid insomnia...sleep deprivation...i want to sleep...i'm frigg'n dead tired...but can't seem to ever get enough sleep..only getting a little....gah...so much to do...never enough time....damn school with it's "lets cram as much shit as we can into last week" finals....research papers...studying....exams....no sleep....work....tired.....smokers at it again....getting sick from sick roommate....starting to cough lung up....evilness....

Saving grace - hugs from vivacious Viv, and the foxy fairy

[LaughingTurtle]

I know your life is empty
And you hate to face this world alone
So you're searching for an angel
Someone who can make you whole
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

I know that you've been damaged
Your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
So just save yourself

Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me
Please don't take pity on me

My life has been a nightmare
My soul is fractured to the bone
And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone
I think I'd rather be alone

You can not save me
You can't even save yourself
I can not save you
I can't even save myself
Save yourself
So just save yourself

-StabbingWestard
"save yourself"

[LaughingTurtle]

wasted thoughts of you
desperate prayers to you
give me back my mind
I'm empty inside

it's so wrong that I need you
it's so wrong that I need abuse
it's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

what have I become?
everything's undone
a candle burns here in your honor
my soul, a shrine i've built for you
there's nothing left inside me
nothing left inside but you

it's so wrong that I need you
it's so wrong that I need abuse
it's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

can't seem to pretend
this night needs to end
I can't fill this hole
you are all i know

it's so wrong that I need you
it's so wrong that I need abuse
it's so wrong that I need you
so wrong that I'm scared I'll die alone

- Stabbing Westward
"So Wrong"

[LaughingTurtle]

~hasn't gone to sleep yet~

~it's 5:24AM~

~is attempting to stay up for his exam at 7:45 cause he's studying like a bitch cause the class is extremely hard and the exam....pure evilness~

~is slowly going insane...yet some say I already am~

~needs sleep, yet needs to pass class more~

~damnation~

General Picket why do you not tend to your divison?

General Lee Sir,...I...have no division.

Give em the cold steel boys!

[LaughingTurtle]

Word to the wise...never, ever, ever, pull an all nighter for exams.

I have never felt so wasted in my entire life. Ok finals week, got 6 exams of pure unadulterated hell, with the majority of them either making or breaking my grade (if i pass the course or not). Well, my english, and geology exams were easy and little studing required.....but my ACIS class, Accounting Info systems to all you none business majors...that my friends is the bitch class. (or known as the "weeder" class which weeds out those who don't want to be in the major or not) Now the teacher isn't bad on the inside, he tries to be nice but he can't teach worth shit and thus it's up to the students to teach themselves. Well...knowing that the exam would be almost worse than dropping soap in a prison shower room, I pulled an all nighter studing to the max...

Took the exam at 7:45am...prolly did ok...went to sleep when i got back 9ish. Woke up at 5pm...grabed a quick dinner, back to sleep. Woke up at 9am, left to take my calculus exam which i had not studied for...big mistake...oy. The worst part was that while i slept a lot it wasn't the good REM sleep, it was the tossing and turning dead tired yet can't fall alseep limbo. Added to the fact i had a splitting headache from sleep depravation. :(

Now i'm back from getting raped by calculus and I come visit wotism to find it a war zone... *sigh*
Now my last exam is in five hours and i need to study for it, and I still feel miserable...*double sigh*

[LaughingTurtle]

You remind me of a man...
What man?
The man with the power.
What power?
The power of voodoo.
Voodoo?
You do!
I do what?
You remind me of a man...

[LaughingTurtle]

Well I'm back at school again. Was good to be home, but home can have it's ups and downsl. Home cooking, major sleepage, and chill'n with friends is great, but parents nagging about job searching, sick grandfather, and plain ol holiday burnout. Hopefully this semester will be better than the last. Not that the last one was bad....but always holding out for better.

Happy to be back on a T1....damn dial up. Can finally work on Avatar Wars, the Wotist Pic page and post on TWOW again with regularity. Lastly, I hope to restore chat to it's former glory. No longer shall it remain empty or one soul talking to themselves.

The line between hobby and obession blurs even further :D

[LaughingTurtle]

I've spent
My life
Running from the emptiness
That haunts me
And I've felt
My whole life
Trying to fuck
The loneliness away
And I die
Inside
When I think of all the people
I have damaged
And I'm tired
I'm so tired
And there's no one else
Except myself to blame

My life's been wasted
Everything is gone
My life's been wasted
And I am all alone
My life's been wasted
There is no one else
My life's been wasted

It's time I face myself
I've spent
My life
Trapped inside
A cycle of self destruction
And I've spent
My whole life
Trying to numb
The pain inside my soul
And furious
I cry
When I realized
I fought this war with no one
I'm tired
I'm so fucking tired
Gotta find a way
To keep myself alive
When I reach the end

Will anything I've done
Mean anything?
Will anything I've done mean anything?

-Stabbing Westward
"Wasted"

[LaughingTurtle]

*sigh* It's tough getting back into the swing of things. Stupid finding out I don't need this $70 text book for math but have to get 7 new books $80 for philosophy. Crazy trying to find a classroom (a math one i might add) tucked down some side corridor, boxed between an administration office and a lab room, in this giant Engineering building. Two hour boring lab on rocks giving by a guy from Turkey who has just come from the country considering how heavy his accent is. Coming back late to find that my roommate is leaving me. Doesn't like Tech's location, wants to be closer to home. So looks like i'm going to be alone for the rest of the semester...prolly good and bad.

Worked on Avatar wars, and the pics page and going to do yet another TWOW post later. Jeez so much doing with wotism....getting tired, should prolly have done homework instead of wotism work.

Late and have an early class tomorrow. Evilness of school again. Heard a respone from a reseme I sent out over break for the National Science Foundation...looks hopeful. Was threatened by parents, getting job no matter what even if it's flipp'n burgers...need to pay college, new car, apartment for this fall...*sigh*

Well I'm off to catch some much needed zzz's...hope they're not as elusive as usual.

[LaughingTurtle]

Crazyness. Last night was strange, yet rather than ending in a bad way as I thought it would, it turned out all right. Early in the evening things were quite rough, with a few things just not going right. I won't go into em, but needless to say, the night was looking pretty sucky. But...at around midnight or so, it was "snack time"

If anyone even bothered to read my previous post, you know that my roommate is leaving. Well he got most of his money refunded but there were a few things that he just couldn't get back, like certain fees - doctors ones, athlectic ones, and this food plan called "Flex $" Well, anyway since he couldn't get his food money refunded he thought "Well hell, if i can't get it back, i'm gonna use it up in the 24hrs or so I have left" (he currently had $350 on his card, and at certain eateries there's a discount which in effect makes it worth $700) So we grabbed nearly everyone on our hall and took a midnight trip to the local late night food joint. You should have seen the looks we got when we started loading up backpacks, trashbags, trolleys, crates, and boxes with hundreds of sodas, cookies, hamburgers, hotdogs, pizza, chips, milk, and yes even those little cracker packet things. The total was so low because of the discount we left and made a second trip. At first the ladies at the store were worried they wouldn't be able to restock all the food...but by the time we were done, they just gave up and literally said, "Awh shit, I give up, if we run out, we run out" (which they did ;) )

Attached is a pic of one of my friends haul of the booty. Poor college kids love free food.

*BAD NOTE: woke up this morning to fire drill....had little clothes on and froze my ass off....dorms are eeevil, second fire drill in three days. :mad:

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Why does my heart,
feel so sad?
Why does my soul
feel so bad?

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Just play'n with my new digital camera....wotism from my point of view. Note, i'm currently in chat :D

http://www.geocities.com/laughingturtlelt/wotism.txt

Crazy cool, blacklight poster :cool:

http://www.geocities.com/laughingturtlelt/blacklight.txt

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Will I wake up some dream I made up
No I guess it's reality
What will change us or will we mess up
our only chance to connect with a dream

Say a prayer for me
I'm buried by the sound
Of a world of human wreckage
In a world of human wreckage
Where i'm lost and I'm found and I can't touch the ground
I'm plowed into the sound

To see wide open with a head that's broken
Hang a life on a tragedy
Plow me under the ground
that covers the message
that is the seed

Say a prayer for me
I'm buried by the sound
Of a world of human wreckage
In a world of human wreckage
Where i'm lost and I'm found and I can't touch the ground
I'm plowed into the sound

Will I wake up some dream I made up
No I guess it's reality

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I'm living on an endless road
Around the world for rock and roll
Sometimes it feels so tough
But I still ain't had enough
I keep saying that it's getting to much
But I know I'm a liar
Feeling all right in the noise and the light
But that's what lights my fire

Hellraiser, In the thunder and heat
Hellraiser, Rock you back in your seat
Hellraiser, And I'll make it come true
Hellraiser, I'll put a spell on you

Walking out on another stage
Another town, another place
Sometimes I don't feel right
Nerves wound up to damn tight
Don't you tell me it's bad for my health
'Cos kicking back don't make it
Out of control, I play the ultimate role
Don't know how to fake it

Hellraiser, In the thunder and heat
Hellraiser, Rock you back in your seat
Hellraiser, And I'll make it come true
Hellraiser, I'll put a spell on you

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Man...I know I'm not bipolar, but I sure do feel like one sometimes. I was having an average kind of day...

Nearly fell asleep numerous times in geology as the teacher went over which minerals were in the continental crust and which wer-zzz...zzz, and in economics yet more fun doodling of medieval weaponry, and goofy faces. I know all the econ being lectured on from my high school class I took. Geology I know from last semester, even though it’s supposed to be a totally different section of geology....oh well. Finished my Philosophy paper finally. "The nature of a good question" Boy I wish Socrates, and Plato were still alive now, so I could show them what I think of their virtue questions and kill them in the face - royally. Had to go to the stupid math emporium again to take a 5 question quiz - woohoo :rolleyes: What is my tuition paying for? Sure doesn't seem like I'm learning anything. Looks like I'll have to wait for junior year to learn the stuff they don't teach in high school and get my money's worth. *sigh* The rest of the day is a blur of nothingness it seems. Though I could have sworn I'd done something. But that was ok, I was feel'n fine.

But then the stupid fire alarm went off again, fifth time just this new semester. When that happened it was like the high pitched screeching killed my mood, and now I was all annoyed and unhappy. Usually this only lasts for a few minutes after the alarm goes off, but here I sit still bored, and my mood isn't improving. Damnit, this is lonely with my roommate gone. Had one offer for a new roomie but I don't know. I mean, I knew my old roommate from high school, and we were good friends. Due to my stupid introverted ness I don't know if I want another roommate. Too many unknowns....does he smoke, care about personal property, get drunk a lot? The problem with reaching out (and thus having to share a living space with them for the next few months) is that you usually find out too late what kind of person they really are. I'm conflicted, it could be a good idea or not.

Another thing been bothering me...too many girls that I know that are just "friends"....must rectify that....soon

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One thing I've learned....it can always get worse....and it usually does.

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Well...in respect to Arch's reflection, I'd say I was just in a major "funk" Damnest thing a funk...you feel so out of it and yet your feelings are running wild, so how can they be out of it?

~shakes fist at non funkadelic funks~

Well enough anger and self pittying...trying to change ways but it's not an easy road to take. Still racked by the after effects of the funk and lemme tell yah, those lingering feelings can really be nasty. Getting out of a funk is all just a matter of time....avoding falling into a funk in the first place is a matter of lifestyle...something which I said I need to change.

Wish me luck

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What I can't stand are people who can't lose graciously, but even more so are those who can't win graciously... *sigh* If you make a mistake and cost yourself the game, own up to the fact, don't try placing the blame on someone or something else. If you win, bask in the glory but don't rub it in people's faces.

Important lesson of the day learned: Even if you do lose and come in last place, whether by your own fault or not, continue on and finish the race. Do it not for anyone else but do it for the sake of just accomplishing the race. For in doing so, you prove that while you may have been put out of the race, blame notwithstanding, you still have your pride. Too many people today look for outside forces to lay the blame for failing in life, when in reality, the problem comes from within. Tis better to make a mistake, or lose and learn from that experience than to go throughout life always winning. If one never loses, how could they know how much it means to win? The same goes for the splendor of a sunlight…how could one really appreciate it’s beauty and golden, warming rays if that was all they saw and never knew of the darkness of night. A victory means that much more to one who still has the bitter taste of defeat on their tongue.

Another note….still very annoyed with the pics page thing. Stupid life…if it’s not one thing, it’s another :rolleyes: And yet even with it’s popularity and wotism relatedness there’s still no link to it anywhere here at wotism other than in my profile…humpf

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Well the 'rents are dropping by tomorrow...well actually later today :rolleyes: for a visit. Bringing down some stuff for my bro's apt cause two of the roommates moved out. Also, bringing some needed stuff for me as well.

~still annoyed how he has massive amounts of popcorn and hot chocolate and no microwave (roommate took it when he left)~

Good news...with parents visiting = steak dinner, and restocking of college nummy nummies (i.e. soda, chips, pizza, etc)

Bad news....feeling sick...stupid cough and beginning of sore throat. Wouldn't cha know it, it would show up right when I'm going to be having steak, *sigh* I just can't win.

Well off to sleep, got less than 7 hours til they arrive....

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God why....neighbor's smoking pot again...normally I don't mind, but I'm sick and the smell is making me nauseous and feel even more sick if such a thing is possible....damn coughing....why doesn't the lung just come up and be done with it. Stupid dayquil not working...

I could just lie down and die....gah :(

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Well...was sick but determined not to let it get me down today. Went out with my brother and another friend into the mountains. After a few miles of hiking in the brush - and nearly killing ourselves a few times with the icy rocks and path, we got to a magnificent waterfall. Attached to the next few posts will be a few pics we took...might put up more later...

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Here's the actual waterfall....magnificent....the surrounding water area was cold enough and had enough snow so that you could actually walk out on the ice to get close to the falls...though earlier someone had fallen through in a spot...

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This next pic is of my bro and me...I'm the one in the T-shirt ;) :D

Though I've blurred both our faces, leaving unedited pics for the pics page :p

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Last one (for now) of the falls.

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*sigh* what a bunch of craptacularific past few days....

coughing so hard, it feels like i wanna throw up at times. Great mental picture eh...well it doesn't end there....nose is burning and raw from blowing it so much and just a look at my homework makes my head hurt.

But, once again, silly me was determined not to be kept inside from the stupid sickness. So I popped a few headache pills, packed a massive bunch of tissues and rode off. For those of you who know the history about the American Civil War or read the books by Jeff Shara, you'll be interested to know about my evening. Well the director, producer, etc of the new upcoming movie Gods and Generals, the prequel to the movie Gettysburg, came to Virginia Tech tonight and had a little presentation. He talked for a bit about the movie, did a little Q&A about it and then showed a 30 minute special montage of clips from the new movie, two weeks before its nationwide release. The movie centers on the character of Stonewall Jackson, and three major battles are represented in the movie, Manassas, Fredericksburg, and Chancellorsville. (Though 4 were filmed, Antietam will only appear in the DVD - which will be a whooping 6 hours long) Looks to be a really good movie...as good as Gettysburg was. If the second one does anywhere as good as the first one did, he'll continue onto the third and final book adaptation, The Full Measure which centers around Ulysses S. Grant.

I really enjoyed it...suffered a little when I got back to my room for all the movement and such, but well worth it in my opinion. Now once I do a little homework...I should be able to get on Avatar wars...

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Once I had my heroes
Once I had my dreams
But all of that is changed now
The truth begins again
The truth is not that comfortable, no
Mother taught us patience
The virtues of restraint
Father taught us boundaries
The knowledge we must go
I'm trying to protect my unity

That's when I reach for my revolver
That's when it all gets blown away
That's when I reach for my revolver
The spirit passes by this way

A friend of mine once told me
His one and only aim
To build a giant castle
And in it sign his name
Sign it with complete community

That's when I reach for my revolver
That's when it all gets blown away
That's when I reach for my revolver
The spirit passes by this way

Now that the sky is empty
And that is nothing new
Instead they look upon us
When they tell me
That we're nothing
I say!

That's when I reach for my revolver
That's when it all gets blown away
That's when I reach for my revolver
The spirit passes by this way

That's when I reach for my revolver
That's when it all gets blown away
That's when I reach for my revolver
The spirit passes by this way

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Man, all I can say is I feel kinda stunned. Just read Wotism's Future thread and Mith's comment. Do I really act superior? Most of all out of the mods? How many people also feel this way? I never thought I would come off that way. I became a mod to help better wotism, not so that I could pad my ego that I was somehow better than everyone else at an online message board. I mean, this really hit me. It feels as if I have been going on posting throughout the board perceiving myself to be a helpful teacher, fixing some problems here, finding avatars for people there, working on the pics page and the avy wars, and here I find myself perceived by some people as some upitty power monger.

I know not everyone feels this way but it still hurts. I know they don't mean it to hurt, but it does. I know I can't please everyone, but once again, i'm just one of those people.

*sigh*

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Screwed again....fah.

Need sleep too...3 hours just ain't enough....

Stupid school, stupid racing, stupid cancer, gah

~needs to write TWOW or something...anything~

Don't know why, just started feeling depressed a few minutes ago. *sigh*

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Life it seems will fade away
Drifting further everyday
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deadly loss this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell i feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me but now, hes gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now i cant think, think why i should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now i will just say goodbye
Goodbye

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*sigh* well the past few days have been adventures in ennui land. Not much work, which is a good thing and I’m not complaining about that, but not much to do else wise. It’s so boring at times…I could almost say I miss English class. I had a really good professor and writing is sort of fun for me, hence TWOW and Honor Bound. (Even though I don’t think I’m that good at it) The best I get now is a crap load of philosophy reading and calculus work. Fun, fun :rolleyes:

The weather is lousy as well, first raining all day and now snow and ice. Found myself watching movies a lot, because there’s no point in going out in that stuff. Though, if the weather improves any soon I’ll be heading over to the local art gallery showcasing the works of Frank Hobbs. He was a guest speaker for my fine arts class and had some nice work; it should prove to be interesting and broadening experience.

My stupid computer and internet have been giving me problems for the past few days. My computer seems to enjoy locking up with 100 % CPU usage after watching a movie or running a certain program. In addition the Uni’s internet servers have also been driving me crazy. Paying a lot of money for something that is supposed to give me 600-800kbps and I’m only getting 20-40kbps is pretty crappy. Hell, at times I can’t even log on to AIM or MSN messenger it’s so bad.

I miss just hanging out with my friends back home. College isn’t bad, and there are some good people here, but it’s just not the same.

Yet I still can’t bring myself to read COT. I think I might be stuck on the first chapter til the beginning of March when spring break comes and I have to take the four hour trip home. Then depending on how things go, I might read more of it if me and my brother take a road trip up to Michigan where my mother is currently with my ailing grandfather. His condition hasn’t improved, and is stable at best. I don’t really know how to feel at the whole situation. I hate to know that people are suffering, but I wish that he could also live forever. Being so far away sucks, for it distances me from the problem but it doesn’t make it any better. I think the thing that gets me the most though, is that while I’ve known friends who have died, I’ve only really known one family member who has died, and I was too young to really know what was going on. I fear what feelings may come as due to my inexperience with this type of situation.

Well it’s only 2:30am but I’m tired, it never seems I can get enough sleep lately. Wotism’s been slow tonight, so I think I might call it a night soon.

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Wow I’m not in a very happy mood!

First Hypocrites. Sure it’s bad if I do it but when they do it, it’s perfectly alright? If we’re having a serious conversation and I divert my attention to something else I’m wrong, yes, feel free to call me down for it. That is the whole nature of a serious conversation is that it should take precedence. But don’t you go and do it when I try to have a serious talk with you; otherwise you’re calling the kettle black.

Next Internet. Right at the moment I was just logged off of aim and MSN. I can’t do half of what I want to do that’s internet related and the stuff that I have to do takes three times as long, if it ever does get done.

Stupid weather. Sure it’s nice to get the day off from school tomorrow, but the eateries have been closed due to it which means no dinner for me. Normally that wouldn’t affect me in the least, but 1) I had no breakfast 2) lunch was 10 hours ago 3) I’m pissed and need to nosh on something. It doesn’t help that I have pretty much no food in my room. I’m down to my last few sodas.


If you need me I’ll be banging my head against the wall.

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Situation - not better.

Just finished watching Resrvoir Dogs, and before that Resident Evil. RD - crazy movie, yet ok. RE - crappy movie, waste of 2 hours. Stupid internet. More hungry than before, down to 3 soda's and about a quarter bag left of cheese puffs to last me to whenever the roads clear up or the places open up again. Damn I should of had a bigger lunch.

Gah, stupid friends, left for sledding while i was out checking out the eateries. Think I might write some TWOW...though hopefully with the way I'm feeling now I won't pull a Malcor turn out that I kill off Duncan :rolleyes:

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Weeee wotism to hell in a handbag... :rolleyes:

That and the people on my hall are fighting each other for fun right outside my door.....the intelligence here is suffocating me.

~continues to bang head against wall....while writing TWOW~

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I almost don't know what to say. To think everything can change with a single phone call. I felt numb at first, and now I can't stop feeling sad.

Why did you have to say adieu
You still had much left to imbue
All the things we did
All the times we had
I will never ever forget you

So much that you went through
One can’t image what you knew
The horrors of war
The joy of family
I will never ever forget you

A happy and full life you did accrue
One could only hope for one too
A friend to all
Loved by many
I will never ever forget you

Life it seems can be quite shrew
To take such a person like you
Words cannot describe
How wonderful you were
I will never ever forget you

Goodbye Grandpa, RIP

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Ok, I’m pretty freaked out right about now. Class has just ended, so I was heading over to one of campus’s eateries – it was about noonish so you had the lunch time crowds walking around. Well, as I was nearing the crosswalk get over to the other side of the street, this girl a few people in front of me stepped off the curb and fell. Now what makes this scary is she started to go into seizures. I don’t know if she hit or head or what because I hadn’t been looking in her direction, but all I know is she started to go into some pretty heavy seizures, with her face turning blue. Luckily some apparently medical knowledgeable people stepped forward and tried to help her. I for one have little medical knowledge and so stayed back and just gave them room. I wish that I could have helped in some way; I felt so powerless just standing there. I must say one thing for today’s epidemic of cell phone carriers, I’m happy for it, in that seconds after she fell, half the crowd of people just walking by had their phones out and were calling emergency services. Though it still seemed like an eternity before the police cars and ambulances rolled up. But thankfully it appeared as if they quickly got things under control. Man, stuff like that really scares the shit out of me.

On a side note, I would like to thank everyone who has expressed condolenses and offered help following the sad event on Tuesday. I really appreciate your kindness and friendship during that hard time really helped.

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Six o'clock in the morning
My head is ready to explode
I can't believe I made it home alive
I don't remember where I went
Or what I was drinking
But I know it's made me sick
And I'm not denying
That I get this way
When I try to get over you
I get this way
When I try to get over you
Sometimes it hurts so much
To lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts so much
To lose the one you love

I tried so hard to hate you
But it only makes things worse
I only end up hating myself
And as my hatred grows
So do the lies
It's hard to face the truth sometimes
God I feel so useless
God I hate myself
When I try to get over you
I hate myself
How will I ever get over you?
Sometimes it hurts so much
To lose the one you love
After all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel but no
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away
I always knew it would one day
Sometimes it hurts so much to lose
The one you love

-Stabbing Westward "Sometimes It Hurts"
:(

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Well....seeing as I've nothing better to do at the moment (other than work that is :rolleyes: ) I might as well write about my spring break.

First off, no I didn't travel off to some exotic location and party it up with half naked college honeys that were willing to do anything for mere brightly colored plastic beaded necklaces. Though, nor did I end up in some dank, dark god forsaken jail in the middle of a non English speaking town sitting across from a dirty man named Pablo who won't stop asking if I work out.

No friends, I traveled back home to be with family for the first time after certain rough events occurred in the past few weeks. It was a good revitalizing experience. While some sad feelings were brought to the surface again, it was necessary in moving on. I got many needed things done as well, and also got a break from hectic school life. As an added bonus I decided not even to mess with the dial up connection at home so being away from the internet was quite refreshing. It's feels good to just get away from it all once in a while. I mean all the cell phones, instant messengers, email, etc, while very convenient; can also be a drag on you sometimes. Always being connected is stressful. So while I may have not party-hartied, I did get some major sleepage in which is always good.

Though I’m disappointed in that the majority of my friends back home weren’t on spring break because theirs wasn’t until this coming week so we couldn’t get together.

So after visiting with the ‘rents we traveled back to Blacksburg and for the past few days I’ve been slum’n it at my bro’s apt until the dorms reopen on Sunday. While breaks are all good and everything, the coming back part is the pits. Gotta takes two major exams this first week back, work on some wotism things (avatar wars, pic’s page, skim those 2000+ posts heh) get ready for fall classes selection, continue the seemingly never ending and quite often fruitless job hunt for the summer, among other things.

But, I can honestly say, it’s good to be back, missed you peeps, and FAH! :D

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Well not much to talk about so I guess I'll talk about that little bit and then just ramble on about nothing in general...feel free to bail out after the regular stuff, that is if you can even call it regular...meh.

Well, finally back in the dorm room, my home away from home, a man's castle, the sweet comfy abode - Yeah... right :rolleyes: The closest it gets to being a castle is the cinderblock walls, and there isn't anything comfy about it resembling a prison cell heh. Well with a few things plugged back in and computer hooked up to the internet it's like I never left.

A few rants, first stupid geoglogy lab teacher. Ok the lab is two hours once a week...it's extremely boring as we study rocks and such for the entire time as the teacher vainly attempts to explain the labs and problems with his limited vocabulary. Now this is nothing against him being from a different country, rather that the labs sometimes require detailed information and teacher input which he is unable to give at times.

Both good and bad is the fact that a lot of the lab seems quite simliar to the one I took last semester...good in that it helps when i have problems, but bad in that it's like rehashing the same old stuff - major boredom. Anyway, on with the rant...so the dude left for Cali 2 weeks ago and we had spring break this last week so the class hasn't seen him for two weeks. Well in an email during spring break he announced our mid-term exam on monday, the first day of school back. GRRR. Not only that he had assigned us homework over the break - ok, fine...i brought the necessary pages....buuuut in yet another email over break he informed us that it was the wrong page so with my lab book back at my dorm I couldn't do it til i got back today here on Sunday and it's due tomorrow. FAH!

Humpf all my friends it seems are now going on spring break. Evil bad timing...conspring against me.

Well I'm off to work on the stuff that's piling up..first up, pics page.............................................

EDIT: Yeah I know I said I'd ramble on, but well by the time i got done ranting I became too lazy to ramble, so well, count yourself lucky and you owe me one. :D

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I feel miserable now - a combination of both bad physical and mental states. I haven’t been getting a lot of sleep this past week and my teeth are starting to ache again. Think it’s just my wisdom teeth that need to be removed, yay something great to look forward to. Then for some reason I’m also feeling depressed. I don’t know, I guess I just kinda feel lonely at the moment. It’s like a bad case of isolation and I can’t break free.

It seems like there are a lot of things I need to do but there’s a lack of motivation. It’s both good and bad that is Friday, good because it’s the beginning of the weekend so I don’t have to worry about school and can hopefully get some good sleep in at last, but it’s bad because well….it’s Friday night and here I sit.

So many things are wrong and I just don’t know how to make them right. I’m hoping that maybe tomorrow with some rest I will have some new insight on my issues and maybe things will improve.

Addendum: I’ve just noticed… it seems that the majority of the time I post here it’s when things are on the down side. Sure makes for a disheartening read.

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Still kinda crazy and wacked out but saw this and thought it was pretty neat.

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Kind of somehow reminds me of the impending war...

Oh my God! My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real!
I can't believe all that I have
foreseen is finally happening.
I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel.
I always knew. I always saw it coming.
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
I never wanted to cease to
exist, just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses.
Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, no I'm fucking freezing.
I am the once embraced abandoned one.
I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun.

AFI - A single second

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Woah....ears won't stop ringing :D

Just got back from a punk show - AVAIL, Ensign (on same label as The Offspring and AFI), Out for Justice(local band), and The Hearts Content played(local emo/punk).

Really kick ass...even brought along a videocamera and taped it...woo!

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Stupid best intentions, worst outcome shit.

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Ok finally got pics from the punk show I went to. Kinda destroys the atmosphere with the camera in that the flash made it all bright when it was really all dark with black lights and those cool rotating lights and strobes. Meh, can't have everything I guess.

NOTE: The red arrow is pointing to me :rolleyes: The text of "Me" kinda got blurry when i had to resized it.

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In this shot I got the videocamera, taping the show.

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Lastly, this is a shot from the backing looking forward instead of from the side.

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Hmm yeah...must post here, been a while...

Nothing really noteworthy though but had a scare last night er this morning. Was 3AM in the morning, was getting ready for bed and had just finished cramming for an exam that I had to get up for in five hours. Well, as I'm climbing up my loft I notice my calendar. The 26th...wait, 3AM...thus now the 27th. I glance from the calendar to my desk where a ticket voucher for a theater play I have to attend for my Fine Arts class is sitting. Through my sleepiness it hits me...I had yet to exchange my ticket voucher for an actual ticket for the play and looking on the voucher the 26th was the last day you could do so - SHIT!

Now, this normally wouldn't get me worked up but at the beginning of the year the professor had announced that unless the world was ending if you missed even one of the "special" events that we were to attend, you would fail the course....plain and simple. If you couldn't make the dates, drop this course now. There are four events and so far I had attended the two that had come up. Yet now I stood to miss this one because I had failed to get the ticket in time thus I would fail the class, no matter my test scores, attendance, etc. After kicking myself I decided not much I could do at 3AM and best to get some rest for my exam.

Well...I woke up, took my exam, then headed over to the ticket office. With a sigh of relief I noticed three other people there with the same ticket voucher I had. It looks as if I wasn't the only one to have forgotten. Luckily only 2 shows had been sold out and I was able to get a ticket.

Whew...failing a class over something that stupid would really have sucked.

Well...gotta finish working on philosophy paper....ugh

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Just messing around in photoshop...

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More photoshop fun....man i'm bored....

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Oy...need to do some catching up. Don't really know where to begin so I guess I'll just pick the thing that sticks out most in my mind. Concerning the following post, be forewarned...I haven't had much sleep these past few weeks...3-5 hours a night so if I start to ramble on, yell at the computer screen and see if that helps....you never know.

Well on Wednesday night, James Earl Jones paid a visit to the campus and gave a speech about cultural appreciation. I must say he is in fact a very good speaker and is on par with University professors in terms of lecturing - Quite unlike the Hollywood stereotype of all show and no substance. It was amazing to find out some choice tidbits about him that came out during the speech. First off, I never knew he had a speech impediment when he was young. To go from a child who stutters to Darth Vader and a symbol that is known throughout industries by mainly his voice is a remarkable thing indeed. Going back to cultural you would never have guessed it but he has roots stemming not only from Africa but also Native Americans and the Irish.

Moving on to today, or rather was yesterday with it being 3AM now, I had the special joy of taking three exams all on the same day. I had stayed up the previous night – cramming for two of them until the wee hours of the morning and had to get up at 8 for my first class. Not exactly the best way to start any day, let alone an important one such as this. Well my first class of business management was not too bad…I managed to take down all the notes given but some parts of the lecture are pretty hazy and my handwriting is downright cryptic in it’s drunken like slurredness. It was a real battle to keep my eyes open. I can even remembering at one point using my fingers to keep one eye open.

Afterwards I was able to grab some breakfast of a bagel and sweet nectar of the gods – soda which more importantly contained caffeine. I should really try coffee again some time…it’s been so long. Meh. From there I went to geology and took my first exam of the day. It wasn’t too bad, I felt quite confident when I finished. But then I went to econ and took my second exam of the day. It seemed as if everything I had studied was no where to be found on the test. Almost as if the professor derived some sort of perverse pleasure while standing in the front of the room watching all the students painfully attempting to solve the mind boggling questions on diminishing returns of scale, marginal revenue maximizing and compounding interest.

Had a few hours break after that…I know I needed it. Then it came time for the last exam of the day…for my Fine Arts class. That one was a piece of cake compared to the others. I don’t really know why I’m writing about this, I just have this need to put something down for no apparent reason. Though the real question I think that you should be asking yourself is why you are continuing to read this. I mean, there’s got to be something on TV more exciting than what exams I took today. Isn’t there some reality show on now that you could make fun of…no wait it’s too late for those…well except for perhaps telemundo or some obscure cable channel. Anyway, back to the matter at hand…it’s 3:30AM and here I sit continuing to write for no apparent reason, I should be taking my shower and going to bed, I’m tired as hell yet I do not move.

Reflecting back on my day – heh reflecting, I see that I didn’t actually do that much. I mean, I had a lot planned, and sure taking exams is doing stuff but I didn’t really get done the stuff that I needed to. I rather did the stuff that was fun and wasted time when I wasn’t in class. So much to do, and yet so little time.

One funny thing I discovered about myself is that as the later it gets the more motivated I become to do things. During the afternoon or morning I see work but tend to either avoid it or just piddle around for the most part, except for going to class and such. But as darkness descends and the day draws to a close I find myself working harder and harder and trying to do everything I had planned for the entire day into the span of a mere few hours.

Well the text is rapidly becoming more and more blurry and if not for MS word’s little spell check thingy with it’s red and green squiggle lines this post probably would have been as puzzling as one of Satan’s Saturday night drunken ones. No offense Satan ;) – and yes I did write this in Word for that very reason. I can’t have people thinking I’m trying to upstage her, heh.

While I probably could go on and on (except for the text melding together part) I doubt many of you have even read this far and just stopped about halfway back and gone on to bigger and more exciting things like clicking the refresh button in hopes of a new post in general discussion has magically appeared. Well since that half has moved on to greener pastures I feel it is ok for me to make fun of them seeing as how they’ll never know. So to all of those people with no patience or attention spans I say th

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Bunch o crap. Crapidy, crap, crap.

If anyone saw the venting thread you would know that this morning there were three fire alarms...one at 5:30AM, 6, and 6:30. It was cold out and I had been nicely asleep. What was worse was that you would think it was the last one and go back to bed…I mean who would pull the alarm again so soon? Yup dumbass college kids, that’s who, silly me. That sucked majorly. So basically I didn't get to sleep til 7 when it was already light out and people were moving around outside. Can’t wait til next semester when I’m going to be living in an apt.

Well, finally woke up at 3 something...showered, lunch, yaddah, yaddah, and here I’ve been sitting now 8:30PM…been studying for my philosophy exam which is tomorrow. Was such a nice day out too…which I could have been doing things outside and such but nooooo. I mean I’ve gone to every class, taken notes and whatnot but still the stuff is insanely confusing.

~shakes fist at philosophy~

Too bad I can’t get arch to come down to VA and take the test for me heh :D

One thing I pondered at 6:40AM this morning while waiting in anticipation for yet a fourth alarm that thankfully never did come – what is the point of having a car alarm anymore? Society has become desensitized to them that they have become virtually useless. I mean you hear one in the parking lot prolly every day and you do nothing…the other people in the parking lot don’t even bat an eye, much less expend enough energy to bother noticing the car. They are regarded more as an annoyance than as a safety device. In the past some were so sensitive as to be set off by just brushing up against the car and eventually people stopped caring if one went off. They give a false sense of security to their owners now, which does more harm than good. A skilled thief can break into a car, and deactivate an alarm in the same amount of time that it would take the owner to fish out their keychain and hit the off button.

Best car security device in the world – Don’t own a car or own a crapy one heh :D

One last rant. Most of you know about Direct Connect. It’s a p2p file sharing program. Well, VA Tech had a campus wide one where only those on campus could use it. Well thank’s to the RIAA (Recording Industry ASSociation of America) it’s gone now. The RIAA filed suit against three other universities that had similar p2p systems so to avoid getting sued ours was taken down. The thing is, not everything transferred was copyrighted or even music. Hell hardly any of it was music, I mostly used it to get anime that you can’t get in the US and only by fansub. Direct Connect is a far cry from napster. The music I did download was mostly non mainstream that you can’t buy in stores like the game theme songs or anime music, etc. But oh well…even though music sales are up and CD’s cost pennies to make and people continue to still buy them at $13-$18 a pop, the RIAA feels that it is its duty to screw everyone.

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Stupid being last in chat.

~kicks rock~

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ARGH I hate dorms!!! STupid fire drill strikes again...right when i'm in chat with Anita and Mes.....NOOOO! I finally get sandwitched by two lovely canadian hotties and I have to leave :cry: :(

*sigh*

I think I'm going keep a tally of how many fire alarms I have starting now to the end of the semester

Fire Alarms: 1

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WOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

Heh just got back from another punk show. This one featured Strike Anywhere and I recommend to all to go find some of their music and download it. As usual got some pics :D

This is one of my friends crowd surfing heh

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This is one of the lead singer rocking out...and yes those are shoes hanging from the top of the pic...there was a mini balcony thingy.

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Last one...this was without the flash...so this is what it actually looked like inside

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*sigh* stupid time and never there being enough of it.

Well...spur of the moment on Friday decided to spend the weekend at my bro's apartment. Grabbed laptop and some clothes and I was set. Had a little lan/gaming fun with Diablo and such during the day. Checked out the newest Matrix Reloaded trailers...man, I can't wait May 15th :D

Then later we went out driving for a few hours...just to explore the area. Lost count of how many deer we saw along the way on the crazy twisty mountain roads. I don't know, there's just something really exciting about driving beneath a moonlight night in the middle of the woods with nothing but your friends and some good music.

Had the ritual night slurpee runs. An all around good time. Turned out to be a good idea...once I got back I checked up with some friends and there had been 2 fire alarms at 5AM and 6AM on sunday. Morons will never learn.

Only bad part is now I have a lot of work to catch up on. Stupid 10 page papers....grrr. That and some wotism things as well with Avy wars needs to be updated and the wotist pic page. Meh

Song O Dah moment: Toto - Africa

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Argh...stupid week. Have to write a 10 page paper on how one can succeed in business. FAH! If I were able to write a good paper on how to succeed in business what the hell am I doing here? Couldn't I just go off and start my own business now, screw college and become successful with my master plan? :rolleyes: Argh!

Then there's sleep. Probelm with weekends is that you tend to stay up late...and late for me is 5-6am....so when Sunday night rolls